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Maxtiis

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  1. It's nearly 4 AM and I'm stuck laying awake unable to sleep. I believe it's anxiety related to my job that's keeping me up. I've only had it for a month and a half but I'm already hating it and dreading going in every day. I feel like everyone there just dislikes me and thinks I'm a dumbass screwup, vibes I get based just on the tone people use when I interact with them there. Then again, maybe it's due to me sounding like a stammering moron when I speak so they can't understand me.

    Why can't I ever just be happy? I wish I could just vanish without a trace, at least then people wouldn't be brought down by my pessimism anymore.

    1. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I know I already did this before, so honestly who cares if I do it again, but I've overstayed my welcome in this forum. My poor attitude certainly hasn't earned me anyone's favor around here, and regardless if people say to the contrary, I think my status posts are becoming a nuisance.

      Good luck to everybody here. This time I won't be coming back. I wish those of you that took time to talk to me can find happiness where I couldn't.

    2. Kiah

      Kiah

      Going to reply anyway just in case you read this. Nothing you have mentioned with this job from my recollection has been positive so you very well may need to look for another one and even intensify your search. At the same time I have to wonder what is your attitude towards your job as it’s usually something visible and people pick up on. It’s something that can even be detected on the Internet so it’s usually even more obvious in real life how you can come across which in turn will either draw people to you or turn them away. 

      As for SSMB I’m at the point where I don’t try to talk people out of leaving here anymore. But I will say that you overstaying your welcome is untrue. When that happens generally speaking you get banned. Regarding your attitude it’s a matter of making some adjustments. Honestly you’ve been told that you could afford to be more positive. With the statuses we all say things we wish we could take back at times. It happens so no need to kick yourself on the matter. 

      If this is it (it doesn’t have to be as you’re free to come back at anytime) then I wish you well. Just remember it calls for action on your part more than anything else. Happiness can be at times difficult to obtain but isn’t out of reach but sometimes changes-especially in attitude-are necessary in order to have it. Take care of yourself.

  2. If any of you are interested, I highly recommend trying out Smooth Doom. It's just a cosmetic mod with no alterations to gameplay, but it really is a nice touch of paint to an old classic. Honestly, it reminds me of how Sonic Mania updated the classic sprites.

    I only found out about it from a recent Civvie 11 video called Pro Doom, whose Youtube channel I'd also recommend.

    1. PaulyBFromDa303

      PaulyBFromDa303

      I've got a friend from high school who would make all sorts of DOOM levels and such mods on his own computer using all sorts of things he downloaded. He's really talented with it. I just wish he'd pursue something of that nature. He hasn't had the best of luck in life

    2. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I'd definitely call making doom wads an art of their own.

  3. This video is only about three years old, but it really takes me back to the simpler days of youtube.

  4. My job sucks so much on Fridays and Saturdays, and I'm here for another 3 hours. Ugh.

    1. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I really wish this place looked as classy as Casinopolis did.

  5. Well that certainly wasn't what I expected. Here's hoping that it's as good as the original.
  6. Part of me wishes the Link's Awakening remake had Oracle of Seasons and Ages as well.

    Maybe I'm asking for too much.

    1. Blacklightning

      Blacklightning

      We don't know a whole lot about the game yet so I wouldn't completely rule it out. I'm sure Capcom would be more than happy to go along with it.

      DLC maybe?

  7. I'm incredibly frustrated with the fact that I'll never be skilled at anything. It just seems no matter how much time I invest into anything, whether it be learning an instrument, how to draw, or currently how to play a fighting game, I never improve.

    It's definitely the biggest reason I hate myself. I'm such a failure.

    1. Forte-Metallix

      Forte-Metallix

      The only way to ensure you'll never improve is to keep telling yourself that. Everyone who was ever great in any field started off as a beginner.

      Practice will bring improvements sooner or later, but even of none of those things work out, there's millions of other fields you haven't tried yet.

      Failure isn't falling down- it's choosing to stay down.

    2. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Well that's another reason I hate myself: I'm a pathetic quitter.

    3. SupahBerry

      SupahBerry

      Have you've ever seen or think about seeing a doctor to talk about you lack of confidence???

    4. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Actually yes.

    5. Monkey Destruction Switch

      Monkey Destruction Switch

      Lately I have been feeling a lot of self-hatred feelings myself, though the reasons I hate myself are different. The biggest reasons are my poor social and emotional skills and the fact that I am lacking in any sort of ambition or drive.

      I don't have any great suggestions or anything like that, but I notice in my life, since I've realized I am so far behind in these departments that I mentioned, I have to keep my goals small and be happy if I achieve even a small victory, and try not to focus on the fact that I wish I could achieve much more faster. If I do the latter, then I won't accomplish anything at all except thinking about how pathetic I am. I need to focus instead on the little I can do and the small strides I can make. Because at least then, I'll accomplish a little and gradually get better. Not that I'm very good at doing this, obviously. Because if I was, I wouldn't hate myself so much.

      It's possible that may be applicable in your situation. I dunno though. It also might be that your talents lie in things you haven't tried yet.

      When you said "yes" to SupahBerry's suggestion, I don't know if you mean that you've thought about seeing a doctor or if you've seen a doctor. Either way though, that might be something to try. The last time I talked to a therapist was years ago. She was helpful, but she kept cancelling on me. It was frustrating so eventually I gave up.

    6. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I have spoken to a doctor. It amounted to "I don't know what to tell you," and a $930 check.

      I also have poor social skills, and I often feel people legitimately despise me. Often I'm ignored and treated like an idiot, so most of the time I keep my mouth shut to avoid revealing to everyone that I really am a dumbass. All this is on top of being ugly as sin, so I don't even like being a public presence.

      The small steps thing has never worked for me. I just can't avoid the reality that anything I do is meaningless.

    7. Kiah

      Kiah

      It’s not a fact that you will never be skilled at anything. Quite frankly you are lying to yourself with this one especially at your young age. We all find our strengths and develop skills at different stages in our lives and maybe you haven’t found yours yet and you need to continue to do so. Sometimes it takes time as hardly anyone gets it right off the bat as it usually takes time and effort to get a skill down. Exhaust all your resources available to you and seek further ones out as opposed to throwing in the towel as you aren’t destined for failure.

      I’m not trying to undermine how you feel but do you have anything positive to say about yourself? Seriously think about this. Negativity is an enormous hinderence to productivity among other things and it’s a real shame your visits to the doctor were futile although I’m not surprised seeing they didn’t help me either.

      I know it’s a real struggle as I went through (and still have my moments as it’s a never-ending battle) but you have to try to think more positively with yourself for starters. Take little steps if need be but just try really hard to not put yourself down so much. It’s something that others tend to see and that in turn has people seeing you in a negative light and keeping their distance as a result.

    8. Monkey Destruction Switch

      Monkey Destruction Switch

      To be honest, it's kind of frustrating that not only are you doubling down on the negativity, you don't even bother to say "thank you" to those who try to help you. Four people have replied to try to help you out and you haven't thanked any of them. You haven't even left a like, which I don't care about for the sake of "getting more likes", but because it can be seen as a way of giving thanks. It doesn't matter if you don't find the advice helpful - people you haven't even met have taken time out of their day to try and help you, and the fact that you don't express any gratefulness for this is frustrating. It's really quite discouraging and makes a person wonder what the point is of trying to help you if you're going to react like this.

      I don't say these things to make you feel worse, but if your negativity is getting to the point where it is not only negatively affecting yourself but also negatively affecting your interactions with other people, it's all the more reason to realize you have to start pointing yourself in a better direction. Your negativity is probably compounding every problem you described in your life, from your lack of improvement in learning skills to other people not seeming to like you. Heck, even your looks, as your attitude makes a HUGE difference in how you're perceived.

      I know, being a negative person myself, I feel uncomfortable trying to focus on the positive aspects of myself. So if you similarly can't bring yourself to do that, at least stop thinking about yourself in general and try thinking about something positive in general, such as positive things about your life. Or if you can't bring yourself to do that, at the very least try to moderate your negativity.

      And if you want to improve yourself and your life, here is one small and simple step you are 100% absolutely capable of doing. Just say "thanks" to those who are trying to be nice to you and to help you. It's simply the decent thing to do. And anyone can do the right thing, even if they lack skills, good looks, aren't popular, or whatever. In the past, you've always seemed like a swell person to me, so I'm especially confident you can do what is right, honorable, kind, and respectful. And I urge you to do so, since doing the right thing is one positive thing (in fact, it matters more than almost anything else, really) that you definitely can do, regardless of all these things you dislike about yourself.

    9. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      @Monkey Destruction SwitchI actually was going to say thank you to those that had posted comments in a reply to Kiah when I thought of something to say. I don't know if it rings hollow after a post such as that, seriously thanks @Forte-Metallix @SupahBerry @Kiah and @Monkey Destruction Switch for taking even the smallest amount of time to reply.

      I'm genuinely sorry if I appear to be a selfish, inconsiderate, asshole. Sometimes I just don't immediately know what to say.

    10. Kiah

      Kiah

      I wouldn’t go that far saying your actions equating to you being...that. It’s just that the lack of acknowledgement make you look like an ingrate and that in turn is what frustrates people. However, I know you aren’t that because I’ve seen you express appreciation numerous times in the past. If you didn’t I would of ignored you a long time ago as I have no time or tolerance for ingrates when I’m doing something that comes from the bottom of my heart. That’s what most of us here are doing in these situations and all we want in return is some kind of acknowledgement and appreciation for our efforts to help you out.

      It’s okay if you don’t have anything to say. You don’t even have to necessarily reply with “thank you” as the likes/reactions are an alternative of that and are seen as a way of expressing appreciation. Doing nothing or bucking back against our efforts to help you even is the worst thing you can do in these situations honestly. That’s not to say you can’t disagree with what we say as you are free to do so.

      So really it’s no worries. Just keep that in mind, okay? And you’re welcome 😉 

    11. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Often I've never chosen to use likes, mostly because I think a written comment literally speaks more volumes. Maybe I should attempt both more often.

      And honestly I think I can explain that I acted the way I did was due to forgetting to take my anti-depressant. Needless to say not taking really puts a damper on my mood, something I really wish wasn't the case.

    12. Kiah

      Kiah

      While I agree that a written comment speaks more volumes but when it comes to social media, forums and the like likes/reactions tend to pack a more powerful punch to express your agreement and appreciation. I actually usually do both I guess to emphasize my appreciation knowing that people like receiving both in return.

      I wish it wasn’t the case either but it’s good to know what the root of the problem was and you know how to rectify it. I’ve interacted with you enough to see this wasn’t normal with you. 

  8. I'm hating myself extra hard today.

    1. JosepHenry

      JosepHenry

      Do not, you are a god, with powers just like any of us, to make a world better by bringing happiness to others and yourself :)

      I feel that sometimes, but always forgive yourself, you are strong.

    2. Kiah

      Kiah

      What’s wrong? Did something happen to have you feel this way?

      I think knowing the root of the problem would help more on trying to help you out here. Context is key. 

    3. Failinhearts

      Failinhearts

      Don't do that, whatever you did wrong... just keep going. I know it's hard for your brain to think of reasons to not bash yourself but please reach out to those who care about you. Looks like people already do with the responses above.

      Let them help you. Because you deserve to love yourself.

    4. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Just feelings of major inadequacy and rumination on being a failure.

  9. He certainly wouldn't have been as timeless a character. I think his design is so strong due to the foundation for him being laid out by the Japanese side and refined by the American so there's a lot of worldwide appeal to be seen there. If he had influence purely from the American side, he definitely wouldn't be a hedgehog, given prior to Sonic, not many in the States even knew what a hedgehog was. I think that's why Oshima initially picked a hedgehog; it's a cute animal and it would be an exotic one to American audiences, and so would be more eye catching.
  10. For me it's "When it comes to video games in journalism as a whole, I find it hard to trust anyone to give a fair opinion. But especially with Sonic." Regardless, I like Cream for her being Amy's equivalent to Tails, just a friend and sidekick to work off of. I'm sure female Sonic fans probably enjoyed their little dynamic back when both characters actively appeared more in this franchise.
  11. Worked from 7AM to 6PM today and I'm worn out. It's good to be home.

  12. Just finished Mega Man 11. Overall I'd say it definitely ranks up there in how I'd rate the classic series's games, I certainly enjoyed it more than 10 just to give an idea. The stages are varied and lain out in ways that make the game's main gimmick feel more like it's up to the player's agency to use, rather than forcing you to, and still it skirts the line from being completely game breaking where most other tools the player can abuse would be.

    However it definitely has some blemishes. Enemy placement is often just obnoxious, and especially in the first Dr. Wily level, where the entire main threat of the stage is being knocked back into pits from enemies right on ledges. Bosses that use the power gear in the middle of the fight also gain invincibility which is particularly annoying with the likes of Blast Man and Torch Man.

  13. My boss changed my work schedule so that I have to come in at 7 AM now, because "I don't work enough."

    I literally only started 2 weeks ago and have been working non stop while there for 8 hours everyday, so I'm not sure what exactly I'm doing wrong. Then again I'm always screwing something up so maybe it's just a "being me" problem.

    1. Kiah

      Kiah

      I seriously doubt that. Sounds more like you are dealing with a bad boss.

      But if you are actually doing something wrong then you should be notified of that with specifics and given suggestions to improve as opposed to making changes or disciplining you right off the bat especially seeing you are brand new to the job and it’s going to take some time not only to learn the job but to be able to do it well. 

  14. Made it to the Dr. Wily levels in Mega Man 11, and the trip there was certainly filled with some bullshit along the way.

    Seriously, screw Bounce Man's level. It has to he some of the most annoying platforming I've done in a long time.

  15. I just got Mega Man 11 last night. I like it so far, but I'm noticing some weirdness about it. Hitboxes seem way more disjointed than previous games, damage knockback seems to send you farther and keep you in hitstun longer, and sometimes I swear my inputs don't register.

    1. Sean

      Sean

      The hitsun is pretty bullshit and it's somehow worse by the fact that there's an item that reduces it in the first place. The game is pretty aggravating without it (and fuck Acid Man's stage), but otherwise yeah I enjoyed it too.

  16. Good profile pic for anyone interested:

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    1. spinny

      spinny

      why does this look like the kind of animation youd see in a gorillaz music video

    2. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I'll leave you to figure it out.

  17. I had an awful day at work and I'm just ready to go to bed.

    1. Kiah

      Kiah

      Sorry to hear that with whatever happened. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. 

    2. Failinhearts

      Failinhearts

      It's for the best you sleep, and get ready for a hopefully better tomorrow.

      Sorry to hear about today.

  18. What do you guys think the odds of Travis Touchdown getting added to Smash are, given his new game was just released?

    1. Tracker_TD

      Tracker_TD

      Apparently Suda outright said on a pre-release stream for TSA that he's not in

      Granted he could just be lying but idk 

    2. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Yeah seriously. The guy's an enigma, so for all we know it could have just been opposite day for him.

    3. Blacklightning

      Blacklightning

      Apparently the new game was overwhelmingly mediocre but it's not like the majority of Travis's presence wasn't already Nintendo focused and inspired.

      ...was NMH2 even ported outside of the Wii? I don't remember seeing one.

    4. Jovahexeon Ogilvie Maurice

      Jovahexeon Ogilvie Maurice

      As much as Dante's. Both series had their producers saying they weren't getting in. At least for this Season. So......

    5. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I thought the second game was released on ps3 like the first, but apparently not.

    6. RedFox99

      RedFox99

      What about Henry?

  19. Alright I finally beat World of Light's stupid final boss on Hard. Sheesh, at some points it becomes impossible to even tell what the hell is even going on.

  20. Lyndis is easily one of the cutest Fire Emblem girls.

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    I wish I knew a girl that would look at me like that.

  21. I didn't get paid for my first week of work, and now I can't even finish the stupid World of Light in Smash Bros. due to that damn boss rush.

    Safe to say I'm pretty pissed right now.

    1. Failinhearts

      Failinhearts

      Sucks man, you deserve to get paid for your work, and we also deserve a less overkill final fight.

      Hope things get better soon.

    2. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      Ugh, in this context it sounds so childish to even complain about anything tbh.

      I'm glad I at least have somewhere to vent that no one else has to see if they don't really want to.

    3. Failinhearts

      Failinhearts

      It's not childish, don't worry. You have a right to be pissed.

    4. Kiah

      Kiah

      I wouldn’t call anything you mentioned here childish. Especially the former. Sorry that happened. Was it an error in payroll? Hopefully they resolve that quickly. In the meantime is there some kind of loan system for your wages that your job can give you now? My job does that and you give them your paycheck back when you finally do get it to offset the loan.

      As for the latter there’s nothing wrong complaining about things going wrong with playing video games. So many other members do it so surely you can do the same so please don’t worry about it. Vent away. 

    5. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      It's something to do with company policy where the first two payments are sent as checks in the mail, I suppose just to ensure they're able to do direct deposit more easily. However they told me you're supposed to get them on Friday and that didn't happen nor did it today, so that's a week without getting paid. It's pretty aggravating given I was planning to use it to open a checking account.

      And because you say its ok, Smash Bros bosses suck just for how poorly they mesh with Smash's normal gameplay. They just have shitloads of health and very large, disjointed hitboxes.

    6. Kiah

      Kiah

      Oh I see. Yeah that is aggravating. I don’t understand why they don’t offer direct deposit right off the bat seeing how cost effective it is. Well here’s to hoping no other setbacks happen and you’ll get paid.

      And yes, it’s okay. Totally okay. I’m assuming you’re talking about Ultimate which I haven’t gotten yet or a Switch for that matter. One day I’ll change that and maybe I’ll get to see what you are talking about. 

    7. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      I couldn't get direct deposit anyway because I don't have an account in my name, which is why I was willing to wait for the check. Sort of a Catch 22.

    8. Kiah

      Kiah

      Gotcha. Hopefully things go smoothly from here on out. 

    9. Maxtiis

      Maxtiis

      And based on how long this video is, you can see how painful this fight can be.

       

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