blueblur98

Why are PlayStation Move controllers still so expensive

I don't wanna pay $40 for a controller just to access one DLC pack

i am. drinkig hot chocolat....

...i won the day yesterday? how'd that happen with the stuff i usually post

he's got my vote

screw trump. screw biden. the president we need is cheeseburger freedom man and his legalization of gay weed

it's old guy fight night

time to take all the halloween decorations down from my profile

EVERY TIME

EVERY

TIME

happy haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

boy howdy i sure do want that crash bandicoot nendoroid

too bad it costs more than the game it's directly based on

P5S is never getting localized ain't it

here's a discord server i made, if any of you guys want to join, feel free

https://discord.gg/VCcpCpE

anyone here got any social media sites to reccomend? i need somewhere to be able to talk to people after i leave here come january, after all.

thinking about leaving the fanbase again.

every day i've felt more and more distant from the larger sonic community, like an odd one out that's slowly and single-handedly ruining everything for everyone because of what games i like.

i just don't feel safe in the community anymore. whenever i log onto here, i can't shake the thoughts of "they don't want me here."

the 30th anniversary and inevitable new game just adds to my dread. when 2021 was confirmed as a "big year" for sonic, my initial thoughts weren't that of excitement, or disappointment, or even intrigue...

it was "here we go again."

because i KNOW it'll be controversial again. i KNOW it'll devolve into the pettiest arguements this side of south island again. i'll get harassed no matter what i think, people on other sites will tell me to kill myself and that everyone would be happier if i was dead, i'll get depressed again, and then everyone would just be annoyed at me as a result. i just... can't do it all over again. i just simply can't...

am i being too pessimistic? maybe. but apparently i'm such an easy target that i always get the worst of it. i don't think taking such a risk would be worth it again.

2017 broke me. 2021, if it goes how i expect it to go, would probably put me in an incredibly dark and horrible mental state. i just can't take another rough pre-release period like that. and for what? some blue cartoon hedgehog? it's just not worth the stress, the pain of it all.

so here's what i'm planning to do: i'm gonna stay here for the remainder of 2020, and in january 2021, i'll say my final goodbyes and leave the sonic fanbase for good.

i'm not really concerned about losing social interaction, because i don't even have friends anymore, so it's not like i'm losing some unbreakable bond. i'm just a lonely dweeb screaming into the void about dumb nonsense.

i'm sorry it had to be this way, but after 12 years as a sonic fan, i'm starting to reach my burnout point.

let's enjoy our last moments together, before i board the train into a brighter future.

happy 20th anniversary to my only form of social interaction on the internet (because social media is scary)

thoughts on crash 4:

i started with just the basic game data needed to start the game, so i was blocked off from further play after completing n. sanity peak. but just from those two levels this game is looking to be great. controls and game feel are incredibly tight and smooth.

i am not disappointed at all.

so i won that raffle...

and i've been doing market research surveys since i found out i won that raffle to scrape up some extra cash to cover the rest of the cost...

and i found a place for the PS4 to be plugged in...

LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

do you ever feel like nobody would miss you if you were gone?

oh cool, i own NiGHTS into dreams now

whenever i get my old computer tower set up i can give it a shot

this is the cool kids' table. you are only allowed here if you're AWESOME and TOTALLY RADICALTASTIC like me.

if you are cool, you can sit with me.

if you are uncool, i will reap your soul

i am now in the condo

not homeless anymore

mailbox is more easily accessible than in the old house

there sure is an elevator

oh, hey! apparently i won a raffle i entered recently, before all of this eviction stuff happened. it was for a $50 gift card of my choice, to which i opted for a playstation store gift card.

maybe when i'm not literally homeless i can do some small jobs for people around town or market research surveys or something to scrape up some extra money and use that along with the $50 i won to buy crash 4. but that's obviously gonna have to wait until i'm not literally homeless and temporarily living in a motel.

still excited, though.

locked down a condo as a place to live. we're going to move in there in a few days.

it's almost over... i'm almost there...

checked into a much nicer motel tonight.

this place has got two bedrooms, two TVs, cable service, free wi-fi, a couch with a bed inside of it, a decent little kitchen... it's a pretty nice place for a cheap-ish motel! feels like a mini-apartment in here.

meanwhile the absolute disaster we had to sleep in last night was just two beds, a small bathroom and a cramped kitchen, and absolutely reeked of cigarette smoke. that place didn't even have any paper towels, or soap.

the kicker? this far nicer place is only $5 more a night. that thing was highway robbery!