My Mentally Inspired Tunes And Their Unrealized Greatness
Even though I don't know anything about composing, I have created really good tunes in my head for now. I have created a melody that, to me, conveys something awesome. It was a melody created through channeling inspiration. I've got down the right notes and rests to this melody I hear in my mind and I got the right tempo.
The scene I envision this melody conveying would be a dark character such as Shadow the Hedgehog unleashing a magnitude of energy. What you hear playing at the higher octave is to prepare the listener for what's about to happen next. It would be a leading tune that I think people call the "bridge" in music. Therefore, this part of the melody would convey Shadow preparing to unleash.
Then you hear things playing at the lower octave and this is where Shadow unleashes his power. This part is supposed to be the chorus which conveys awesome, dark, heavy, powerful emotion. Now, this melody is supposed to be awesome, catchy, and dark. It's not just the instruments I've chosen for this melody that convey a dark, awesome mood.
It's the actual melody itself that conveys this to me. If anyone tells me that this melody conveys nothing of the sort, that it's nothing catchy, that it's "ok," or that it's all musical gibberish or something lame/awful, then perhaps it's because more things are needed to make this melody coherent for the listener and to fully bring out its intended power.
You see, there's more to making music than just having the melody down and a beat. There are so many other factors and, as long as those factors aren't met, then music might sound like gibberish or something unpleasant for the listener. Only I know what this melody is supposed to be and only I know the awesome power it has since I'm the one who created it. Other people might not know because I have yet to find a way to fully convey the melody for other listeners.
Me knowing what this melody is supposed to be is a memory. In other words, if I were to lose that memory somehow, I would perhaps see my melody as gibberish because I'd no longer know what it's supposed to be. This has, in fact, happened to me with other tunes I've made. The memory just didn't stick there and, as a result, I lost the memory and perceived my created tunes as gibberish. Fortunately, with this tune I've made, the memory is permanent.
I have also managed to bring back some of the memories of my previous tunes which means I'm back to perceiving them as amazing, catchy tunes since I now know what they're supposed to be. Anyway, I have this dark melody on a cd. But here is the youtube link to this dark melody. In addition, I will also give a link to the music sheet of this melody.
With all of that being said, I'm now going to share the links to my tunes. These are simple, catchy, memorable tunes that are great and they all convey different scenes and atmospheres. Some of these tunes convey powerful and profound emotion. But said emotion might not be conveyed because these melodies might not be successfully conveyed in their current stage.
Nonetheless, I'm going to share them anyway. I do have a beat to go along with these tunes which is a beat based off of the melody itself. Hopefully, this conveys my melodies. If not, then I would have to learn more so that I can successfully convey them later on down the road.
So, here's the youtube link to my 1st melody which is that dark tune I was talking about. You just hear the beat at first. Then you hear the melody later on along with the beat. It conveys something evil, awesome, and powerful. In regards to the chords I've chosen for this tune on the music sheet, they're basic chords since I don't know what chords I'm supposed to use:
(Note: In the Q&A Section of this packet, I said I might've gotten the notes wrong to this tune. Actually, I was referring to a previous version of this tune I made. This is my final attempt and I did my absolute best to get the notes right this time. Also, you can actually forget the instrument choice because they're not the awesome, dark instruments I hear in my head. This tune, along with my other ones, do have a key to them. I just don't specify that key.
But, I'll just give you the key signature to this Dark Tune which would be F minor. Again, in regards to the tunes I'm sharing, you might not understand them. Only I understand them since I'm the one who created them. I'll have to learn more about making music so I can make my melodies understandable for other listeners. Hopefully, other people will be able to understand them as they are now though).
Here is that same dark tune, but with different instruments. These instruments might sound like they're better quality:
Now, here's my most recent tune and I think I got the exact right notes to it. I think I'm naturally creating great tunes in my head and I wish to share them. This recent tune is one of those great tunes. My other tunes might not really adhere to a rhythm because I didn't learn enough about music theory at the time. So, someday, I plan on changing the notes a bit so they do adhere to a rhythm. In addition, I have the time signature wrong for these tunes as well. But, I'll share these tunes anyway. With this new tune I've made, it does adhere to a rhythm and I do have the right time signature.
It's a short, simple tune that I think others would love and find catchy. Since I'm a beginner at composing, I just wish to share simple, short tunes at this point. I think that's good enough anyway because there are already simple, short tunes out there that are great. Haven't you ever heard of one? I'm quite sure you have. The Frosted Flakes tune would be an example. It has the lyrics: "Frosted Flakes are more than good. They're great!" I think I'm creating simple, great tunes like this. Another example of a simple, great tune would be a tune you'd hear when a character acquires a 1-up (extra life).
Sure, the examples I gave are short tunes. But, they're still memorable and great. This recent tune I made would be one for a video game. It would be for Sonic the Hedgehog. But, it's not the type of tune you'd hear when a character earns an extra life. It would be a chorus tune like the Frosted Flakes tune. I think this tune could very well be used in a Sonic commercial. It would be a commercial featuring Super Sonic (Sonic in his golden form). It has lyrics which would be: "This is Super Sonic. He's at the speed of light!"
Here's the Youtube link to it. I also give the Soundcloud link to my tunes later on in case the Youtube links don't work for you. Not only that, but I give links to the music sheets of my tunes because I think it's important that others see my tunes on the sheet:
Now, here's a link to a different tune (the time signature is actually supposed to be 2/2). This tune is supposed to convey something bizarre and mysterious such as being all alone in a far away, distant time period or galaxy. It, to me, conveys powerful, deep meaning and is very catchy. I'm not sure what others would think of it though. I think it could very well be my best tune (along with my Dark Tune since they're both the best tunes). Again, you just hear the beat at first and then you hear the melody along with the beat. So, listen to all of it:
Here's that same tune, but slowed down and added to a scene in Sonic the Hedgehog. The slow version sounds sort of creepy/ominous which is the reason why I've added it to this scene:
Now, here's a very beautiful, catchy, memorable tune. It sounds like something you'd hear during a wedding. I add lyrics to this. Sure, they might not be great lyrics. But I think the melody itself is great. The lyrics are on the music sheet. I add lyrics to convey what each part of the melody expresses. The fact I know what each part of the melody expresses means I have a vision of this melody which means I know how I'm supposed to fully craft the melody.
As I said before, my melodies aren't fully crafted. I'm going to explain to you now what each part expresses. The first part is a statement where it goes "Bum bum bum this is love. Bum bum bum we are one." The second part builds up in tension since it's about to finish off. It's an incomplete sentence which is: "Don't you see that..."
Then it finishes off with an exclamatory question which would be "You are in my dreams?!" Lastly, this tune starts on a C chord, ends on a C chord, and is in the key of C major. I also reverse this melody and it, to me, conveys something even more beautiful. It conveys a deeper, beautiful meaning. I love the reversed version better than the forward version.
Here's the wedding tune:
Here's a link to a gentle, caring tune. It's very memorable and catchy. Again, you hear the beat and then the melody along with the beat:
Here's a cool, catchy tune that conveys deep meaning to me:
Here is another dark tune. This one sounds like a catchy, awesome, Halloween tune someone would dance to. This is supposed to be the chorus and this tune is supposed to repeat (although, I just had it play one time). The chorus repeats which is why this tune is supposed to repeat:
Here's a link to a new tune I recently made. I think it's a very good one. It conveys a strong, dramatic emotion and is catchy. It has chords and there's also a pattern to this tune because it alternates between something playing in the treble clef and something playing in the bass clef. Here's the youtube link to this tune:
Here's a link to a short, simple, catchy melody:
Here's a link to a bit of a weird tune I made:
Here's a Super Mario Galaxy 2 tune I made which would convey the scene of Mario obtaining the Grand Green Star. In Super Mario Galaxy 2, Mario collects yellow stars and then he collects the big yellow stars known as the Grand Stars. Later on in the game, you start to collect green stars.
But there is no Grand Green Star in that game. Therefore, I've come up with this theme which expresses Mario obtaining the Grand Green Star which would be a special, secret, hidden star. I first have the melody in basic piano form so that the notes of this melody can be distinctly heard:
From there, I have the Super Mario Galaxy 2 tune with more suitable instruments:
Here's a lovely tune which I think would be a full theme song:
Here's a beautiful, catchy tune that I think many people would really love:
Lastly, here's a tune that's also really good which would be a haunting tune. I haven't chosen the perfectly suitable instruments for this tune. But I think the instrument choice should be good enough. The instrument that would play the melody would be the eerie type of instrument you hear playing in the X-Files theme song.
But I'd prefer a choir instrument to play the melody. It would have to be an eerie choir that conveys the same type of vibe of the eerie instrument in the X-Files theme. Anyway, this melody is catchy, memorable, and great like the rest of my tunes and it conveys profound horror:
Now, here are the soundcloud links to all those tunes I've just presented to you:
Lastly, here are the links to the music sheets of my tunes so you can see what types of notes and rests I've chosen:
I'm actually going to point out the music sheet of one of my tunes which would be the Super Mario Galaxy tune. I've circled the pattern of notes I see in that tune which proves I'm not just coming up with melodies with randomly placed notes or, what I like to call, just plain ruckus. What's interesting is that I didn't sit there and think of a pattern of notes. Rather, this melody came to me through pure inspiration alone and, sure enough, I discovered that this inspired melody actually has a pattern of notes to it.
This means my brain can create great, catchy tunes through pure inspiration alone with no intellectualizing before hand. Of course, I do think of certain scenes to be inspired by in order to come up with these melodies. But I do not sit there and think what notes I should use to convey whatever scene, character, or atmosphere I want to convey. I let the inspiration alone create the music. It's no different than how artists say they let the inspiration alone create the work of art. Whenever I feel positively inspired, I let that emotion create the music.
Koji Kondo is the composer for video games such as Super Mario and The Legend of Zelda. Now, this Super Mario Galaxy tune I made is something I think is just as great and catchy as any one of Koji's tunes (but might not sound good or catchy in its current, beginning stage of development). There are certain tunes Koji Kondo makes which are short tunes. An example would be the tune you hear when Mario obtains the Grand Star in Super Mario Galaxy 2. I have created my own tune to express that scene and I think it's just as good as any one of Koji's tunes.
That might sound arrogant of me. But, if I was truly arrogant, then I'd be saying it's a fact that the tunes I'm creating in my mind are just as good as Koji's tunes. I'm not saying it's a fact. I'm merely keeping an open mind to this possibility. I have every reason to keep an open mind to this because, from what it sounds like, this tune really does sound just as good and catchy as one of Koji's tunes. I have suspended all factors that would make an inflated judgment and I've honestly judged this tune to be just as good and catchy as one of his tunes.
If someone else made this tune and fully crafted it, then I'd see it as being just as good as Koji's tunes. Whether this is just a crap tune and it's simply my lack of knowledge and experience rendering me unable to tell the difference between a crap tune from a really good one has yet to be determined. Like I said before, only time will tell and it's only when I successfully convey/fully develop this tune would it be determined for sure if this tune really is as good as I say it is or not. I will say one last thing before I move onto the Q&A Section.
It takes a gifted composer to convey something great, catchy, profound, memorable, and powerful in one simple melody. I think I have that gift, but have to find a way to convey it. If there's any skilled composer out there who can convey my melodies, then I'd tell them to feel free to convey them. I'll show them the music sheets to my tunes and they can get to work. But, if it's really the case that only I can convey these melodies since I know what they are, then I'll have to forget about others conveying my melodies for me.
Other Person's Response: You've got to be joking!
My Reply: I'm not joking. I really think the tunes I'm hearing in my mind are really good and that I have yet to find a way to convey them. I have every reason to think I'm creating really good tunes in my head.
Other Person's Response: Are you deaf? There are deaf composers out there.
My Reply: I'm not deaf. My hearing is just fine. I'm also not blind either and my sight is just fine.
Other Person's Response: Are you tone deaf?
My Reply: No. I can hear the difference between tones and semitones.
Other Person's Response: All those tunes you've posted up there are utter shit! Can't you make a better tune?
My Reply: There is this one tune I've recently made that you'll hopefully like. It's one of those naturally inspired tunes where I just create whatever melodies come to mind. In this packet, I claim people can naturally create good music in their heads, having no knowledge and experience whatsoever in composing. I think I'm naturally creating good music from within and, when you look at this recent melody I've made on the music sheet, you'll definitely see a pattern. This is the melody my mind has naturally created for me and, as it turns out, there is an actual pattern with the notes.
So, clearly, my mind is naturally creating a pattern of notes without even thinking. If my mind can do that, then why couldn't it naturally create good music? Anyway, in regards to this recent melody of mine, it's supposed to be a strange melody. It conveys a weird scene. Not something big and epic such as a strange scene in a horror movie. But, something like a mouse doing something strange (i.e. a more trivial scene). I think it's a good, catchy melody. But, it's not an amazing, powerful melody. When you listen to it, you first hear the beat, and then, the melody along with the beat. So, here are the links to it:
Music Sheet (I circle the pattern of notes I see):
Other Person's Response: What's your update or status now?
My Reply: I've had an emotional trauma and I'm all better now. My mind was stuck on some traumatizing worry for quite some time and that rendered me without my feelings of happiness and joy. I was in a very horrible, unhealthy state of mind, my life and hobbies were nothing beautiful, or worth living for. Now that I'm all better, I wish to go back to composing. I've abandoned it for quite some time due to my miserable struggles and now I'm ready to go back to it.
My goal in making music is to create melodies, themes, and songs other people would love to listen to. I don't want to be making music I just think is great. I wish to express myself as an artist which means I want to make music that is both great and expresses whatever it is I wish to express. So far, I know I'm not making any good music for others because so many people online have told me my music is rubbish and doesn't convey anything I described.
However, it could be the case my melodies are great, do convey what I describe, and other people don't realize this yet since my music is only in its beginning stage of development. I'm undecided as to whether I'm creating great music in my head and I'm just bad at conveying it. Or, if my mentally inspired music really is bad.
I consider the possibility that my music is great and others don't realize this yet. It seems absolutely compelling to me that the music I hear in my head is great and conveys what I describe. Anyway, I hope I'm able to create the awesome music I want to create in the real, physical world. This is a goal I wish to achieve and I don't think I'm going to have anymore miserable moments or emotional traumas stopping me from achieving this goal.
Other Person's Response: Even if your melodies do become successfully conveyed (i.e. fully crafted), they're too simplistic, predictable, and repetitive to be anything good.
My Reply: I think they'd still be great. Their power and greatness should still be there. A craft doesn't have to be complex in order for it to be powerful, profound, awesome, or great.
Other Person's Response: I agree that short, simple tunes can be great and memorable. The McDonald's I'm Lovin' It tune is very short. I think the melody only has 5 notes. Yet, so many people like it.
My Reply: Yes. It's a huge misconception to assume that short, simple melodies, that only have a few notes, won't be good tunes. If you choose the right notes and rests for a short melody, it can be a great, catchy, memorable melody. I think the melodies in my head do have that choice of notes and rests that make them great, catchy, and memorable. Some of my melodies convey powerful, profound meaning and emotion.
Other Person's Response: Is there any way to prove that the music you're hearing in your head is great and you're just bad at conveying it?
My Reply: Actually, I tried to reproduce a famous nursery rhyme, not knowing the actual notes to it. I shared my attempt at replicating it, and people told me it was awful. We all know those nursery rhymes are great and memorable. So, it must really be the case that I'm just bad at replicating what I hear in my head. It's quite possible that my own mentally inspired tunes are great, awesome, or powerful, and I'm just bad at reproducing these tunes I hear in my head.
It would be like if someone created an awesome drawing in his head and was bad at drawing it. That person just needs training and education to become a skilled drawer. Likewise, I need training and education to reproduce the awesome music I'm creating in my head. So, when I say in this packet that my melodies will become great once they're fully crafted, I'm referring to the ones in my mind, accurately reproduced.
I'm not sure if having an accurately reproduced melody is enough to convey its greatness and memorable quality. You might need more things to go along with it such as the proper chords, harmony, etc. Only then would people hear something meaningful, catchy, and great. That even applies to famous nursery rhymes. Sure, the lyrics of these famous nursery rhymes are good and memorable. But, I'm just talking about the nursery rhymes themselves. You might need more things to convey their greatness because the melody itself might not be enough.
Other Person's Response: When you compared your attempt at reproducing a nursery rhyme to the actual nursery rhyme itself, did you get the notes wrong?
My Reply: Yes, I did. When I looked at the music sheet of this nursery rhyme and compared the actual notes to the notes I attempted to replicate, I got the notes wrong.
Other Person's Response: You talk about how our brains are naturally capable of creating great music in our heads. I agree with this. So, I agree that you're naturally creating great music in your head and that you're just bad at reproducing it. Since we can naturally create good rhythms in our heads, then we should be able to naturally create good melodies and themes in our heads.
My Reply: Yes. I talk more about this later on. There's an article I share which talks about this.
Other Person's Response: If you want to start making good music in the real, physical world, then acquire all the knowledge, training, and experience you need.
My Reply: Sure. It's important others realize that my whole goal in making music is to create music that is both great and expresses whatever it is I wish to express. Even if I did, eventually, write a good melody or theme, said melody or theme might not express what I intended to express. I could be making a choice of notes and rests for my melodies and themes that I think expresses what I want to express when, in reality, it doesn't. Say, for instance, I wanted to create a melody that expresses someone showing kindness.
From my perspective, the notes and rests I've chosen for this melody would express that. But, if everyone else listened to it, it might not express that at all. This means I'd know how to create good music. But, I wouldn't know how to express myself as a composer. Sure, I could create lyrics that express what I want to express. But, the melodies and themes I write wouldn't express that. It would be like this. Imagine if a famous nursery rhyme still had the same lyrics, but a completely different melody that didn't express the intended scene or message.
Other Person's Response: So, you're saying, even if you do learn how to create good melodies, you might not know how to express what you want to express through melody writing? You might not know how to communicate what you want to communicate to the audience through melody writing?
My Reply: That's what I'm saying. Hopefully, that won't be the case. Many good composers are able to express what they want to express to the audience through the music they write. Not just in terms of lyrics, but also through the melodies they write. That's why you see so many people saying that a particular song, melody, or theme expresses something specific. They could say a particular melody expresses adventure or collecting a secret item. That's my goal is to express myself to the audience through songs, melodies, and themes.
Other Person's Response: You can write good music. It doesn't have to express what you want to express.
My Reply: I'm not just going to write good music. It has to express what I want to express. Otherwise, I'm giving up composing.
Other Person's Response: Then why not just stick with creating lyrics?
My Reply: Even though I might need lyrics to inspire a melody or theme, I'm not concerned about creating lyrics. I just want to create great melodies, songs, and themes that express what I want to express.
Other Person's Response: I heard you have autism and that you lack empathy. So, maybe that makes it difficult for you to emotionally relate to your audience. This means you might create fully crafted melodies and themes later on that you think expresses the given scene or atmosphere you want to express when it really doesn't.
My Reply: I hope that's not the case because I wouldn't be expressing what I want to express to the audience.
Other Person's Response: I'm quite sure autistic people and, even people lacking empathy, produced great music that expresses what they wanted to express.
My Reply: That could be.
Other Person's Response: I realize you're relying on your instincts/inspiration alone to create, what you think is, great music in your head that expresses what you want to express. Since you have no knowledge of how music works, you basically rely on your instincts. I'm sorry, but you won't create any good music in your head this way. As a matter of fact, it won't express anything you want to express to the audience. That's why you must educate and train yourself in the art of composing to know how to create good music.
My Reply: I soon explain why I think our instincts alone can allow us to create great music in our minds that expresses the things we wish to express. It's basically a matter of creating music from within without educating yourself, and I think this method works to naturally create powerful and awesome music in our minds. However, if I'm wrong and you were right, then I'm just not sure at this point how to create music that expresses whatever scene or character I wish to express.
I might be able to create good music by studying the rules of music theory. But, I'd be unable to create melodies, themes, and songs that bring out the inner emotions I wish to express. I could make a good melody, theme, or song anyway. But, it just wouldn't bring out those inner feelings. Even if I did create a melody or theme that I thought expressed the inner emotion I wanted to express (i.e. the given scene, atmosphere, or character), it might not express that at all to the audience, as I mentioned earlier.
Other Person's Response: You expect to naturally come up with awesome music in your head through pure emotional inspiration alone. Creating awesome music is a combination of inspiration and intellect. You need to also think about the rules of music theory. You can't just jump right in there and start creating awesome music to share to the world. I realize you're not the intellectual type of person, you really don't want to research things, and you just want to unleash your emotions through music right here and now. But, you can't create any awesome music if you're just blindly relying on your emotions without taking the time to learn things.
My Reply: I am willing to learn the things I need to learn. However, I think our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art in our minds and I soon explain why that is. I think creating awesome music in our minds naturally comes from within. It can come through sheer emotional inspiration alone. You don't need to think about anything and you can let the inspiration alone create the awesome music in your head.
It's no different than how artists say they let the inspiration alone create the work of art. Emotions are power, force, and energy. They, alone, can be the driving force for creating some powerful and awesome music in our minds. Like I said though, only in our minds. This means some education and training is necessary to convey the awesome music you've created in your head.
Other Person's Response: If you blabber something without even thinking, then it won't make any sense. Likewise, if you create music in your head without thinking, then it will be musical gibberish. The melodies you create just won't make any musical sense. That's why your tunes are so awful. There are also other reasons why they're awful. People who rely on emotions alone won't get very far in life.
Some thought, planning, and analysis is necessary if you want to create a good work of art that makes sense to others. That even applies to creating good works of art in your head. I realize you're intellectually slow, lazy, and you're no good at thinking, planning, and analysis. That's another reason why you rely on your instincts alone to create music in your head. But, that thought, planning, and analysis really is necessary.
My Reply: If that's the case, then I'd have to use another method to create good music that expresses what I want to express. Sadly, I'm not sure if I can achieve the goal of expressing what I want to express through music since I just might be incapable of this. Again, I might be able to write some good music if I learn how to do it. But, I'd be clueless on how to express what I want to express. As a result, I'd find myself throwing my hands up in the air and giving up composing. Maybe I can express what I want to express if a music teacher or some online source helps me out. In that case, I won't give up composing.
Other Person's Response: You'd actually be thinking about something when creating those tunes in your head. You'd be thinking about the scenes, ideas, or lyrics to be inspired by. But, more thought than that is needed if you want to create good music in your head.
My Reply: I think that's all the thought that's needed. From there, you just let the inspiration do the work in creating awesome music in your head.
Other Person's Response: If you're no good at composing and you give up on it, will you pursue a different field of art such as poetry? You seem like a good writer. I think you can definitely convey the emotions you want to convey through poetry.
My Reply: I have no interest in any other field of art but composing. Music is what means so much to me. So, if I give up on composing, then I'm not pursuing any other field of art. I'm just going back to playing video games.
Other Person's Response: I heard your father is a talented musician. So, maybe you have some of his talent and you are making some great tunes!
My Reply: I'm open-minded towards the possibility that my tunes are rubbish even though I claimed they're great. I think they're great. But, that doesn't make it so. In regards to my father, he is a talented musician. He's a very skilled guitar player and he's been playing the guitar for many years. My mother also has some musical talent and the DJ tells her she's a good singer.
But, what about me? I could have some natural musical talent I have to convey to the world. Or, maybe, I never had any musical talent. Lastly, in this packet, I say a lot of things to give people an open mind to the possibility that I really do have a musical talent others don't realize yet. I have every reason to think these tunes I'm making in my head are great and I explain these reasons. I also explain many more things.
Other Person's Response: Personally, I think you have no talent. You have no abilities whatsoever as a human being.
My Reply: Maybe you're right. As I point out later on, if I'm no good at composing, then playing video games is the only other hobby I'm interested in and it's the hobby I've been doing my whole life. I love the Super Mario and Zelda games because they're adventure games. I completed these games many times and my mind loves to go on a beautiful, joyful, peaceful adventure through my positive emotions.
Other Person's Response: Do you wish to be a composer since your dad is such a skilled musician?
My Reply: No. Composing is just something I wanted to do.
Other Person's Response: What is the point in writing this whole packet? It's a waste of time and effort. All that time and effort could be dedicated to fully crafting your music, which you claim is so great.
My Reply: By writing all of this, I'm showcasing my own support and defense for my claim that I really do have a musical talent. Besides, I have an obsession when it comes to sharing my personal views and that's why I write so much. But, if I don't have a musical talent, then all the things I say in this packet might as well be a matter of showcasing just how much of a pathetic joke I am. If I really have no talent and amount to nothing as a human being, then why not waste time and effort writing all of this?
Other Person's Response: Well, I don't think it's a waste of time and effort writing these packets. If you are wrong and you never had a musical talent, then people can look back at this packet anyway and gain insight into your way of thinking and looking at things. I think people would still find it interesting to read.
My Reply: Sure.
Other Person's Response: I think your Super Sonic tune is really good!
My Reply: The thing is, I want the cold, hard truth as to whether my melodies are great or not. That means I must get feedback from professional musicians rather than average people. So, just because you think my Super Sonic tune is good doesn't mean it is. It could be some average, lame tune. Or, maybe, it is great and other people don't realize this yet since more things are needed to bring out the melody's power and greatness. If it's the truth my melodies aren't that good, then I'm prepared for such truth and won't be upset one bit by it.
Other Person's Response: I think your tunes suck! Just because you envision yourself as a professional musician in your head, coming up with awesome melodies, doesn't make it so.
My Reply: What's wrong with my tunes and what makes them so bad? Are there any technical flaws making them awful? I especially ask this question in regards to my Super Sonic tune because this is my most recent one.
Other Person's Response: What does your mother think of your tunes? If she thinks they're great, then she has no clue what she's talking about!
My Reply: I have shared them to her and she does think they're great. My father lives somewhere else. But, if I shared my tunes to him, he might think they're awful. Even though my mother is naturally a good singer, she isn't educated on the subject of composing. So, my dad is the professional musician here which means he might give me the cold, hard truth.
Other Person's Response: Then your mother must be like one of those families who think their sons or daughters should be the next American Idol. The families think their singing is great. But, they have no clue what they're talking about.
My Reply: This could be the case with my mother. She thinks my tunes are great and they might be rubbish.
Other Person's Response: You're good at doing certain things though. You're a good writer since you have good punctuation, spelling, and grammar. You're also good at playing video games.
My Reply: But these are average, basic things I'm good at. Having good spelling, punctuation, and grammar is an easy, basic skill to have. Being good at adventuring through levels as Super Mario is also a basic skill. Ask any child or teenager if he or she's good at playing Super Mario games and I bet many of them will say "yes." But, when it comes to making music or doing any other form of art, that's an advanced skill that's much more difficult to obtain. So, if I really am making awful music, then it would be very difficult for me to create good music.
Other Person's Response: Learning good spelling, punctuation, and grammar was not some basic, easy skill you've acquired. You had to acquire this skill through schooling. You must also school yourself on composing if you wish to create some good music that makes sense to others.
My Reply: I think I'm naturally capable of creating great music in my head and I just need some schooling to successfully convey the awesome music I hear in my head.
Other Person's Response: You don't have to go to a class to get education. You can just learn online.
My Reply: That's what I'm doing. I'm learning music theory online.
Other Person's Response: I wonder how poor people become good composers. They can't afford lessons, books, or the internet.
My Reply: I do find myself wondering how they manage to create good music in the real, physical world.
Other Person's Response: Instrument choice is also very important when making music.
My Reply: Sure. But, if someone grew up with a certain instrument and played beautiful songs on that instrument, those songs would still be beautiful. My point is, just because you have a different instrument choice doesn't mean the power, beauty, and greatness of any melody, theme, or song you play should be taken away. The power, greatness, and meaning of music should still stand regardless of what instrument choice you have.
Having the right instruments simply brings out the intended emotion even more. But, said music can still convey its intended emotion and greatness even without the proper instrument choice. This is because the series of notes, chords, rests, etc. chosen for a piece can still convey their power and meaning even when the proper instruments aren't chosen.
Other Person's Response: What makes you think you are creating really good tunes in your head? For all we know, they could be crap tunes.
My Reply: As I said before, I have autism and it's said that autistic people are gifted. People who are gifted tend to be incapable in other areas and highly advanced in one area and I think I could be that person. I think I might be creating really good music in my mind that I have yet to share to the world. Once people recognize its greatness, they should see me in a whole new light. There is also another reason why and I explain later on.
Other Person's Response: I heard some autistic people are savants and you say you have autism. But that doesn't mean you're a savant.
My Reply: That could be so. But, still, maybe having autism does give me an upper hand when it comes to creating music in my head because I think the melodies I'm creating in my head are awesome.
Other Person's Response: According to your philosophy, which you've written about in your previous packets, the only thing that would make your music great is if people felt positive emotions from it.
My Reply: That's correct. But, I go outside my own personal definition of beauty and greatness when I talk about my music being great or beautiful. It's just for the sake of convenience.
Other Person's Response: Explain why you think our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art in our heads.
My Reply: In this Q&A Section, I talk more about why I think our brains are naturally capable of creating whole new, great works of art in our heads. Even if you're a complete novice who has no knowledge and experience whatsoever in any field of art, you can still naturally create great artwork in your head whether it be through drug trips, dreams, or just plain inspiration. During dreams and drug trips, you witness awesome and beautiful artwork with no effort at all since your brain automatically creates it for you.
If you've ever talked with people who went on psychedelic trips, I bet they'd tell you they've witnessed beautiful landscapes they've never seen before, met beings they've never met before, and heard angelic music they've never heard before. Psychedelic trips allow any average person to enter beautiful or hellish realms. These realms are great works of art created by our brains. The beings, music, landscapes, etc. are all beautiful, awesome, hallucinatory works of art.
Other Person's Response: Only savants can naturally create great works of art in their minds and there are few savants.
My Reply: You don't need to be a savant to naturally create great works of art in your mind. I talk about this when I say our brains naturally create whole new, great works of art during dreams, drug trips, and near death experiences.
Other Person's Response: I think you're talking nonsense! Our brains don't naturally create great works of art whether it be through dreams, drug trips, or any other method!
My Reply: Haven't you ever had a dream of any given environment or scene that you never witnessed before? I bet you have. For example, you could dream of a scene in Harry Potter that never happened such as Harry opening up a portal and flying in a futuristic, technological, city. This shows our brains do have this natural capability to create great artwork. I, myself, had a dream of a labyrinth version of my old home.
My old home became a beautiful, complex, work of art in this dream. I think our brains can create much more complex, amazing works of art through dreams and drug trips than our normal, waking life because perhaps certain mental processes are being more dedicated towards these astonishing tasks.
Other Person's Response: Could you explain to me another dream you had?
My Reply: Sure. I had a dream of a scene in the show Futurama which was a scene that never happened. I'm not sure if you've ever watched that show. But, I'll explain the dream anyway. The character Fry is a cunning psychopath in this dream (although, that's not his normal personality in the actual show). He takes on many tough opponents and defeats them one by one. Each opponent is given his/her scene and Fry is shown defeating each opponent.
There is one scene where there are 2 robots fighting each other in the alley. The 1st robot keeps on beating down the 2nd one. But, the 2nd one keeps on getting back up since he's a very tough opponent. Fry then comes along to the very entrance of the alley with a female robot he's created himself. I'd call this female robot the 3rd robot. This robot resembles the wife of the 2nd robot. Fry and the 3rd robot make out and the 2nd robot becomes devastated and heart-broken upon seeing this.
That devastation causes the 2nd robot to literally fall apart into pieces. Thus, the 2nd robot becomes defeated. Fry had a cunning trick to defeat the 2nd robot. Once he's defeated, Fry gives a sinister smile. So, there's my dream. As you can see, this dream I had was a good work of art that conveyed deep meaning. The deep meaning it conveyed was that even the most tough people can be beaten down by moments such as his wife cheating on him. You could call it deep meaning or simply a life lesson.
Other Person's Response: You say Fry is the cunning one in this dream. But, you're the cunning one since it's your brain that created this scene. So, that makes you the cunning artist.
My Reply: I agree.
Other Person's Response: Later on in this packet, you talk about a comical scene you made during your waking life which involves a tough guy who's unbeatable. There are other tough guys who slam their fists into him and it doesn't phase him at all. Then, a little kitten comes along, scratches the tough guy's leg, and that defeats him. It seems the Futurama scene you dreamed of is sort of like an improvised version of that comical scene you made in your waking life.
My Reply: I agree. I think that Futurama scene I dreamed of is better than the tough guy scene I made in my waking life.
Other Person's Response: You say we have dreams where we witness things we've never witnessed before.
My Reply: Yes. We have these dreams and nightmares all the time. For example, you could witness one of your family members doing something they never did in reality.
Other Person's Response: I do agree we have dreams where we witness and hear things we've never heard and seen before. But, I don't agree they're great works of art. I just don't agree that our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art in our heads.
My Reply: Think of an awesome, vivid dream you had. Are you sure that dream wasn't a great work of art?
Other Person's Response: How do our brains naturally create great works of art?
My Reply: Maybe our brains can take already-existing information whether it be from a show or anything else and create whole new scenes and works of art that are wonderful, glorious, beautiful, and amazing. As you can see here, we don't have to know anything about how to create works of art; our brains will create amazing works of art for us through inspiration, dreams, etc.
That's how I'm creating these amazing themes and tunes in my head through inspiration alone without knowing anything about composing. Technically, our brains do have a form of knowledge that allows us to naturally create great works of art in our heads because, without any knowledge of how to do that, then our brains wouldn't have the ability to create great artwork. I think it would be an instinctive form of knowledge and not the type of knowledge one would gain from studying up on things.
Other Person's Response: Do you have any article that supports your claim that our brains have an instinctive form of knowledge that allows us to create great works of art in our minds?
My Reply: Yes, actually. In this article, it talks about how we instinctively know things about music. They're things we know, but we don't know how we know them. It's called "statistical learning." I think we as human beings naturally learn what series of notes and rests convey the power, meaning, and emotion we want to convey. It's no different than how we naturally learn the English language and choose a series of words to convey the power, meaning, and emotion we want to convey. I think that's how we're able to naturally create great and powerful melodies or themes in our minds. Here's the article:
Other Person's Response: After having read that article, I think I get what you're saying. The article says we naturally have remarkable musical abilities. You think one of these abilities is to naturally create great and powerful music in our minds.
My Reply: Yes.
Other Person's Response: Even if you are naturally creating great music in your head, that doesn't make you a great artist. A truly great artist is someone who takes the time to learn and train himself to convey his artistic vision.
My Reply: I disagree. I think I'm a great, professional artist on the inside since I'm creating great music in my head. I'm just not a professional artist on the outside since I can't make any good music in the real, physical world.
Other Person's Response: I'm not allowed to visit that website which has the article. So, could you share the article here?
The Music in You
You might not be a virtuoso, but you have remarkable musical abilities. You just don't know about them yet.
Twenty years ago, a pair of psychologists hooked up a shoe to a computer. They were trying to teach it to tap in time with a national anthem. However, the job was proving much tougher than anticipated. Just moving to beat-dominated music, they found, required a grasp of tonal organisation and musical structure that seemed beyond the reach of an ordinary person without special training. But how could that be? Any partygoer can fake a smile, reach for a cheese cube and tap her heel to an unfamiliar song without so much as a thought. Yet when the guy she’s been chatting with tells her that he’s a musician, she might reply: ‘Music? I don’t know anything about that.’
Maybe you’ve heard a variation on this theme: ‘I can’t carry a tune to save my life.’ Or: ‘I don’t have a musical bone in my body.’ Most of us end up making music publicly just a few times a year, when it’s someone’s birthday and the cake comes out. Privately, it’s a different story – we belt out tunes in the shower and create elaborate rhythm tracks on our steering wheel. But when we think about musical expertise, we tend to imagine professionals who specialise in performance, people we’d pay to hear. As for the rest of us, our bumbling, private efforts — rather than illustrating that we share an irresistible impulse to make music — seem only to demonstrate that we lack some essential musical capacity.
But the more psychologists investigate musicality, the more it seems that nearly all of us are musical experts, in quite a startling sense. The difference between a virtuoso performer and an ordinary music fan is much smaller than the gulf between that fan and someone with no musical knowledge at all. What’s more, a lot of the most interesting and substantial elements of musicality are things that we (nearly) all share. We aren’t talking about instinctive, inborn universals here. Our musical knowledge is learned, the product of long experience; maybe not years spent over an instrument, but a lifetime spent absorbing music from the open window of every passing car.
So why don’t we realise how much we know? And what does that hidden mass of knowledge tell us about the nature of music itself? The answers to these questions are just starting to fall into place.
The first is relatively simple. Much of our knowledge about music is implicit: it only emerges in behaviours that seem effortless, like clapping along to a beat or experiencing chills at the entry of a certain chord. And while we might not give a thought to the hidden cognitions that made these feats possible, psychologists and neuroscientists have begun to peek under the hood to discover just how much expertise these basic skills rely on. What they are discovering is that musicality emerges in ways that parallel the development of language. In particular, the capacity to respond to music and the ability to learn language rest upon an amazing piece of statistical machinery, one that keeps whirring away in the background of our minds, hidden from view.
Consider the situation of infants learning to segment the speech stream – that is, learning to break up the continuous babble around them into individual words. You can’t ask babies if they know where one word stops and a new one begins, but you can see this knowledge emerge in their responses to the world around them. They might, for example, start to shake their heads when you ask if they’d like squash.
To investigate how this kind of verbal knowledge takes shape, in 1996 the psychologists Jenny Saffran, Richard Aslin and Elissa Newport, then all at the University of Rochester in New York, came up with an ingenious experiment. They played infants strings of nonsense syllables – sound-sequences such as bidakupado. This stream of syllables was organised according to strict rules: da followed bi 100 per cent of the time, for example, but pa followed ku only a third of the time. These low-probability transitions were the only boundaries between ‘words’. There were no pauses or other distinguishing features to demarcate the units of sound.
It has long been observed that eight-month-old infants attend reliably longer to stimuli that are new to them. The researchers ran a test that took advantage of this peculiar fact. After the babies had been exposed to this pseudolanguage for an extended period of time, the psychologists measured how long babies spent turning their heads toward three-syllable units drawn from the stream. The babies tended to listen only briefly to ‘words’ (units within which the probability of each syllabic transition had been 100 per cent) but to stare curiously in the direction of the ‘non-words’ (that is, units which included low-probability transitions). And since absolutely the only thing distinguishing words from non-words within this onslaught of gibberish was the transition probabilities from syllable to syllable, the infants’ reactions revealed that they had absorbed the statistical properties of the language.
This ability to track statistics about our environment without knowing we’re doing so turns out to be a general feature of human cognition. It is called statistical learning, and it is thought to underlie our earliest ability to understand what combinations of syllables count as words in the complex linguistic environment that surrounds us during infancy. What’s more, something similar seems to happen with music.
In 1999, the same authors, working with their colleague Elizabeth Johnson, demonstrated that infants and adults alike track the statistical properties of tone sequences. In other words, you don’t have to play the guitar or study music theory to build up a nuanced sense of which notes tend to follow which other notes in a particular repertoire: simply being exposed to music is enough. And just as a baby cannot describe her verbal learning process, only revealing her achievement by frowning at the word squash, the adult who has used statistical learning to make sense of music will reveal her knowledge expressively, clenching her teeth when a particularly fraught chord arises and relaxing when it resolves. She has acquired a deep, unconscious understanding of how chords relate to one another.
It’s easy to test out the basics of this acquired knowledge on your friends. Play someone a simple major scale, Do-Re-Mi-Fa-Sol-La-Ti, but withhold the final Do and watch even the most avowed musical ignoramus start to squirm or even finish the scale for you. Living in a culture where most music is built on this scale is enough to develop what seems less like the knowledge and more like the feeling that this Ti must resolve to a Do.
Psychologists such as Emmanuel Bigand of the University of Burgundy in France and Carol Lynne Krumhansl of Cornell University in New York have used more formal methods to demonstrate implicit knowledge of tonal structure. In experiments that asked people to rate how well individual tones fitted with an established context, people without any training demonstrated a robust feel for pitch that seemed to indicate a complex understanding of tonal theory. That might surprise most music majors at US universities, who often don’t learn to analyse and describe the tonal system until they get there, and struggle with it then. Yet what’s difficult is not understanding the tonal system itself – it’s making this knowledge explicit. We all know the basics of how pitches relate to each other in Western tonal systems; we simply don’t know that we know.
Studies in my lab at the University of Arkansas have shown that people without any special training can even hear a pause in music as either tense or relaxed, short or long, depending on the position of the preceding sounds within the governing tonality. In other words, our implicit understanding of tonal properties can infuse even moments of silence with musical power. And it’s worth emphasising that these seemingly natural responses arise after years of exposure to tonal music.
When people grow up in places where music is constructed out of different scales, they acquire similarly natural responses to quite different musical elements. Research I’ve done with Patrick Wong of Northwestern University in Illinois has demonstrated that people raised in households where they listen to music using different tonal systems (both Indian classical and Western classical music, for example) acquire a convincing kind of bi-musicality, without having played a note on a sitar or a violin. So strong is our proclivity for making sense of sound that mere listening is enough to build a deeply internalised mastery of the basic materials of whatever music surrounds us.
Other, subtler musical accomplishments also seem to be widespread in the population. By definition, hearing tonally means hearing pitches in reference to a central governing pitch, the tonic. Your fellow partygoers might start a round of Happy Birthday on one pitch this weekend and another pitch the next, and the reason both renditions sound like the same song is that each pitch is heard most saliently not in terms of its particular frequency, but in terms of how it relates to the pitches around it. As long as the pattern is the same, it doesn’t matter if the individual notes are different. This capacity to hear these patterns is called relative pitch.
Relative pitch is a commonplace skill, one that develops naturally on exposure to the ordinary musical environment. People tend to invest more prestige in absolute pitch, because it’s rare. Shared by approximately 1 in 10,000 people, absolute pitch is the ability to recognise not a note’s relations to its neighbours, but its approximate acoustic frequency. People with absolute or ‘perfect’ pitch can tell you that your vacuum cleaner buzzes on an F# or your doorbell starts ringing on a B. This can seem prodigious. And yet it turns out not to be so far from what the rest of us can do normally.
A number of studies have shown that many of the other 9,999 people retain some vestige of absolute pitch. The psychologists Andrea Halpern of Bucknell University in Pennsylvania and Daniel Levitin of McGill University in Quebec both independently demonstrated that people without special training tend to start familiar songs on or very near the correct note. When people start humming Hotel California, for example, they do it at pretty much the same pitch as the Eagles. Similarly, E Glenn Schellenberg and Sandra Trehub, psychologists at the University of Toronto, have shown that people without special training can distinguish the original versions of familiar TV theme songs from versions that have been transposed to start on a different pitch. ‘The Siiiiiimp-sons’ just doesn’t sound right any other way.
It looks, then, like pitch processing among ordinary people shares many qualities with those gifted 1-in-10,000. Furthermore, from a certain angle, relational hearing might be more crucial to our experience of music. Much of the expressive power of tonal music (a category that encompasses most of the music we hear) comes out of the phenomenological qualities – tension, relaxation, and so on – that pitches seem to possess when we hear them relationally.
Musical sensitivity depends on the ability to abstract away the surface characteristics of a pitch and hear it relationally, so that a B seems relaxed in one context but tense in another. So, perhaps the ‘only-prodigies-need-apply’ reputation of absolute pitch is undeserved at the same time that its more common relative is undervalued. Aspects of the former turn out to be shared by most everyday listeners, and relative pitch seems more critical to how we make sense of the expressive aspects of music.
Another vastly undervalued skill is just tapping along to a tune. When in 1994 Peter Desain of Radboud University in the Netherlands and Henkjan Honing of the University of Amsterdam hooked up a shoe to a computer, they found what many studies since have demonstrated: that to get a computer to find the beat in even something as plodding and steady as most national anthems you have to teach it some pretty sophisticated music theory.
For example, it has to recognise when phrases start and stop, and which count as repetitions of others, and it has to understand which pitches are more and less stable in the prevailing tonal context. Beats, which seem so real and evident when we’re tapping them out on the steering wheel or stomping them out on the dance floor, are just not physically present in any straightforward way in the acoustic signal.
So what is a beat, really? We experience each one as a specially accented moment separated from its neighbours by equal time intervals. Yet the musical surface is full of short notes and long notes, low notes and high notes, performed with the subtle variations in microtiming that are a hallmark of expressive performance. Out of this acoustic whirlwind, we generate a consistent and regular temporal structure that is powerful enough to make us want to move. Once we’ve grasped the pattern, we’re reluctant to let it go, even when accents in the music shift. It’s this tenacity that makes the special force of syncopation – off-beat accents – possible. If we simply shifted our perception of the beat to conform with the syncopation, it would just sound like a new set of downbeats rather than a tense and punchy contrary musical moment, but our minds stubbornly continue to impose a structure with which the new accents misalign.
In other words, perception of rhythm depends on a more general ability to synchronise with our surroundings. But this raises the question of why we might have such an ability in the first place. It seems telling that it emerges very early in parent-infant interactions. People tend to speak in specific ways to their babies: slowly, with exaggerated pitch contours, extra repetition, and regular timing (‘so big… so big… sooooooo big’). All of these are more typical of music than in ordinary speech. And it seems that these modifications help infants to engage predictively with the speech stream, anticipating what’s going to happen next, and ultimately to insert their coo or eyebrow lift at precisely the right moment to generate a sense of shared temporal orientation between parent and child, an experience that contributes to the powerful bond between them.
Music piggybacks on this ability, using it to choreograph experiences of shared temporal attention, sometimes among large groups of people. Experiences at concerts, dance clubs and religious services where lots of people move together to a beat often create a powerful sense of bonding. When music allows us to perceive time in a shared way, we sense our commonality with others more strongly.
And so the capacity to track a beat, which might seem trivial on first glance, in fact serves a larger and more significant social capacity: our ability to attend jointly in time with other people. When we feel in sync with partners, as reflected in dancing, grooving, smooth conversational turn-taking and movements aligned to the same temporal grid, we report these interactions as more satisfying and the relationships as more significant. The origins of the ability to experience communion and connection through music might lie in our very earliest social experiences, and not involve a guitar or fiddle at all.
It has often been observed that there is a special connection between music and memory. This is what allows a song such as Tom Lehrer’s The Elements (1959) to teach children the periodic table better than many chemistry courses. You don’t need to have any special training to benefit from the memory boost conferred by setting a text to music – it just works, because it’s taking advantage of your own hidden musical abilities and inclinations. Music can also absorb elements of autobiographical memory – that’s why you burst into tears in the grocery store when you hear the song that was playing when you broke up with your boyfriend. Music soaks up all kinds of memories, without us being aware of what’s happening.
What’s less well-known is that the relationship goes both ways: memory also indexes music with astonishing effectiveness. We can flip through a radio dial or playlist at high speed, almost immediately recognising whether we like what’s playing or not. In 2010, the musicologist Robert Gjerdingen of Northwestern University in Illinois showed that snippets under 400 milliseconds – literally the blink of an eye – can be sufficient for people to identify a song’s genre (whether it’s rap, country or jazz), and last year Krumhansl showed that snippets of similar length can be sufficient for people to identify an exact song (whether it’s Public Enemy’s Fight the Power or Billy Ray Cyrus’s Achy Breaky Heart). That isn’t long enough for distinctive aspects of a melody or theme to emerge; people seem to be relying on a robust and detailed representation of particular textures and timbral configurations – elements we might be very surprised to learn we’d filed away. And yet we can retrieve them almost instantly.
That fact becomes both more and less amazing when you consider just how steeped in music we all are. If all the exposure in elevators and cafés and cars and televisions and kitchen radios was put together, the average person listens to several hours of music every day. Even when it isn’t playing, music continues in our minds – more than 90 per cent of us report being gripped by a stubborn earworm at least once a week. People list their musical tastes on dating websites, using them as a proxy for their values and social affiliations. They travel amazing distances to hear their favourite band. The majority of listeners have experienced chills in response to music: actual physical symptoms. And if you add some soaring strings to an otherwise ordinary scene in a film, it might bring even the hardiest of us to tears.
So, the next time you’re tempted to claim you don’t know anything about music, pause to consider the substantial expertise you’ve acquired simply through a lifetime of exposure. Think about the many ways this knowledge manifests itself: in your ability to pick out a playlist, or get pumped up by a favourite gym song, or clap along at a performance. Just as you can hold your own in a conversation even if you don’t know how to diagram a sentence, you have an implicit understanding of music even if you don’t know a submediant from a subdominant.
In fact, for all its remarkable power, music is in good company here. Many of our most fundamental behaviours and modes of understanding are governed by similarly implicit processes. We don’t know how we come to like certain people more than others; we don’t know how we develop a sense of the goals that define our lives; we don’t know why we fall in love; yet in the very act of making these choices we reveal the effects of a host of subterranean mental processes. The fact that these responses seem so natural and normal actually speaks to their strength and universality.
When we acknowledge how, just by living and listening, we have all acquired deep musical knowledge, we must also recognise that music is not the special purview of professionals. Rather, music professionals owe their existence to the fact that we, too, are musical. Without that profound shared understanding, music would have no power to move us.
Other Person's Response: Do you have the natural ability to pick up on the beat of a song?
My Reply: I don't think I do.
Other Person's Response: Then what makes you think you have the ability to naturally create great music in your head?
My Reply: Because other natural abilities can still remain intact even though other ones are absent. So, even though I might not have certain natural musical abilities such as picking up on the beat of a song, I still might have the natural ability to create great music in my head.
Other Person's Response: Maybe you really do have the natural ability to pick up on the beat of a song and that ability is just turned off since you have no interest in grooving to a song.
My Reply: That could be so. When I listen to music, I do feel powerful and profound emotions. But, I don't groove to music. Also, I'm able to naturally create a beat for my melodies. So, maybe you're right.
Other Person's Response: According to you, we should all have a musical talent since we can all naturally create great music in our heads.
My Reply: Correct. However, some people require dreams and drug trips to naturally create great works of art in their heads since they can't do it in their daily life. Maybe they just need to awaken the ability to do it in their normal, daily life. I think I have because I'm naturally creating great music in my head without the need for drug trips or dreams to pull it off.
Other Person's Response: Try to come up with an idea pertaining to any given subject while having no knowledge and experience in that subject. You might think your ideas are great and meaningful. But, I dare you to share them to people experienced in these fields and they'll tell you your ideas are nonsense. Whatever musical tunes you're inspired to create in your head will also be nonsense because you have no understanding of music theory. Your melodies will be nothing great, they'll be rubbish, and they'll make no musical sense.
My Reply: Well, I'm able to naturally speak the English language and the things I say make sense to others and convey powerful meaning. So, why couldn't I naturally create music in my head that also makes sense and conveys powerful meaning? Statistical learning allows us to naturally create great ideas and works of art in our heads. But, things our brains haven't naturally learned would only render us without that natural gift. When you talk about coming up with nonsensical ideas, you'd be talking about a situation where our brains haven't naturally learned something.
Other Person's Response: If you're naturally coming up with great melodies, then why do so many people think they're awful?
My Reply: It's because they're not fully crafted melodies. I talk about this more later on.
Other Person's Response: To be good at anything, that requires study and practice. Creating great works of art in our minds is no exception.
My Reply: It's obvious to me, at least, that our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art and melodies in our heads. If you casually said the phrase: "I went to the store today," that would be an average melody because you could translate that spoken phrase into a melody. If you said or sung that same phrase differently, but with power and greatness, it would very likely be a great melody and not just some average melody.
So, you could either say/sing that phrase in your mind in the most basic, bland way, or, you could naturally say/sing it in a whole new way that makes it a great melody. When you come up with average, lame melodies, that's just your "average joe" within you speaking. But, when you bring out that awesome artist that naturally dwells within you, that's like your inner god speaking or singing an awesome melody. Of course, other people might not understand the awesome melodies you're trying to convey and they might think they're awful.
That's why you must learn how to convey their power and greatness. Conveying a basic, lame melody would yield a meaningful melody to other listeners. But, it wouldn't be that good of a melody. As for my melodies, I don't think they're lame or awful. Once I convey them, you should realize they were awesome melodies all along. I'm just no good at conveying my melodies at this point and that's why I must improve as an artist so I can convey them.
Other Person's Response: If our brains were naturally capable of creating great works of art, then that would be a miracle which means there'd be no need for books on music theory. We wouldn't need any training and education.
My Reply: Well, even though our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art, we need education and training anyway because we'll suck at trying to convey our mentally inspired works in the physical world. That's why we still need those books. Imagine a novice who has created a wonderful drawing in his head. If he attempted to draw what he's envisioned, then it will suck. The drawing in his head is great. But, what he drew would be awful. When I created my tunes, I thought the chords and other things I've added to go along with them was good enough. I mean, even though these are basic chords I've added to my Super Sonic tune, aren't they the right chords? Apparently, my tunes still suck and I want to know what's missing and/or what technical flaws need to be addressed.
Other Person's Response: I admit, our brains are amazing, complex organs. But, that doesn't mean we're gods who can naturally create awesome works of art in our heads.
My Reply: I mentioned earlier I had a dream of a labyrinth version of my old home and how it was this beautiful, complex work of art. If I attempted to draw that scene, the drawing would be awful. But, if I could somehow record my dreams and share the actual image I dreamed of, I bet people would say it's a beautiful work of art. As a matter of fact, if we could all record our dreams, I bet they'd be great works of art to share to others. That means even complete novices could share great works of art they've naturally created in their own minds.
Other Person's Response: Your attitude or mindset of believing you're this naturally gifted musician won't get you very far. Nobody can naturally create great music in their heads!
My Reply: I think such an attitude/mindset is something to be proud of because it's being your own boss or master in your own head. You get to be the awesome musician in your own head and you don't have to follow any rules or learn things. Of course, you do have to learn things and undergo musical training if you wish to successfully convey the awesome music you hear in your head to others. But, in terms of creating awesome works of art in your head, you're the master and boss of that. You can be the natural professional!
Other Person's Response: Even if we could somehow record the works of art we naturally create in our minds, I don't think they'd be good works of art. You have to literally be an experienced professional to create good works of art in your head. That's not a natural ability an average person can have.
My Reply: Personally, I think they would be good works of art. That all goes back to what I said about recording our dreams and nightmares. Also, our mentally created works don't have to be the complex craft of an artistic mastermind to be something great. Even simple works of art can be great. When we naturally create works of art in our heads, sometimes, they can be complex crafts while, other times, they can be simple and great. That labyrinth I dreamed of would be an example of a complex, great work of art. But, the simple tunes I'm creating in my head would be an example of a simple work of art.
Other Person's Response: A work of art has to meet certain qualifications to be classified as "good", "awesome," or "great." I'm not sure if our dreams would classify as great works of art.
My Reply: If we were to record our dreams and have professional artists look at them, I bet they would meet these qualifications.
Other Person's Response: If our brains do have this natural ability, then we'd be naturally following the rules of music theory without even realizing it when we naturally create great music in our minds.
My Reply: Yes. These are the rules we need to actually follow. Fortunately, our brains are machines that naturally work according to rules. They work according to the laws of science. The science of music would also be one of these rules our brains naturally follow. That's why our brains naturally follow the rules of music theory.
Since we can naturally choose a series of acts, tones, and gestures that conveys love, joy, hate, sorrow, and greatness, then we should also be able to naturally choose a series of notes and rests in our heads (i.e. create a melody or theme) that conveys love, power, joy, beauty, sorrow, and greatness.
When we naturally display expressions that convey beauty and greatness to others, our brains are naturally working according to certain rules. Therefore, our brains should also have the ability to naturally follow the rules of music theory to create great music in our minds. In other words, since expressing power and greatness through acts, tones, and gestures is a natural ability, then expressing power and greatness through music in your own head should also be a natural ability.
Other Person's Response: We can go outside of these rules if we wanted to because we could create a completely random series of notes and rests in our minds and we could perform random acts, tones, and gestures.
My Reply: Sure. We could do that. Or, our brains can revert back to creating music in our minds that isn't random and allowing us to perform acts, tones, and gestures that aren't random. So, your brain can create whatever it wants. It can create random, lame, or awful music in your mind. It can also make you perform acts, tones, and gestures that are just plain awful or meaningless to others.
But, when you display expressions of kindness and love, these would be expressions that convey power and greatness. Thus, your brain would be allowing you to perform some awesome expressions. The same idea applies to music. Your brain can also naturally create some awesome music in your head.
Other Person's Response: None of what you're saying is true. I'm an experienced composer and I can tell, just from looking at your melodies, that they're no good.
My Reply: Will there be other professional composers and musicians debating you on that? Perhaps they'd say I might have a great melody that I just have to convey to the audience.
Other Person's Response: When you create music, make sure you have a complete and thorough understanding of composing. Don't rely on a little bit of knowledge because that won't get you very far. Go all the way!
My Reply: I used a little bit of knowledge to create, what I thought were, the right chords to my Super Sonic tune. I've also learned how to create melodies that fit a rhythm. Apparently, my tunes still aren't good to other listeners. So, maybe you're right. Maybe I need to learn everything about composing. Only then will I be able to convey the power and greatness of my melodies.
Other Person's Response: Even if you are creating great works of art in your mind, why music? Why not be a painter or drawer?
My Reply: It's because music means more to me and is what I want to do.
Other Person's Response: Why do you wish to be a composer?
My Reply: It's because I wish to express myself. If I asked others to create music for me, it wouldn't turn out how I wanted it to. That's why I create my own melodies. I also plan on creating my own songs later on.
Other Person's Response: Composing good music takes thought, time, effort, training, and talent. Expressing your emotions through music is not quick and easy like expressing your feelings to someone. I'm not sure if you have what it takes to create good music.
My Reply: I'll admit, it would be lovely if it was quick and easy to create the awesome music I want to create. I'm very slow when it comes to understanding things and my brain doesn't process information very quickly. So, if creating good music was quick and easy, I wouldn't have to go through all the trouble of thinking about anything or trying to understand things.
I could just unleash my emotions through music instantly. If I felt angry, I wouldn't want to sit there and think about anything or try to learn anything. I'd want to unleash that anger right then and there. Maybe I'd do it by beating up a punching bag. But, there are emotions I wish to express that I can't express to others. These are emotions that possess profound meaning and power.
Such emotions can only be expressed through art and I've chosen the art of composing to express them. For example, one of these emotions would be the emotion I described for my Distant Future tune. I can't express that emotion through my words, acts, tones, and gestures. Even if I explained the emotion of my tune, that still wouldn't be enough to convey that emotion.
Sure, I could display some acts, tones, or gestures that convey a bit of mystery and I could choose a way to explain the emotion of my tune that also conveys a bit of mystery or bizarre atmosphere. But that just isn't enough to express this profound emotion I'm feeling. That's why I must learn the things necessary to fully craft this tune so that it conveys this profound emotion I want to convey.
Other Person's Response: You say you can instantly express whatever profound emotion you're feeling by creating a musical tune or theme in your head. From there, you're saying you must fully craft these tunes or themes so that they convey the emotion you wanted to convey.
My Reply: Yes. As I said before, certain emotions I feel are profound and they can only be expressed by creating a certain musical tune or theme in my head. But, just sharing the notes and rests to my tunes or themes isn't enough. That's why I must fully craft my tunes and themes. Learning how to fully craft them takes time, thought, and education.
Other Person's Response: If there's any profound and powerful emotion you're feeling that you can't express, then I think it's best to just keep that emotion to yourself. The reason I say this is because you have no talent. You have no way to express these emotions. By the way, if you were talented, you'd be able to express these emotions through poetry, painting, or any other art form.
Just explaining to the audience a certain emotion (such as being in a distant galaxy or time period) isn't enough, like you said. This is because there are certain emotions that can't be expressed by basic, shallow explanations, acts, tones, or gestures. If, for example, you were a talented poet, you could describe things in very profound, poetic ways.
I think said talent would be sufficient to convey that profound, bizarre emotion you want to convey. As you can see, it does take talent to convey profound and powerful emotions and you can't expect to convey these emotions as an average human being with no talent (i.e. through basic tones, gestures, actions, words, and explanations).
My Reply: It sucks not being able to express these emotions. These emotions are inner greatness and people would never realize my inner greatness if I can't express it. For example, some people might come up to me and judge me as an ugly, pitiful, shallow excuse of a human being. But, if I had some amazing talent and could express profound and powerful emotions I'm feeling, they'd see just how awesome and profound of an individual I really am.
Other Person's Response: At least there are certain profound and powerful emotions you can express. For example, you could show how much you love your family or how much gratitude you feel when getting a present.
My Reply: I could express things like love and gratitude. But, said expressions just wouldn't be enough. For example, let's pretend I was feeling a profoundly beautiful feminine love and said love had some sort of aquatic beauty to it. My masculine acts, tones, and gestures wouldn't be enough to convey that emotion. I could act like a female in a magical, aquatic, atmosphere. But, since I have no talent, I would suck at conveying this emotion. As you can see, our inner experience is very profound and powerful and I don't think the acts, tones, gestures, and explanations of untalented folks are enough to express their inner experience.
I think it really does require talent to successfully express that. Not having talent can only render you not fully expressing yourself to others. It would be lovely if people with no talent could telepathically share their inner experience to others. That way, others would know exactly what they were experiencing and what emotions they were feeling. People would see into the inner universe of these individuals and realize the true power that's there, rather than judging based upon the acts, tones, explanations, and gestures of these untalented individuals.
Other Person's Response: You said you feel feminine forms of beauty, joy, and love. Are you gay?
My Reply: No. Emotions take on many different forms. They take on many different characters, atmospheres, etc. So, even a girl who's not lesbian would feel emotions that have a masculine quality to them. For example, a girl could experience the masculine greatness of a bodybuilder. That would be an emotion the girl is feeling. The girl could even feel like she's a male bodybuilder and that would be the character she becomes on the inside. Since she feels that way about herself, that's the same thing as saying she sees herself as a great, male bodybuilder.
Other Person's Response: You said you were mentally disabled and that your brain has a difficult time learning and understanding things. I think having a disability is both a challenge and an advantage because it offers a means of character growth and perseverance. For example, Beethoven having deafness and Stephen Hawking being in a wheelchair challenged them more and that's what built their character even more.
My Reply: Personally, I'd prefer to not have any disabilities because I just want to express myself through music to others and not have to go through all the hassle of trying to learn and understand things. I don't care about building my character through tough challenges. Besides, I can grow as a person through creating great music for others to listen to. I don't have to grow by facing challenges.
That's why I'd prefer to have a genius brain that could understand, remember, and learn things very quickly. So, if I was Beethoven or Stephen Hawking, I'd prefer to not be deaf or be in a wheelchair. What matters to me is that I achieve my goals. Having a disability just hinders that since it takes longer to achieve goals and not as much would be achieved. Imagine how much more Stephen Hawking and Beethoven would've achieved without their disabilities.
Other Person's Response: How is creating great music, without facing any hardships, a form of growing?
My Reply: It's because I'd become more of a person by creating more awesome music to share to the world. The more awesome music I create, the greater musical status I possess as a human being. Likewise, the more amazing discoveries Stephen Hawking would make without his disability, the higher status he has as a human being in science. Sure, his disability has already earned him a high status since it has inspired others to do their best in the face of disabilities or hardships. But, I'd prefer to have no disabilities or hardships. If I was Hawking, I'd prefer more amazing discoveries over inspiring others through having a disability.
Other Person's Response: It seems you're sitting here, complaining how your disability makes things difficult for you.
My Reply: I'm not doing that at all. I'm simply expressing my own preference of having no disability and achieving as much goals the quickest way possible. I'm doing this because I wish to express and share my personal views regarding music, hardships, disabilities, what makes life beautiful and worth living, etc.
Other Person's Response: You said you had speech problems when you was a child.
My Reply: Yes. My brain might've taken a lot longer to naturally learn the English language than normal people. Maybe that's why it took longer for me to start speaking the English language.
Other Person's Response: I think you're lying when you say you're naturally creating great music in your head.
My Reply: If I am lying, then I don't realize it. Personally, I don't think I'm lying.
Other Person's Response: Since you're mentally disabled and a special needs person, then maybe you don't have any talent either. You say you have this natural, musical talent of creating great music in your mind. Perhaps you think you have this talent when you really don't.
My Reply: I hope I have it. If I don't, then I hope I can create some great music later on that conveys the emotions I want to convey.
Other Person's Response: Is there anything else that slows you down besides having a mental disability?
My Reply: Yes. When I'm emotionally fixated on something and trying to figure something out, that slows me down because, when your emotions are active, you can't think clearly and that slows down certain intellectual processes. I find that, when my mind is relaxed, I understand things better and faster. However, I'm still mentally slow due to my disability.
Other Person's Response: Let's pretend you could get a shot that would bestow you with all the knowledge and experience you need to create the awesome music you want to create. Would you get that shot? But I thought you enjoyed the whole process of learning because you said earlier you'd enjoy the process if you had your positive emotions.
My Reply: I'd get that shot anyway because it's just a waste of time for me to sit there and try to understand things I have a difficult time processing and understanding. It would be best if I could achieve my goal of creating awesome music the quickest way possible and that's why I'd get that shot. Since I can't get that shot, I'm willing to do my best to learn harmony and music theory. I'm also willing to improve myself as an artist when I need improvement.
Other Person's Response: Even if you did have all the knowledge and experience you need to create music, why would you think your music would be good? There are musical artists who have much knowledge and experience, but compose stale, lame music.
My Reply: As I said before, I have very awesome, amazing, powerful, and profound emotions to express. So, expressing said emotions through music would result in me creating awesome music. Think of it this way. If I had the ability to magically transform any powerful emotion I felt into a fully crafted theme, melody, or song, then it would turn out to be something incredible. I could also say the same thing about someone else. If another person felt a powerful and profound emotion such as love towards his family, then if he had the magical ability to transform that love into music, his music would be incredible.
Other Person's Response: Let's pretend there was a cd that contained all possible songs, themes, and melodies. That means all compositions you have yet to create would already be on that cd. Not only that, but the greatest music that has yet to be heard would also be on that cd. If all that information on the cd was downloaded into your brain, then you'd know all the tracks on the cd. This would mean you could choose any track you love and want to share. You wouldn't have to compose any music since you could just choose any track you want to share. This would achieve your goal of sharing awesome music the quickest way possible. In the future, this might be a possibility. That means there'd be no need for composers since people can just choose whatever tracks they want to share.
My Reply: Actually, since I wouldn't be the one who created whatever track I've chosen, given there was a machine that produced all possible songs, themes, and melodies, which were then burned on that cd, then that wouldn't be as special as opposed to if I was the one who created them. Sure, I could choose whatever track I want from that cd and share it to express myself just as how I could choose a T-shirt that expresses myself.
But, when I said I wanted to achieve my goal the fastest way possible, I meant I wanted to be the creator of my music. In other words, I'd want to create good music the quickest way possible. It would be boring if I could just choose any tune, theme, or song I wanted. If I create good music, that makes me the artist with a talent and unique vision to share to the world. But, if I could just choose whatever music I wanted to share, then I'd no longer be that artist. I'd now be the equivalent of someone choosing a T-shirt he wants.
Other Person's Response: If you could have the ability to magically and instantly transform your powerful emotions into awesome music to share to the world, would you choose to have that ability?
My Reply: Yes, because I'd still be the creator of my music in this situation.
Other Person's Response: When a melody, theme, or song doesn't exist yet and you're the one who created it, then that makes you the creator of said melody, theme, or song. But, when it already exists (such as, let's pretend, on a cd that contains all possible melodies, themes, and songs), then you wouldn't be the creator of it and you'd just be choosing it from that cd.
My Reply: Correct.
Other Person's Response: You say you're slow at learning and understanding things. Are you also slow at taking tests and doing exercises?
My Reply: Yes. Now, I did figure out why I failed those music theory exams and it's because there were some complicated things that I didn't get right. But, when I took music theory exams on a certain website, I passed those exams.
Other Person's Response: How many of these music theory exams are you passing now?
My Reply: The 1st few. But, these exams cover simple, basic concepts. In later grades of music theory, things get a bit more in-depth and difficult. I have a very difficult time understanding more complex concepts. Thus, I might actually fail exams that cover these concepts. Fortunately, there are other things I do understand in these later grades because they're simple concepts. So, I tend to skip past the things I don't understand.
I try to understand them. But, if I absolutely can't, then I just skip past it. As you can see, my main weakness is understanding things. I can only understand simple, basic things. When something is simple and straightforward, it's easy for me to understand. But, when it gets more complicated and there are many things to take into consideration, that's when I run into trouble. I get easily confused and lost.
Other Person's Response: What if a certain concept being presented is very long?
My Reply: It can be long, but still be easy to understand. It all depends on what it is. If it's long, but simple, then it's easy to understand. But, if it's long and more complicated, it's difficult to understand. Likewise, if something is very short, it can be easy or difficult to understand. Also, I misinterpret a lot of things and my mind has a difficult time making sense of many things. But, like I said, there are many things that are easy for me to understand and I understand them right off the bat.
Other Person's Response: Do you also have a difficult time remembering things?
My Reply: Yes.
Other Person's Response: When you create music, do you take ideas from other artists? Do you derive from the works of others? You do realize great artists derived from the works of others, right?
My Reply: I don't derive from others at all. The music I create is purely my own. I just use inspiration to create whatever my brain creates for me. It's as though I instinctively know what series of notes and rests to choose in my head that expresses whatever it is I wish to express. Also, if my music appears like it has derived from the works of others, for whatever reason, then that wasn't my intention.
In other words, I didn't intentionally derive from others. But, since my music is purely my own, then I don't think it should appear derivative. As a matter of fact, it should be quite unique, awesome, and interesting. The type of person I am is someone unique and original. I wish to create my own ideas or music and not take from others.
Other Person's Response: It takes years of education and training to create great music.
My Reply: I don't think so. There are students who take music lessons at school and they end up creating some good tunes. I think I just need to educate myself so I can fully craft my tunes and then I'll share them.
Other Person's Response: Just how talented do you think you are?
My Reply: I think I'm naturally creating great, simple, catchy tunes in my mind that are just as great as any one of those simple, catchy tunes you hear such as the Frosted Flakes tune or those short, nursery rhyme tunes. They are very memorable, catchy tunes. Again, I will point out the lyrics to the Frosted Flakes tune which would be:
"Frosted Flakes are more than good. They're great!"
I'm quite sure you've heard this tune. I don't think I need to go through musical training to create such great tunes in my mind. I think I can pull it off through pure instinct/inspiration alone. The same idea applies to how I can naturally create great songs in my head. For now, I'm just sharing my melodies and not actual songs because it's quick and easy that way.
Eventually though, I will create fully crafted songs for others to listen to. As for these awesome melodies I'm creating in my head, some of them are like great, catchy nursery rhymes (such as my Wedding Tune) while others convey completely different emotion. An example would be my Distant Future tune and my Dark Tune.
Other Person's Response: Are you a delusional schizophrenic? You sound like one when you say your rubbish melodies are great.
My Reply: I don't have schizophrenia. Therefore, if my melodies really are rubbish and I don't realize it, then I'd simply be ignorant of this. There's a big difference between ignorance and having a mental disorder.
Other Person's Response: The very fact you claim these melodies in your mind are powerful and awesome is plain arrogance! Especially when you said that one of your tunes could be as great as Koji Kondo's!
My Reply: You should be thankful I'm not saying it's a fact that these tunes are as great as I say they are. I am very well open-minded towards the possibility these tunes in my head were garbage all along. So, you should at least appreciate that I'm being open-minded here rather than harping on me.
Besides, I'm an open-minded person in general. I keep an open mind to many things whether it be the afterlife, the soul, god, vaccines being harmful, conspiracy theories, and any fully crafted music I share later on being great or awful. Another thing.
I'm not claiming I'm the only one who can naturally create great music in his head, having no knowledge and experience in the art of music. I'm claiming other people have this natural ability, too. I talk more about it later on as well.
Other Person's Response: What if you're just creating music you think is great and meaningful when it's really rubbish?
My Reply: Then I'd beat myself up over this. Not literally though. So many other people have this natural ability to create great music in their minds and I'd be one of the few people who doesn't have it. I just thought I had it. Hopefully, there would be a way for me to create great music in my mind so that I can fully craft it and share it to others.
Other Person's Response: Well, let me ease your mind by saying that no human being can naturally create great music in his head. He must have musical training and education so he knows how to do that. To beat yourself up over some natural ability that doesn't exist would be no different than beating yourself up over the fact you don't have the powers of Superman. No human being has such powers and, thus, there's no reason to beat yourself up over this.
My Reply: That would ease my mind if that's the case. I'd just have to learn how to create great music like everyone else then and I wasn't this loser who should beat himself up. But, there are reasons why I think this natural ability could very well exist and I explain those reasons in this packet.
Other Person's Response: Could you just show me right now why you think people can naturally create great music in their head, not knowing how music works?
My Reply: Sure. I think creating great music in our minds is a natural ability, no different than naturally expressing our love, joy, hate, and sorrow. Since music is an expression of our love, joy, etc., this means music is a natural expression and that's why we can naturally create great music in our minds.
Other Person's Response: I don't believe you.
My Reply: If a therapist asked someone to envision a beautiful landscape he's never seen before (something of his own creation), then he'd have the ability to do that even though he has no artistic training and education. This shows our brains are naturally capable of creating great works of art in our heads. I believe I'm creating awesome, catchy melodies in my head despite being a complete beginner to the art of composing.
Other Person's Response: I'd like to hear more about this.
My Reply: Sure. Think of it this way. Let's pretend all human beings were telepathic and we could telepathically communicate our thoughts and emotions to others. If I were to telepathically communicate a certain thought or emotion such as a loving thought or a loving emotion, other people would understand it and they'd realize it's a powerful and profound message I'm sharing.
The same thing applies to music. Music is also like a thought or an emotion to be communicated. I should be able to telepathically communicate a great, powerful song or tune of my own to the audience just as how I can telepathically communicate powerful thoughts and emotions. I think it's that simple.
I think I can create great music in my head just as how I can create great thoughts and emotions within myself. A short tune would be like a short message/thought while an entire song would be like a thought or emotion that tells an entire story. I mean, since I can naturally tell a story in my head, then why couldn't I naturally tell a story through music in my head, too?
My point is, creating great music in our minds was never about learning the technical aspects behind music. It was a natural expression all along. However, since I'm obviously not telepathic and can't telepathically share the great music in my head to others, I have to do it the hard way and learn how to fully craft my music so it becomes something great and meaningful to the audience.
Other Person's Response: I see. If a person can naturally tell a powerful story in his head (such as how he lost his loved one or his life as a veteran), then why couldn't he also tell that same story musically in his head? Why couldn't he naturally create a great, powerful melody or song that expresses that in his head?
My Reply: Exactly.
Other Person's Response: You should also keep an open mind towards the possibility that this natural musical ability you claim exists doesn't exist.
My Reply: I'm open-minded towards that possibility as well.
Other Person's Response: If this natural ability to create great works of art in our minds really does exist, wouldn't it take more time and effort for someone to create visual artwork in his mind that expresses the story he wants to convey than simply explaining the story in his mind?
My Reply: Yes. It takes more mental effort and, thus, more time to come up with great and powerful artwork in our minds whether it be music or visual art than simply having a thought or explaining a simple, short story in our minds. However, for some, mentally coming up with great works of art doesn't take much effort at all and they can do it very quickly. But, for those less fortunate who can't do that, there are methods that allow us to do that.
An example would be dreams, drug trips, or near death experiences since it takes no effort in order for whole new beautiful and amazing works of art to be mentally created. You just automatically witness the artwork since your brain automatically creates it. However, in our normal waking life, it takes effort to come up with artwork in our minds. But, like I said, for some, it doesn't take that much effort in their normal, waking life.
Other Person's Response: You can't expect to come up with a good, catchy melody in your head that conveys deep emotion when you don't know how music works. It's like expecting to come up with the cure for cancer when you don't know how stuff works. Sure, you could fabricate what you think is the cure for cancer in your mind. But, I dare you to share your "idea" to scientists and I bet they'd tell you it's nonsensical rubbish.
My Reply: If that's the case, then I'd love to learn how to create melodies and themes that convey what I want to convey. Personally, I think our brains instinctively know how to create good music in our heads.
Other Person's Response: Have you learned some music theory, at least?
My Reply: I've been learning music theory lessons on youtube and I've watched some videos so far. However, these music lessons cover technical aspects regarding music such as scales, chords, key signatures, the circle of 5ths, etc. But, these lessons do not tell you how to create music that conveys the meaning and scenes you want to convey. Sure, they might explain to you that, if you want to create a melody or song that conveys a happy feeling, to put it in a major scale.
But, how would you create a happy tune that expresses someone having fun on a sunny day as opposed to a happy tune that expresses someone coming along and showing kindness? You see, there's more to creating music than just having the happiness and sorrow (i.e. the major and minor scales). You must choose the proper notes and rests for your melodies as well. For example, the Super Mario theme song is in the key of C major since it's a cheerful theme.
But, how did the creator of the theme (Koji Kondo) know what notes and rests to choose for the theme so that it conveys what he wanted it to convey? I admit, it's a catchy theme and it's his choice of notes and rests that made it so great and catchy. I know I said earlier that we can naturally create such great, catchy tunes and themes in our heads. But, just in case my tunes really are rubbish even when they're fully crafted, then I need to know how to choose a series of notes and rests to convey what I want to convey and to make my melodies great.
Other Person's Response: Here's my personal view. You don't learn how to choose a series of notes and rests that convey whatever it is you want to convey. You just learn the technical aspects behind music because that's all music theory can teach you is the techniques. From there, you utilize those techniques to create whatever melody or theme you want to create.
So, creating great music all boils down to your mindset and if you have talent or not. Lame people will end up creating lame music even though they utilize the techniques they've learned. Think of the lame music you hear on the radio. But, you're saying you're more than some lame, average, joe, and that the music you're creating in your head is great?
My Reply: Which means you're basically saying what I've been saying all along which is that creating great music in our minds is a natural ability and isn't something we learn how to do? As for your question, I do think I'm creating great music in my head. But, in the event that I'm not, then that's why I'm asking how to do that. One might say to just live and be myself. But, how's that any advice? How's that supposed to help me create the music that conveys what I want to convey?
Other Person's Response: I don't understand why you're asking that question in the first place. The answer is quite simple. If you want to create, for example, a painting that conveys something mystical after having learned the techniques of how to paint, then you'd just paint some fairies, rainbows, glitter, etc.
My Reply: It's a completely different scenario than that. Yes, if I learned the techniques of how to paint, then it would be quite obvious to me what I'm supposed to paint in order to convey the meaning and emotion I want to convey. But, when it comes to making music, I'd have no idea what series of notes and rests I'm supposed to choose to convey what I want to convey. It wouldn't be obvious to me. I'd just be choosing a series of notes and rests I think conveys the power and meaning I describe when it really doesn't. Hopefully though, I am choosing a series of notes and rests in my mind that make my melodies great and convey what I describe.
Other Person's Response: Maybe you should be a painter rather than a composer.
My Reply: Composing is what I want to do and I have no interest in any other field of art. Music is very profound to me and means so much to me. That's why I want to make some good music.
Other Person's Response: Personally, I think you are one of those lame, untalented people. You're not creating any good melodies. As a matter of fact, you're worse than that because your melodies are meaningless rubbish while lame music conveys some meaningful message.
My Reply: If my melodies really are rubbish when they become fully crafted and you were right all along, I'd like to know the scientific explanation as to why I'm without that ability to create great music while so many other people have it. Why can others create music that conveys meaning and scenes while I can't?
Perhaps knowing the science behind this will help me develop this ability. I have some very profound and powerful emotions within myself I wish to express through music and there'd be this big barrier preventing me from doing that. Such a barrier needs to be removed somehow. I'd need to know exactly what I need to do, what I need to experience, and what knowledge I need to gain to remove said barrier.
Other Person's Response: To be honest, I think you should just give up composing. You don't have what it takes to create the good, catchy tunes you want to create. In addition, you should also give up on any greater values because you don't have what it takes here either. So, you should stick with whatever previous hobby you were good at and you should stick with your basic, emotional based values.
My Reply: Here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to learn what I need to learn to fully craft my melodies. If people tell me they do convey what I describe and that they're great, then that would be awesome. That says I really had a talent all along people didn't realize. But, if I realize they were rubbish when I fully craft them, then I'll do whatever I need to do to create the good music I want to create.
If nothing works, then I'm officially done with composing and I'll go back to my previous hobby (which was playing video games). I've always been good at playing video games. As for my value system, if I ever lose my positive emotions and can't sufficiently or fully regain them, then I'll do my best to change my value system. I can't promise anything though.
Other Person's Response: The value system you live by is shit and your music is shit! Some life! Some talent!
My Reply: That's just your opinion. I have my own personal views and I often times find myself disagreeing with a lot of people.
Other Person's Response: I have no answer for what notes and rests you're supposed to choose to convey what you want to convey. That's something that can't be taught. It's just called being an artist. If you really don't know how to do that and you just think you know, then I think you lack life experience. When you go out into the world and experience more, then you'll know how to create music that truly moves, inspires, and motivates people. You will know how to create the music you want to create.
My Reply: This doesn't really make sense to me. What exactly is it I'm supposed to be learning or experiencing besides going on youtube and learning music lessons? Furthermore, how would this help me know the notes and rests I'm supposed to choose to convey the power and meaning I want to convey?
I'm just not seeing the connection here. If you're implying that I need to learn more things about music in the real world that I can't learn on youtube or from other online sources, then it would make sense to me. But, if all you're telling me is that I need to go out into the world more and experience more, then that makes no sense to me.
Other Person's Response: Do you plan on sharing your music to others?
My Reply: Yes. When I'm able to finally create good music in the physical world, I plan on featuring it on youtube and soundcloud. I also wish to share it with my friends and family. In addition, I'd also go on music forums and share it there, too. My whole goal here is to create good music that makes me feel positive emotions. Remember, my positive emotions are what make the moment something beautiful, special, and joyful in my life.
I also need my positive emotions to be positively motivated and inspired to compose. Otherwise, it's not worth bothering. Lastly, me having my music praised and recognized would also bring me positive emotions and that's my main goal, too. I certainly wouldn't want to compose all alone since I think I'd find myself giving up. That's why I need to share it with others.
It's fine if my music doesn't become famous because I'm not expecting to be famous or rich. I just want to share my music to as many people as possible because that would stroke my ego which would allow me to feel positive emotions from their praise and recognition of my music.
That would get me all pumped up and high which would make the moment something amazing and joyful. Consider it a moment of victory and celebration for me. But, like I said before, if my music isn't good and doesn't get praised and recognized, then that's fine. I'll improve so I can create good music and, hopefully, find a way to get it out there in the world so it can get the praise and recognition it deserves.
Other Person's Response: Composing only to seek praise and recognition of your music is shallow and being a hedonist is shallow, too.
My Reply: Shallowness is all subjective. What one person sees as shallow another might see as something profound and great. I see composing for the praise and recognition of my music as not shallow because getting my awesome music out there into the world would make my music and artistic talent known.
Me composing just for the sake of composing and nothing more is shallow because I'd never achieve my goal of creating the awesome, profound music I want to create and having it known to the world. I have some unique, bizarre music I plan on sharing and people would never get to know my unique style of music I compose.
Some people might say some of my music is possessed or demonic and shy away from it. But I think it would be some very interesting music, nonetheless. I have yet to become a skilled composer to convey these themes. As for being a hedonist, again, I don't see that as shallow either because I think positive emotions are like the holy inner light within us that we need.
Other Person's Response: Could you give me more insight into the music you plan on making? You said you plan on making bizarre music to share to the world and that this music might sound demon-possessed. I'd like to hear more about this.
My Reply: I could also simply describe the music I plan on making as awesome and otherworldly. That's the style of music I wish to create and that's what I wish to express to the audience. My username is Transcended Dimensions and you can see the avatar setup I've chosen on my youtube and soundcloud account. Said username and avatar expresses the music I wish to create.
Other Person's Response: I know you're just sharing crap tunes for now and that you're trying to express different scenes right now such as love (your Wedding Tune) or beauty (your Beautiful Tune).
My Reply: Yes. I'm just expressing these scenes for now. Later on, I plan on creating awesome, otherworldly music.
Other Person's Response: What type of awesome, otherworldly music do you wish to create? Would it be classical music or the type of music you hear in horror movies?
My Reply: I'll give you an example. It would be awesome, otherworldly, divine, psychic/supernatural heavy metal. It would have a very dark, heavy, powerful, bizarre, and dramatic personality. When I say dramatic, I don't mean sad, tragic, angry, or morbid. I mean something that has a lot of awesome emotion to it. I guess you could call that "epic and astonishing" rather than "dramatic." If you ever listened to the Ginyu Force theme from the anime Dragon Ball Z, then this would be an example of epic and astonishing. You can listen to the theme on youtube. Here's the link to it:
Other Person's Response: Would there also be awesome, otherworldly, divine, psychic/supernatural, heavenly music?
My Reply: Yes. I'd create that music as well. It would be something bizarre, too.
Other Person's Response: I'll admit, you do have an awesome, musical vision, and you do have some awesome, musical ideas. But, the music you're creating is shit! Maybe you're better off creating musical ideas rather than actual music. You can share your ideas to skilled composers and maybe they can make a song, melody, or theme for you.
My Reply: Hopefully, I will be able to create some awesome music. Even if other skilled composers did create music for me, I don't think it would turn out how I wanted it to turn out. That's because I have my own vision of what it is I wish to convey. Each person has their own, unique vision, and one person's vision won't be exactly the same as someone else's. That's why no other composer can create the exact music I want. Actually, it could happen if I get lucky. But, for the most part, that doesn't happen.
Other Person's Response: When you say you wish to create awesome, otherworldly music, I think you're setting yourself a goal you can't achieve. You're just no good at composing. So, you might as well delete those awesome Transcended Dimensions accounts because you can never claim the great, almighty status your username and avatar expresses. Deleting these accounts would also delete all the rubbish tunes on those accounts. Personally, I think it's a joke to have this username and avatar setup, just to upload rubbish tunes onto these accounts. Why not do something better with your life than wasting your time, showing off your lack of talent? Just do a different hobby.
My Reply: I'm keeping those accounts intact just in case I end up creating some awesome music later on.
Other Person's Response: Not only do you have no musical talent, you also amount to nothing as a human being.
My Reply: How you think determines what type of person you are. I do have profoundly awesome, beautiful, powerful thoughts that make me feel powerful, positive emotions. That, right there, already says I'm an awesome, beautiful, profound, powerful person. It's such a shame I can't express these emotions through music. I need the talent to express that and I don't have it.
Other Person's Response: Going back to what you said earlier, I see what you mean when you say shallowness is all subjective. Spiritual believers would say it would be a shallow existence if this was the only life we had. That's because we'd just be biological machines, living in a universe of pure luck and chance. Once we die, that's it. But, at the same time, people who are convinced this is the only life would say that's not a shallow or meaningless existence. They'd say it's a profoundly beautiful existence since we only have one life and we should make the best of it.
My Reply: Yes. As for my views regarding the afterlife, I think it would be a shallow existence if this was the only life we had. According to my view, living an eternally blissful life, where we get whatever we desire, would be the most profoundly beautiful existence. That's because such a life would offer us the greatest amount of positive emotions.
The more positive emotions you have, the more beauty, greatness, joy, and worth your life has. So, an eternally blissful life would be the far more meaningful existence. For those who don't agree positive emotions are the source of beauty and worth, I could instead say the same thing about positive thoughts.
The more positive thoughts we have, the more positive experience we have in life. Thus, the more beauty, love, joy, and worth our lives would have. Since an eternal life of positive thoughts would offer us the greatest degree of positive experiences, then that would be the greatest life we could live. Living a short, finite life only gives us so much positive experiences we can have.
Think of it this way. If a baby was born into this world and had only 1 week's worth of beauty, love, and greatness in his life before he died of an illness, then that's not very much. The baby would die and that's it. But, if the baby got to live an eternal paradise after his physical body died, then he'd have an eternal amount of beauty, love, greatness, joy, and worth in his life.
Other Person's Response: I agree. If there's a life that would hold the greatest amount of beauty, goodness, joy, and worth, then that's the better life to live. That's the more meaningful existence.
My Reply: Yes. That's why I think there should be an eternal afterlife of our dreams. If it doesn't exist and this is the only life we have, then scientists should really work on trying to make us immortal.
Other Person's Response: If life just went on and on, then it would be a life that holds less beauty and worth, even if said life was a paradise.
My Reply: It's still possible to have the most profoundly beautiful thoughts regarding a life that drags on and on. Therefore, even an eternal blissful life can still be the most profoundly beautiful and worthwhile existence for you. I know it would for me. So, I disagree with your statement.
Other Person's Response: If you had some fatal condition right now and the doctor told you that you only had a few weeks to live, would you give up composing?
My Reply: I'm afraid so. There's no way I can achieve my goal within such a short time period. Since I can only compose just for the sake of composing, then I'd give up. That's another reason why I've bought these Immortality Rings because they are said to keep your body healthy and alive by preventing diseases and stopping aging. If these rings work, then they would allow me to fully go through with my goal.
That is, if some fatal accident doesn't happen to me because the rings won't protect me from that. Also, even if I did manage to achieve my goal, but my music got little to no praise, then I'd give up, too. This is because I wouldn't be creating any good music and, thus, I would see it as being pointless to pursue composing any further. If I try and try to improve, but my music is never that great, then I'd officially give up composing.
Other Person's Response: So, your only goal in composing is to hog all the glory and attention and feel good from that? That makes you a leeching bastard! I'm sorry, but that's plain selfish! If you really do have an autistic gift that has yet to be conveyed to the world, that gift can be used for something better than what you intend to use it for.
My Reply: I'll take what I want in life and I don't care what anyone's attitude or opinion is! Like I said, only my own views and opinions matter to me. I see nothing wrong with seeking praise and recognition of my music. As I said before, I don't care about the standards of others and only my own standards matter to me.
According to the standards of others, I wouldn't be a decent human being and I would be composing for a wrong, selfish purpose. But, according to my standard, I'm a decent human being and me seeking praise and recognition of my music would be nothing wrong.
Other Person's Response: Why must you share your works to others? A field of art can be appreciated just as it is. You can make music simply because you want to do it. I make artistic crafts because it means something to me. If my works get shared to the world, then that's just a bonus. It's not my main reason for making crafts. That's why it doesn't bother me if my works never get shared to the world.
My Reply: The whole point of expressing yourself through art is to express yourself to others. Imagine if there was a very cool, awesome dude and he had some awesome attributes such as cool clothes, a cool personality, etc. If he lived a solitary life, then he'd never get the chance to express these attributes to others. Thus, his cool attributes would never be known to the world. That's why he needs to meet people and express himself to others.
I realize there are cool attributes about me that I could express to others. But, there's something greater within me that I have yet to express to the world. I have some awesome, profound, and powerful emotions to express to others through music. It's my mission that I achieve this goal. I don't want said greatness to be confined. I want it expressed to the world. Once people realize said greatness, they should be astonished.
Other Person's Response: Do you express your cool attributes to the world? If not, then why be concerned about expressing yourself musically to the world? Why not compose for its own sake?
My Reply: I'm not concerned about expressing my attributes such as the clothes I wear and how I behave. This is because I'm not concerned about that. Those are personal things to me and I don't care if the world praises and recognizes them or not. It would be like how a person doesn't care if his preferences are shared to the world.
But, there's one thing I wish to express to the world and that would be my music. If I create awesome music, that would definitely be worth sharing. But, things such as the clothes I wear and how I behave are basic things that I don't care about sharing to others. Besides, there are emotions that I can only express through art that I can't express as an individual.
Other Person's Response: I really think you need to appreciate composing for its own sake rather than composing to get what you want out of it.
My Reply: When people manufacture products, they don't make products just to make them. They do it to make an awesome product that's promising to the customers. Some people make awful products that don't work and some people make products just to make them. But, that's beside the point. The point I'm trying to make here is that, if I'm going to make some music, then it has to be awesome music that delivers to the audience. It must be known, praised, and given good ratings. I'm not going to make music just to make music.
Other Person's Response: I know there are people out there who can't appreciate good products. So, even if you do make some awesome music later on, some people might not appreciate it.
My Reply: I agree. Not everyone is going to think a given melody, theme, or song is great. Likewise, there are some great products out there and not everyone's going to think said products are great.
Other Person's Response: When creating music for the audience to listen to, don't stop at any given point in the crafting process, say your music is good enough, and that the audience just needs to lower their standards so they can appreciate it. Make sure you create a fully crafted melody, theme, or song that delivers.
My Reply: Sure. But, as long as I create an awesome melody, theme, or song, and its power and greatness has been successfully conveyed, then the audience should appreciate that. If further improvements are needed, then the audience should kindly point them out, rather than dismissing and not appreciating the power and greatness that's already there. Just because a work of art needs some improvement doesn't mean it's not a good, beautiful, or great work of art, and that it holds very little to no profound meaning. It would simply be a great work of art that needs some improvement to make it even more great.
So, when people witness great works of art that need some improvement, they should praise these works while, at the same time, offering constructive criticism. Just offering constructive criticism without the praise isn't fair. Saying the work of art isn't good because it needs improvement just isn't fair. But, offering nothing but praise for a work of art without any constructive criticism just isn't fair either. So, you should offer both praise (if the artwork is deserving of it) and constructive criticism (if the artwork needs it).
However, there are works of art that don't need any constructive criticism because they're at their peak of perfection. For these works of art, we'd just give them praise. But, there are some people who wouldn't like these works of art because it's just not their style. For example, some people wouldn't like Beethoven's music. That's alright because different people will have different styles of music, drawings, paintings, etc. they prefer. Then there are works of art that deserve constructive criticism, but are unworthy of any praise. An example of these types of artwork would be tunes plucked out, on a keyboard, by a baby.
Other Person's Response: So, you'd actually have 2 main goals when it comes to composing:
1.) To produce some awesome music and have it known and praised.
2.) To feel happiness and joy in pursuing #1 and achieving #1.
My Reply: Correct. #1 without #2 would be a worthless endeavor. But, even if I could feel happiness and joy in the absence of #1, I still wouldn't bother composing because I wouldn't be able to create good music and have it known and praised by the world. That's why a combination of #1 and #2 is needed.
Other Person's Response: Honestly, achieving your goals shouldn't really matter because, once you die, that's it. Your compositions will never become legend and they'll be forgotten.
My Reply: Well, this might not be the only life and there might be some grand purpose or meaning to life. That being the case, achieving my goals would matter. This would mean my works wouldn't just waste away. Now, if I did learn that this was the only life, then achieving my goals would still matter to me. It wouldn't matter to me as much though. Why would it still matter to me? Because I still wish to achieve goals anyway. I bet Stephen Hawking's goals or Beethoven's goals would still matter to them even if they were convinced this was the only life they had.
Other Person's Response: Why go through all the trouble of trying to compose awesome music? Why not just wait until your soul goes to the afterlife? You would then be bestowed with the ability to magically and instantly transform your emotions into music for other souls to listen to.
My Reply: This could be the only life though. There might be no soul or afterlife. In which case, I must live the longest life I can here on Earth and I must compose awesome music the hard way through education and training. I have purchased Immortality Rings and I hope they work to make me live a long, Earthly life.
Other Person's Response: If you can never create any good music and you officially give up composing, what hobby will you pursue next?
My Reply: I will go back to my video gaming hobby since I've always been good at playing video games.
Other Person's Response: What if it turns out these tunes you are hearing in your mind really are as great as you say they are?
My Reply: Since my claim that these tunes I'm hearing in my mind were great tunes was a true claim I was making all along, then other people should really keep an open mind to my other claim which was that positive emotions are the only beautiful things in life since they are the only value judgments of good, beauty, greatness, and joy.
As I said before, I have autism and autistic people have great insight into themselves and their own personal experience. Many discover new ideas that humanity was blind to and in denial of. If you don't believe I have autism, then go ask my mother and she will tell you.
Other Person's Response: Do you wish to be a performer?
My Reply: No. I have a keyboard and all I want to do is use it to figure out these notes I'm hearing in my head. I do not plan on performing my music or any other type of music. I figure out the notes on the keyboard and place them on a music notation software. From there, I would use music producing software to choose better instruments for them.
Other Person's Response: What do you mean when you say other people can't understand your melodies? I understood the series of notes of your tunes just fine.
My Reply: When I say other people can't understand my melodies, I don't mean they can't understand the series of notes I'm playing. I mean they can't understand the power and meaning these melodies of mine convey. For example, if I just had a powerful tune from any given song, then people wouldn't be able to realize the power and meaning the tune conveys without the things necessary to successfully convey the tune's power and meaning.
All they'd understand would be the series of notes being played. My point is, I think the actual melodies themselves are there. But I just need more things to go along with these melodies (the proper chords, beat, and more) to convey their power and meaning. I'm not exactly sure at what point a melody's power, greatness, catchiness, and meaning will be successfully conveyed to the audience during the crafting process. All I know is that I need to fully craft my melodies.
Other Person's Response: So, you're saying that, since your melodies aren't fully crafted, people will see them as meaningless tunes?
My Reply: Correct. A meaningless tune would be like listening to a child pluck out keys on the keyboard or a certain instrument. It would just sound like a series of notes being played and nothing more. It would be rubbish for others listening to it.
Other Person's Response: Why aren't your melodies fully crafted then?
My Reply: I mainly hear the melodies themselves in my head and I just wanted to share that. But, I'll go on youtube and learn the things needed to fully craft them. I'll learn about chords, harmony, etc.
Other Person's Response: I know the lyrics you've added to your Wedding Tune convey meaning.
My Reply: Even though they're not the best lyrics in the world, they do convey meaning. But, I'm talking about the melodies themselves because they won't convey any power, greatness, and meaning in their current state.
Other Person's Response: What if people do get some sort of meaning from your tunes as they are now?
My Reply: I don't think it would be the meaning I intended to convey. If an artist creates a melody that's not fully crafted and just leaves it out there for the audience to listen to, then that makes the melody open to a wide variety of interpretations.
For example, one person might envision the melody differently than another person. That's why the artist must fully craft the melody to convey his/her own personal vision. That way, the audience will know exactly what the artist was trying to convey all along.
Other Person's Response: When you talk about conveying the power and greatness of your melodies, you're talking about the ones in your mind, accurately reproduced, right? Because you said earlier that you might not be accurately reproducing what you hear in your head right now. So, you're not talking about the melodies you've presented in this packet since they're poorly reproduced?
My Reply: That's correct. But, who knows, maybe I did accurately reproduce some of the tunes I hear in my head.
Other Person's Response: Why do you think your tunes would convey power and meaning once they're fully crafted?
My Reply: I'll give you an example. The Super Mario theme song is written in the key of C Major. If Koji Kondo (the creator of the theme) has chosen random white keys for the theme, then it would be a theme that conveys no power and no meaning. It would just be white keys all over the place. The same thing applies if he has chosen random notes and rests for all his other pieces.
These pieces would no longer be that awesome Zelda theme many fans love, that awesome Metroid theme, etc. Even if these randomly chosen notes and rests adhered to the rules of music theory, they wouldn't be awesome, meaningful, catchy themes. My point is, I think I'm choosing a series of notes and rests that make my melodies great. I think my Distant Future tune is the best one and it has a lot of power to it. People don't realize this yet since it's not a fully crafted melody.
Other Person's Response: It seems to me you're only fooling yourself here. You're not making any good choice of notes and rests. I think your melodies are still rubbish. You're not artistic. You're autistic and you're incapable of creating a good melody.
My Reply: Since I can choose a series of acts, gestures, and tones that convey power, greatness, and meaning to my family and to other people, then I can obviously choose a series of notes and rests in my head that convey power, greatness, and meaning. Therefore, I think I'm clearly capable of naturally creating a good melody in my mind.
Other Person's Response: Personally, I still think your tunes would be meaningless rubbish, even when they're fully crafted.
My Reply: There's this one guy who created a song based off of one of my melodies. It was my Dramatic Tune. I will first present the song and then the links to that Dramatic Tune:
As you can see, in that song he made, my melody did become something meaningful. It conveyed something and wasn't just meaningless rubbish. But, he created the melody in his own vision. That means it doesn't have the dramatic power nor the power/greatness I intended. Still, the very fact the melody conveys something must mean my melodies aren't meaningless rubbish. The guy told me that context is very important when making a melody.
He put my melody within the context of a song when he made his song. So, not only must I fully craft my melodies, but I must also put them within the context of a full theme or song. That way, they can convey power, greatness, and meaning to the audience. Sometimes, melodies, by themselves, do convey meaning and greatness to the audience. An example would be the McDonald's I'm Lovin' It tune. But, maybe my melodies need the context of a full theme or song.
Other Person's Response: The series of notes and rests of your melodies ARE random and, thus, convey no power and meaning.
My Reply: When creating a melody, you can choose any series of notes and rests you want as long as said notes and rests adhere to the rules of music theory. Some choices of notes and rests, even though they adhere to the rules of music theory, just seem like rubbish tunes that don't convey anything meaningful to the audience.
Even when said melodies become fully crafted, they'd still be rubbish melodies. But then there are choices of notes and rests that make great, catchy melodies. I don't think I'm the type of person creating rubbish melodies. I really think I'm making great, catchy melodies. Imagine a lame melody created by a novice as opposed to a great melody created by a true, composing artist.
Other Person's Response: What are these rules of music theory that you talk about which need to be followed?
My Reply: An example would be having the proper amount of notes in a bar, raising the 7th note in the harmonic, minor scale, not creating rests that cover both a weak beat and then a medium beat, etc.
Other Person's Response: I realize some of your melodies are just the melodies themselves without any chords or anything else. If they really are great melodies, then they should sound great and meaningful on their own, even without the accompanying chords, beat, harmony, etc. So, if people say they're awful, then that already means they're awful.
My Reply: I'm not sure if great melodies can sound great and meaningful on their own. They might still sound like musical nonsense. Even if they did sound great on their own to people, these people might be having their own vision in regards to the melody. In other words, the great melody might really sound like meaningless rubbish on its own and people are imagining a fully crafted version of it. It's this imagined, fully crafted version that does convey greatness, power, and meaning. So, when I say my melodies are great and convey certain scenes, that would be my own vision that I have to convey to the audience. I'm imagining what my melodies would be like in their complete form and that's what I have to convey to the audience.
Other Person's Response: Then why can't other people create their own vision in regards to your melodies and see them as great?
My Reply: It's because some people don't have the ability to create their own vision. Thus, they'll hear my melodies for what they really are at this stage: musical nonsense.
Other Person's Response: When a person looks at a great melody that doesn't have any chords or anything else to it, it can still be recognized as a great melody. A person can look at the structure of it and other technical details about it and conclude if it's a great melody or not.
My Reply: Sure. But, if someone listens to the melody and doesn't create their own vision when listening to it, then I think the melody should sound like meaningless rubbish. Also, a melody can appear simple and not that great when someone looks at it on the music sheet and analyzes it. But, said melody can still be great, powerful, and meaningful when it gets fully crafted. My point is, when you look at my melodies, don't judge them as simplistic rubbish. You might find yourself quite surprised once I fully craft them by adding in all the necessary chords, harmony, etc. Only then should you hear something great.
Other Person's Response: You claim you're this mentally gifted artist who can create great music in his head. I think you're giving yourself a title or status you don't deserve. Here's where you truly rank. You rank as nothing more than a mere child coming up with rubbish melodies. You are overly confident, proud, and arrogant. But you'll be humbled to the real truth.
My Reply: I'm not sure what will happen. If it turns out my music is great once it's fully crafted, then I was right and had every reason to give myself this status. People should then take back their insults, name calling, and doubts they've had about me. But, if I was creating rubbish tunes in my head all along, then that's the truth and I'll be fine with it. I'm actually prepared for such truth.
Other Person's Response: You say these melodies will convey power, greatness, and meaning once they're fully crafted. I don't think they will. Human beings are meaningful creatures and we attribute meaning to things that have no meaning. For example, what's the meaning of life? It has no meaning. People just give meaning to it.
My Reply: Well, to me, this meaning seems absolutely real and compelling. People can attribute meaning to things and be right in their assessments while, other times, they're wrong. I don't know if I'm right or wrong in my assessments. I just go by my own personal judgments. I judge my melodies based on what I personally think they convey.
Other Person's Response: You're sending yourself on a wild goose chase. You think there's power and meaning these melodies have that you need to convey to the audience and there's none. You should give up composing right now and pursue a different hobby.
My Reply: I don't agree with you and I'm going through with this regardless of what others say. After all, people who don't listen to the opinions of others were often times very successful artists and inventors. People would have doubts, name call, and mistreat these artists and inventors. But that didn't stop them.
Besides, I'm someone who doesn't listen to the opinions of others anyway. The only things I listen to are important information I need to know or things I need to learn and study such as music theory. I don't bother with the opinions of others who say I'm a shit person, I'm a sinner, my music will be shit even when fully crafted, etc.
Other Person's Response: You take pride in things that are nothing to be proud of. Your music isn't anything to be proud of.
My Reply: I think it is and people will realize this later on.
Other Person's Response: I heard you sometimes have a difficult time getting the notes right to these melodies you hear in your head. Why is that?
My Reply: First of all, it takes practice to reproduce the exact notes you hear in your head. But I do think I got the exact notes and rests to my melodies. Second, when I'm very focused and determined to reproduce the right notes on a keyboard, that actually hinders my ability to see if I've chosen the right notes or not. This is because you need to have a relaxed mind to think clearly and see things clearly.
Otherwise, your mind will be muddled up. So, let's pretend I was a remixer, trying to adjust the volumes of the tracks to the right level. I'd have to keep my mind relaxed to clearly see what the right volume would be for these tracks. If I had that overly fixated mindset, I'd have the tracks near the right volume level. But not exactly the right level.
The same idea applies when reproducing the notes to these melodies in my mind. I might mess up and get some notes that are slightly off. But there is a trick that allows me to get the notes right when I'm in that fixated mindset. My mind is overly fixated on getting the notes right to the forward version of my melodies which leaves my mind settled in regards to the reversed version.
So, that makes it much easier for me to see what notes are off in the reversed version. I reverse my melodies and listen to them. If I hear a note that's off, then I'll know which note was off in the forward version. When I do get all the notes right to my melodies, that makes a melody that fully conveys its intended meaning with no "off"-sounding notes that sort of distort said meaning. Again, only I can see the meaning my melodies have at this stage.
Other Person's Response: Maybe you can't see the rubbish your melodies really are since your mind isn't relaxed.
My Reply: That's not true. Even when I'm relaxed, I still think my melodies are great and convey what I describe. I have always seen them this way.
Other Person's Response: I notice your Distant Future melody is supposed to either be in the key of Bb minor or Db major. But you're not starting on the tonal key (Bb or Db) and ending on that key. You also naturalize the E note.
My Reply: I basically create melodies through inspiration alone and I don't limit myself to factors such as creating a melody that doesn't have too many leaps or steps (i.e. too many big or small melodic intervals), starting on the tonal key and ending on that key, etc. I don't think those factors always have to be necessary because you can still create great music and melodies through inspiration alone.
Think of it this way. Imagine if I told someone to sing the phrase: "I went to the store today." If that person was inspired to sing it, he'd just sing it through pure emotion. He wouldn't even think about those factors I've mentioned. Even though the melody was sung through inspiration alone, it might be a great, catchy melody he has yet to fully craft so that said greatness and catchiness becomes realized by the audience.
Other Person's Response: The problem with you is that you think you can create great music in your head through pure emotion alone without thinking about anything. Some thought is necessary when creating a good melody. You must think about the technical aspects to create a good melody in your mind.
My Reply: I don't think that's the case. I think pure emotion/inspiration alone can result in the creation of great music in our minds. I'd like to use an interesting analogy and it would be a Dragon Ball Super analogy. If you've never watched the anime, that's fine. I just want to share it anyway. There's a character named Goku who uses Ultra Instinct.
It's an ability where he doesn't think at all and his pure instinct allows him to be an amazing fighter. I think we as human beings have our own little ultra instinct and we can become great artists in our own minds. We don't need to put any thought into creating amazing artwork in our minds. We just let the inspiration do all the work.
Other Person's Response: So, you think the only thought that's actually needed to create good melodies is when you're going through the whole crafting process of figuring out what chords you need and things like this?
My Reply: Yes. Your brain can start you off with some awesome music. From there, you need to figure out the rest when fully crafting your mentally inspired music.
Other Person's Response: You say a person can sing a great melody naturally on his own, having no knowledge and experience in the art of music. I don't believe this.
My Reply: Ask any normal person who knows nothing about music theory to expressively sing or say the phrase: "You will be my best friend forever and ever!" I bet that person would say or sing it in such a way that it becomes a good, catchy melody. Of course, if this person was an awful singer, he wouldn't be singing the melody too well. But, if the melody the person was trying to convey were put into note form on a notation software and then made into a fully crafted melody with all the chords, harmony, etc., I bet it would turn out to be a decent melody.
My point is, creating good, catchy melodies is a natural ability. But, to say or sing a meaningless, rubbish melody, you'd just say or sing any phrase in a random manner, where the words of that given phrase are still being said/sung, but the notes are all over the place which makes it sound like an odd, meaningless, melody. It would be like a person who displays gestures and expressions that convey meaning as opposed to someone who displays odd, random, meaningless gestures and expressions.
The thing is, human beings are naturals at conveying meaning. So, of course their gestures and expressions are going to convey meaning and of course the melodies these people come up with are going to convey meaning. However, some people might come up with lame melodies that aren't that great while others do come up with awesome melodies.
Therefore, even though melodies or songs do convey meaning, that doesn't mean it's going to be a great melody or song. Think of lame music you hear on the radio. Sure, it conveys meaning. But it's lame music. There might also be some people who come up melodies that are meaningless rubbish even when they become fully crafted melodies. These would be those random melodies I was talking about.
Other Person's Response: I get it now. People do naturally create melodies that convey meaning and some of these melodies are lame while others are great. What types of people naturally create great melodies and what types create lame ones?
My Reply: If you're a very boring, lame person, then you're very likely to come up with a lame melody. But, if there's some unique and awesome musical inspiration within you that goes beyond that of some lame musician, then you're very likely to come up with great, unique melodies or songs. I think I'm that person coming up with great melodies and I wish to share them to the world in their fully crafted form.
Other Person's Response: Your Distant Future isn't a full theme though. I think there needs to be much more added to it.
My Reply: Perhaps that's the case. Maybe, once it becomes a full theme, it will start off on the tonal key and end on that key. The first part of the theme is supposed to express someone arriving at the distant time period or galaxy. So, the melody you hear that has a bit of rest and then goes into the full theme is supposed to be the beginning. It's supposed to have a sort of settled, bizarre feel to it. Once it gets to the main part, it has a bit more energy as it expresses the touring or the observing of this bizarre place.
Other Person's Response: I can tell your Distant Future tune has a pattern because it alternates between 2 staccato notes and 2 normal notes, the 2nd part of the melody raises and lowers back down, and there's a half rest throughout the piece.
My Reply: What's interesting is that I've created these patterns in my mind without even thinking about it. The inspiration alone has done it for me. From there, I've just replicated the notes and rests I heard in my mind onto a music notation software. If my inspiration alone can create musical patterns, then why can't it also create great music? I figure that, if I can naturally create musical patterns in my mind without thinking about it, then I can naturally create great music in my mind without thinking about it.
Other Person's Response: How would you respond if you fully craft your melodies and people still say they're awful rubbish?
My Reply: There are 2 possibilities. The 1st would be that my melodies obviously don't convey what I described at all. They really were nothing great and I was fooling myself all along. But the 2nd possibility would be that they are great, do convey what I describe, and people can't see that due to their high standards. If, for example, I fully craft my Distant Future tune, then there's power, greatness, and meaning staring these people right in front of their faces and they can't even see it.
They lack appreciation and that's what blinds them. They expect too much when it comes to artwork. There's a big difference between how complex an artwork is and the power, meaning, and greatness conveyed by an artwork. Just because my fully crafted Distant Future melody isn't a more complicated melody, is predictable, and repeats, doesn't mean it's a rubbish melody that conveys no meaning.
I think people are having too high of a standard and that blinds them to the power and greatness of artwork. Even simple art forms such as the drawing of a beautiful rose can convey power and meaning. It doesn't have to be a rose with complex detail for it to be something great. My point is, a work of art can qualify as something great, powerful, and meaningful even when it's not the complex work of an artistic mastermind.
Other Person's Response: So, if you do fully craft your melodies and people still say they're rubbish, you're just going to blame and insult the audience for not liking them? You're going to blame and insult others for your incapabilities?
My Reply: Well, the question to ask here is if such blame is justified. If it's justified, then my fully crafted melodies really are great and other people can't appreciate them. If it's not justified, then I'm the one to blame since I'm really not creating any good music.
Other Person's Response: You can't go on about 'power, greatness & meaning' (something you seem obsessed by) until you finally finish something. Even then, you have to leave it to others to determine whether your work has any merit or not. That's for the audience to decide. Not you. Finish what you started. A half-baked idea is no good to anyone. You have to see it through and that takes work. Lots of it.
You say that this melody is great and has lots of potential. Then you talk about 'if you decide to finish it'. Surely, if you think it has lots of potential, then you would finish it??!!?? Talk is cheap. Actions speak louder than words. I can't comment on the music until I hear the finished product.
'They lack appreciation and that's what blinds them' ??!!?? You're wrong here. They appreciate good music and that's what makes them decide what's good and what's not. If someone doesn't like your music, that doesn't automatically mean they lack appreciation.
In fact, quite the opposite. It means they are discerning. If someone likes your music, they like it. Pure and simple. If they don't, they don't. That's life. Stop talking up your music and finish something. Then let the audience decide and LISTEN when they respond.
My Reply: I will finish it then. I was just eager to share it now because I thought there was the possibility that people would realize the power and greatness this melody has. I see that's not the case and I must fully craft this melody so that said greatness becomes realized. Lastly, there are people who don't appreciate good music.
For example, some people would say Michael Jackson's music isn't that good because some of his melodies are too simplistic. I think they are great and some people just can't appreciate his music. Many people do appreciate his music though. The same idea applies to the Super Mario theme song. Some people would say it's dull and repetitive while I think it's great and catchy. So, the audience isn't always right and discerning as you say they are.
Other Person's Response: I heard your father is also a musician. Do you wish to compose the style of music he makes and learn from him?
My Reply: The style of music I wish to compose is something bizarre and out of the ordinary. It would be something completely different than the style he composes. That Dark Tune would be an example of one of those bizarre, out of the ordinary, tunes.
Some tunes I put up there though have a normal and beautiful vibe to them. When I learn how to make fully crafted music, I wish to add my bizarre music to videos such as Sonic the Hedgehog and other types of video games and anime.
Even though my music wouldn't fit the Sonic universe or the universe of other anime and video games, I wish to express them in my own unique way. What compels me to pursue this composing dream is I wish to express and share music that's out of the ordinary. It would render people awe-stricken and very intrigued. They will realize the awesome power of these themes.
Other Person's Response: Could you explain more in regards to that Dark Tune because I'm already intrigued?
My Reply: First of all, I'll just say this as a reminder. There is one part of this tune that's at a softer volume than the other part. That part that has the lower volume is the leading tune which is supposed to lead into the chorus. The chorus is the loud and powerful part.
It's at a lower octave while the leading tune is at a higher octave. Now, this Dark Tune isn't just a tune. It's supposed to be the bridge and chorus of a song. I'll have to create the whole song myself someday. It would be like if I just shared this part of Michael Jackson's song "Man in the Mirror:"
"'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
(If you want to make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)"
Other Person's Response: So, you'd just be sharing the bridge and chorus of a dark, powerful song you'd make in the future. I take it you just wish to showcase it in the meantime until you make the full song.
My Reply: That's correct. Also, I do envision a type of singing voice that would sing this dark and powerful chorus. It would be like the voice of a powerful, dark, witch. If you listen to the woman's singing voice in this youtube video, then imagine a dark, powerful, choir version of her voice. It would sound similar to her voice, but in a dark and powerful way. It would be T'pau's voice from the song Heart and Soul. I'll go ahead and share the youtube video:
Other Person's Response: When you say a dark, powerful, choir version of T'pau's voice sings your chorus, are you referring to her voice in the beginning of her song "Heart and Soul?" Or are you referring to her loud, singing voice that's heard in the chorus of her song?
My Reply: I'm referring to her singing voice in the beginning of the song. So, imagine a dark, powerful version of that voice singing my chorus. When you listen to how her voice sounds in the beginning, it sounds sort of heavy. It's almost as though that voice can become the singing voice of a powerful, dark witch. But, when you listen to her singing voice during the chorus of her song, it doesn't sound like that. So, I'm not talking about the chorus of her song.
Other Person's Response: I don't see how her voice can be the singing voice of a dark witch at all!
My Reply: Then forget what I said if that's the case. All I'm trying to say here is that a woman would sing the chorus of my Dark Tune. Her singing voice would sound like a powerful, dark witch. It would sound heavy and evil.
Other Person's Response: You're 30 years old and even my own little daughter, with her little knowledge and experience in composing, can produce a better tune than you! At least her tunes convey meaning and emotion while yours are just plain rubbish! Your tunes convey no meaning and emotion whatsoever!
My Reply: I think they do and people don't realize it yet since they're not fully crafted melodies (i.e. just the bare bones laid out for others to listen to which would be the melody itself along with a few additional things). However, if you're right and they're still rubbish even when fully crafted, then I clearly don't understand how to create music that conveys meaning and emotion for others to listen to.
I think it conveys meaning and emotion, but it really doesn't. Just to me it does. I could certainly create lyrics that convey meaning/emotion and I could even yell them to give them more power. But I wouldn't know how to create a melody or song that conveys meaning and emotion. There are 2 aspects when it comes to making music and that would be the lyrics and then the actual music itself.
I'm not concerned with coming up with lyrics. I just want to create music that is powerful, awesome, beautiful, amazing, etc. to other people. I wish to express myself to others through music. If I feel a certain powerful, awesome emotion (such as a given character or scene), I wish to express that through music. I wish for the amazing power of my positive emotions to take on a musical form.
Otherwise, such amazing power would be contained only within myself and wouldn't be expressed through music I create. I could certainly act out on such emotions (such as acting out a scene or character), but I'd just be acting out and nothing more. It wouldn't really express how I'm feeling since it might give the impression I'm some crazy person.
My gestures and voice just wouldn't convey the artistic emotion I'm feeling. Therefore, I wish to express said emotions artistically and I've chosen the art of music because music is very profound and beautiful to me. I don't want to take up drawing or any other art form. I think I can somehow learn how to fully express my emotions through music.
Other Person's Response: So, you're basically saying you'd just be making music that makes sense to you, but to nobody else?
My Reply: Correct. Any fully crafted tune or song I make would be meaningless, nonsensical rubbish for others while, for me, it would convey meaning, scenes, emotion, and a story. Hopefully, that's not the case and the fully crafted music I make really does convey the meaning and emotion I describe.
Other Person's Response: If it's really the case the fully crafted music you make is meaningless rubbish for other listeners, then it seems you can't relate to your audience. You wouldn't actually know how to create music the audience would love. You'd just think you know, but don't.
My Reply: If this turns out to be the case when I fully craft my melodies, then I'm not sure how to fix this problem.
Other Person's Response: Music comes from within. If you want to create music that is powerful and awesome for others to listen to, then the music you create has to come from within. It must be inspired and not just rubbish.
My Reply: That's what I'm doing. The melodies I create in my head are created through inspiration. Some of them are created through channeling powerful emotion within myself. But that wouldn't be enough if I want to make fully crafted music that's actually great. If my fully crafted music really does turn out to be great like I said, then that would be wonderful! But I don't know if that's the truth yet.
Other Person's Response: Your melodies need more variation to them in order for them to be something good when you fully craft them. I also think they're too repetitive.
My Reply: Personally, I don't think they do and I also think they're repeated the right amount of times. You need repetition in music. But not too much. Also, I could take any great, catchy tune and make it so that it's repeated too much and so that there's not much variety to the notes when it's repeated.
It would be like it's almost the exact same tune being repeated over and over again. But it would still be a great, catchy tune. The power and meaning the fully crafted tune conveys would still be there.
But, if I completely screwed up the notes of that tune, then that power, catchiness, and meaning would no longer be there anymore since it would be a completely different tune. It would now be a meaningless, rubbish tune.
Other Person's Response: Even if your melodies were fully crafted, they're still ordinary melodies any normal person can come up with. They're nothing spectacular and they don't convey anything you describe.
My Reply: I don't think so. An ordinary melody wouldn't possess the power and greatness my melodies have. Imagine if a famous artist such as Michael Jackson came up with a simple, great melody as opposed to an average person coming up with an ordinary melody. Michael Jackson's melody would be something far greater than that ordinary melody. MJ's melody would have that power, meaning, soul, and catchiness to it. Of course, MJ's melody would need to be fully crafted and can't just be the bare bones.
Other Person's Response: Do you think you're like Michael Jackson?
My Reply: No. The point I'm trying to make is that I'm not just coming up with average melodies here. I think I have a musical gift that the world has yet to realize. Once my melodies become fully crafted, then the world will know that my melodies are something much greater than what an average person would come up with.
Other Person's Response: How much do you wish to learn when it comes to making music?
My Reply: I just want to learn what I need to learn to make the music I want to make. I don't want to learn all these additional things if they're unnecessary.
Other Person's Response: I see you're someone who wishes to express emotion through music and you're not someone intellectual such as a person who'd want to play chess or learn physics.
My Reply: Correct. Even though I'm not an intellectual genius like Einstein or an amazing chess player, I would consider myself to be an emotional genius. My fully crafted music wouldn't be great like Beethoven's or Bach's music. But I'd still consider it to be the work of an emotional genius who expresses powerful and profound emotion. You don't have to be the best composer in the world to be considered a genius. For example, I consider Koji Kondo to be a genius since he makes music that so many people love and find catchy.
Other Person's Response: You do realize there's some intellect involved when it comes to making music and that it's not all emotional? For example, you have to take into account the rules of music theory and things like this.
My Reply: I realize this and I actually enjoy the whole process (providing I have my positive emotions to allow me to enjoy it). So, I'm willing to use my intellect to achieve my goal of expressing my emotions to the audience through music. But I'm not willing to pursue intellectual endeavors for their own sake such as playing chess, doing riddles, calculus, or any other intellectual exercise.
Other Person's Response: In regards to that Dark Tune you've made (which is supposed to be the chorus of a song), are you willing to change some of the notes?
My Reply: These are the exact notes I hear in my head. Changing the notes would change the melody and I don't want to do that. Imagine if I changed the notes of some great, catchy tune out there. It would no longer be the same tune. So, I wish to keep my melody as it is and, from there, fully craft it to make it a chorus.
Other Person's Response: I think you're a boring, dull, shallow, shit person after having read all your previous packets.
My Reply: I think there are other ways to grow and be a great, interesting person. For example, I wish to compose some pretty bizarre, profound, powerful, interesting music and that would make me an interesting, awesome, profound person right there!
Other Person's Response: I'm sorry to say it, but magnetic therapy doesn't work, your music will be shit when fully crafted, and there's no afterlife. Those things you wanted to be true weren't! There's reality for you!
My Reply: I'm hoping it's the opposite. I hope these immortality rings work to reverse my aging and bring back my positive emotions if I'm ever in a situation where I lose them. I've been wearing them and I'm not noticing any effects. I'll continue to wear them though. It would be lovely if they really do work since that would allow me to live a very long life and achieve my composing dream without any illness killing me off beforehand.
In addition, I could have my happiness intact with these rings as well. From there, it would be great if the fully crafted music I make really does turn out to be awesome like I said. If I ever do die, then it would be lovely if the eternal blissful afterlife of my dreams exists for me. I don't know if the afterlife exists. So, I have to live my life here on Earth as long as possible since it could be the only life for me. I wouldn't want to die and that be the end of me.
I wish to live as long as possible and have fun, be happy, and enjoy my life all I want. I'm basically existing to live a long, happy life, have my awesome, fully crafted music praised and recognized (which would make me feel even more joy), and then to live the afterlife of my dreams when I die. If my fully crafted music really does turn out to be great, then I wish for it to be praised and recognized on internet forums as well as sites such as youtube and soundcloud.
Other Person's Response: If you fully craft your melodies, then how would you know if your music is awful or not?
My Reply: I would share my fully crafted music on internet forums and get feedback. If people say it's awful or great, then I'll know if my music is awful or great. I can't possibly know the truth on my own and that's why I must share my fully crafted music and get responses from others. I would also want to get responses from professional musicians because their views of my fully crafted music would be far closer to the truth than the responses of basic, average, people on the internet.
Other Person's Response: You do realize that even great music has people ridiculing it, right?
My Reply: Yes. But, if far more people are saying my fully crafted music is great than there are people saying it's rubbish, then that says my music is great and there are just some people out there who don't like it. But, if almost everyone says my fully crafted music is awful, then I'll know it's awful.
Other Person's Response: What about the beat of your Dark Tune? Do people also think it's rubbish?
My Reply: From my perspective, it's a very good, catchy beat that conveys power and meaning. It may not be the best beat in the world. But I still think it's good and catchy. If anyone says it's rubbish, then perhaps it's because I don't have other things to go along with that beat in order to convey its power and meaning. The same idea applies to the beat along with the melody. Or maybe other people were right all along and I just see it as good and catchy.
Other Person's Response: Even if it's the case that your melodies will become great once fully crafted, you're not making a proper beat. You don't have the right chords either. That's not how you make a beat and that's not how you make chords.
My Reply: At least the melodies themselves are there for now. Now I just need to learn how to make the right beat, chords, etc. to make them fully crafted melodies.
Other Person's Response: You said you have a memory there that allows you to realize the power and meaning your tunes have (including your Dark Tune). If that memory were to be taken away, you're saying you'd perceive your tunes like how any normal person would?
My Reply: Yes. I would also see them as crap, rubbish tunes that convey no meaning. I know this from personal experience because I did, in fact, lose memories in regards to certain tunes. This is because the brain naturally forgets. However, certain memories can become permanent (unless taken away by brain damage or any other factor).
I have brought back those memories I've forgotten because you can bring back memories you've forgotten. This means I now know what these tunes are supposed to be like in their fully crafted form. That even includes the Dark Tune. What's even better is that these memories are now permanent.
Having these memories will allow me to know how I'm supposed to craft these tunes. Since I see power and meaning in my tunes that has yet to be conveyed to the audience, this means I'll know what I need to do with these tunes to fully bring out said power and meaning. I'll know this when I learn how to fully craft a melody.
Basically, what these memories are is knowledge of the power and meaning that has yet to be conveyed by my melodies. When I lose those memories, I no longer know what power and meaning was supposed to be conveyed by these melodies and, thus, I see them as rubbish, crap tunes.
Other Person's Response: You already described the power and meaning that has yet to be conveyed by your tunes though. So, even if you did lose those memories again, shouldn't you still remember by reading your descriptions?
My Reply: I'd know what power and meaning my melodies are supposed to convey. However, that's not enough because there's a difference between having a memory from reading a description as opposed to an artistic vision that has yet to become reality. Let me give you an example. If a person wrote a very powerful melody that's not fully crafted, then he'd know the power that has yet to be conveyed by said melody since he's the one who created it.
He could even describe the power on a sheet of paper and save that sheet. He has a vision of this melody that he has yet to bring into fruition to the audience. But, if he were to lose the memory of his artistic vision of that melody, then he'd just see it as a melody and nothing more when he listens to it. Sure, he could read the description he wrote on that sheet of paper.
But that won't bring back the artistic vision he had of that melody. If he tries to bring back that memory he lost and can't bring it back, then he's going to have to create a new vision in his mind of that melody. If he doesn't create a new vision, then he'll continue to see the melody as meaningless rubbish when he listens to it. But, if he manages to bring back his former vision, then he'll see the melody as powerful and great when he listens to it.
Other Person's Response: How a person perceives music is all subjective. So, even if you do fully craft your tunes to make them understandable for other people (take, for example, that Dark Tune you said was powerful and awesome), other people might not see it as awesome or amazing. They might see it as being "ok" or just "Hey, I thought that was a bit good!"
As a matter of fact, they might even see the tune as conveying something entirely different than what you describe. This means that, for you, whatever this tune conveys in your eyes is your own personal truth/interpretation while, for others, their perception of your music is their own personal truth.
My Reply: My whole goal though in making music is to convey the things I describe. For example, if I say one of my tunes is amazing and conveys a certain powerful scene, then that's what I intend to convey. My intention is to create music that really strikes the audience.
Beethoven and Michael Jackson have achieved this because their music was powerful, moving, and profound to many people. It wasn't just the lyrics to MJ's music that moved people. It was the music itself that did.
Sure, there are some people out there who don't like their music or think their music is "ok" because not everyone is going to think a certain song is amazing and powerful. But, the fact is, their music was still powerful and amazing to many people. That's my goal is to create music that's awesome for many people.
It would be quite frustrating if I was one of the very few people (or perhaps the only person) who sees his own tunes as amazing and conveying the awesome, powerful scenes I describe. Like I said though, some of my tunes aren't that amazing. But some of them I think are. That Dark Tune being one of those awesome, powerful tunes.
Other Person's Response: Maybe that Dark Tune will become amazing, powerful, and will convey what you describe once you fully craft it. In its current stage, there's no way the tune is going to achieve its intended goal. However, even if you do fully craft it and it's said to be not that great and/or conveying something else, then maybe your assessment of your tunes is off. In other words, what you think your tunes convey and your judgment that they're awesome, powerful, and amazing would be an assessment that doesn't match up with reality.
My Reply: Again, that would be quite frustrating if it's the latter. If it's the latter, then I would somehow have to fix my way of assessing my tunes. I wish to see my tunes for what they really are rather than deluding myself into thinking they're amazing and conveying the scenes or characters I describe.
If I could know what my tunes actually convey and if they're that great or not, then that would give me a major advantage since I would know if other people would think they're awesome, great, and convey what I describe. Otherwise, I'd be all alone and and I'd be the only one who sees his music as great and conveying of certain scenes.
Other Person's Response: I agree that your assessments are off.
My Reply: Here's the thing though. I can give an accurate assessment of any given song. For example, if someone were to present to me a song or tune by Michael Jackson, I'd be able to describe the power, personality, and emotion it conveys. So, why can't I give an accurate assessment of music I create in my head? I conclude that, since I can give an accurate assessment in regards to other tunes and songs, that my assessment of these melodies in my mind is also an accurate assessment.
Other Person's Response: What about reversed songs? Do they convey certain scenes?
My Reply: Yes. When I reverse some songs, they convey certain meanings to me and are catchy. Some songs I reverse don't convey anything to me. They just sound like stuff being played backwards. Take note that I'm not talking about reversed lyrics here. I'm talking about the reversed series of notes and rests in a song and what emotion it conveys.
Most people reverse songs to make out what words they think they hear when they listen to reversed lyrics. But I reverse songs to see what emotion music conveys. I'm just concerned with the power and meaning music itself conveys. Yes, lyrics are important. But I'm just not concerned with lyrics. Anyway, I'll give you an example of how a reversed song does convey a certain emotion.
This song doesn't have lyrics to it. It's called "The Ballad of the Goddess." Even though it's the song Zelda's Lullaby played backwards, it still conveys meaning. It conveys powerful heroism such as a hero embarking on a journey. It's not just Zelda's Lullaby played backwards. It's done in such a way that the notes sound like they're playing forward rather than having notes that sound like they've been reversed. This is called "retrograding." Here's the youtube link to this song:
Now that you know reversed songs can convey certain emotions, I'm going to share to you a song I reversed and made my own personal story out of. It's the song "Let It Rock" reversed. Again, forget about the reversed lyrics because that's not my focus here. Instead, focus on the emotion of this reversed song and the scenes I've chosen for it. Yes, do focus on the singing because the singing involves the series of notes being sung. But just forget about the reversed lyrics.
As for the scenes I've chosen, they've been taken from a Sonic the Hedgehog video and I personally think they match the song. I slow some scenes down so the story matches with the music. When you first hear the reversed song, the vibe I get from it is something you'd hear before the chorus arrives. When you first hear songs play, it's the beginning of the song to prepare the listener for the chorus.
The chorus conveys intense emotion and the song has to lead up to that. Sonic the Hedgehog is preparing to transform into his super form in this video which is why I have that part of the song match this scene. I think this portion of the song also really does express a character preparing to transform. Not in a cinematic way. But in a very cool way since that's the vibe it conveys to me.
Then the intense part of the song (the chorus) arrives. This part, to me, conveys something awesome, powerful, and dangerous. It expresses a character going through an intense mode of unleashing power and that's why I have the scene of Sonic transforming match this part of the song. The reversed chorus is unlike the forward version because the forward version doesn't convey that emotion. The forward version makes people want to dance and have a fun time.
After Sonic transforms into his super form, I then have the next part of the song match the next scene. The next part of the song is a bit more settled down which is why I have the scene of Sonic standing in his super form match this part of the song. After that, I have the next scene match the next part of the song. The next part of the song conveys something awesome, lethal, serious, and dangerous.
It's not like the chorus because the chorus conveyed powerful emotion. The scene that's used to match this part of the song would be Super Sonic unleashing his lethal moves upon a character. So, there you have it. There's my assessment of the reversed song Let It Rock. It's not the full song reversed though. I just gave you a small example. One might say my assessment is way off and it could very well be.
If that's the case, then it would be an irrational assessment and I would have to find a way to rationally assess somehow. Or, maybe, my assessment was right all along and the notes of the reversed song have to sound like they're being played forward in order for that emotion I described to be conveyed. It could also be the case I'm envisioning the reversed song being played in a different key to convey the serious, awesome, dangerous emotion I described.
Here's the link to the Sonic video with the reversed Let It Rock song:
Other Person's Response: You must be a crazy person if you think that reversed Let It Rock song conveys what you described.
My Reply: Not crazy. Just irrational if my assessment is wrong. There's a big difference between someone who's crazy and someone who's using irrational assessments.
Other Person's Response: Could you give me a link that shows me the Ballad of the Goddess is Zelda's Lullaby played backwards?
My Reply: Sure. Also, I was wrong when I said the song had no lyrics:
Other Person's Response: I found your assessment of the reversed Let It Rock to be quite interesting! Do you have another song as an example?
My Reply: Yes. It would be the song "Love Is A Battlefield" by Pat Benatar. I don't have actual video scenes to go along with it. So, I'll just describe the scenes that this reversed song conveys to me. Here's the link to it:
Starting from 0:02-0:14 in this video, this would just be the intro. Then, from 0:15-0:31, this conveys something settled. It would be like something slowly creeping up. Think of a person standing there and something's about to happen. It doesn't sound cinematic like something you'd hear in a movie though. It's different than that.
Then, starting from 0:32, this is a moment of shock where the person looks and notices some demonic creature about to grab him. The tension rises as the song leads into the chorus starting from 0:40-1:17. The chorus conveys something dramatic and horrific as the person is being dragged to hell, screaming.
Again, in regards to the scenes I'm describing, don't think of anything cinematic because the emotion this reversed song conveys is entirely different than the type of emotion conveyed by cinematic music. Think of it as the song Love Is A Battlefield taking on the essence of pure horror. The same idea applies to the song Let It Rock reversed.
Think of it as that song taking on the form of something awesome and dangerous. As you can see, when you reverse songs, they take on a whole new essence since they become whole new songs. Anyway, the reversed chorus of this song conveys even more dramatic horror than famous horror music. It's in a league of its own. Pat Benatar yells while she's singing the chorus and that really adds to the dramatic horror.
Then, from 1:17-2:02, it sounds settled and ominous. Then, from 2:03-2:36, it sounds like something evil is brewing. That's all the scenes I'll describe of this song because you get the idea. If anyone disagrees with my assessment of this reversed song, then, again, maybe I'm envisioning the reversed song in a different key which would convey the scenes/emotion I described.
Other Person's Response: Here's a novel idea. Why not just listen to the songs the way they were meant to be heard?
Incidentally, the key of a piece of music does not change simply because you are playing it backwards. If, however, you change the speed it is played at, then it does. Does a movie make any sense if you watch it backwards? No. Neither does music. Stop wasting time with this reverse rubbish. Rather, invest the time listening to music naturally. It's a lot more fun and a lot more rewarding.
My Reply: I know the piece does not change key simply because you play it backwards. I said I was perhaps envisioning the song being played backwards in a different key to convey the scenes/emotion I described. I also said earlier that songs played backwards do make sense and do convey emotions and scenes. An example I gave was the Ballad of the Goddess which is actually Zelda's Lullaby reversed. As you can see, a reversed song can become a whole new song that does tell a story that makes sense.
Other Person's Response: Simply changing the key of a song doesn't mean it's going to convey the scenes you describe. Even if you did change the key of those reversed songs, it still wouldn't convey what you described.
My Reply: I realize that. I think it's a combination of what key the reversed song is in AND what the reversed series of notes and rests are. That's what will convey the scenes I described and I think the reversed series of notes/rests as they are do convey those scenes. Actually, there's another thing that's needed to convey the scenes I described and I explain it soon enough because just having a reversed song in the right key isn't enough to convey something meaningful to the audience.
Other Person's Response: Those reversed songs you've posted are meaningless and don't convey anything. They were meant to be listened to in their forward version. Since you're projecting meaning upon meaningless music, then maybe you're also projecting meaning upon meaningless, rubbish tunes you're making in your head.
Many people make certain connections with music. They connect certain emotion, power, and scenes with music they hear. Some connections make sense while others are irrational. The connection you've made with those reversed songs is irrational. The same thing applies to the connection you're making with those tunes you've created in your mind.
My Reply: I don't think that's the case.
Other Person's Response: Many human beings just aren't wired rationally. Hence the reason why you have many religious believers who believe in religious nonsense. I think the same thing applies to you because you believe this nonsense that these tunes in your head convey certain meanings and that those reversed songs you've put up convey certain scenes as well.
My Reply: I'm open-minded towards that possibility. But I don't think that's the case.
Other Person's Response: A 'song' is something that is sung with (hopefully) intelligent and meaningful lyrics. Lyrics played backwards do not become words and, therefore, cannot be a song. In fact, the whole thing just becomes a complete mess. All music has three elements - melody, harmony, and rhythm. If you distort one of these, you're just creating sonic soup that is a complete waste of time. Just because you can do things with technology doesn't mean it's worthwhile. To me, it just sounds stupid. But, hey, do whatever you want.
My Reply: I wasn't talking about the lyrics though. I was talking about the scenes music itself conveys when reversed. I mean, since the reversed Zelda's Lullaby is an actual theme in Zelda and it conveys meaning, then why can't other songs convey meaning and scenes once they're reversed?
Other Person's Response: Yes, the reversed Zelda's Lullaby does convey meaning. But I don't think those reversed songs you've pointed out do.
My Reply: If anyone has never heard the Ballad of the Goddess and simply reversed Zelda's Lullaby, they might say it's a meaningless tune that doesn't convey anything. But, once they listen to the Ballad of the Goddess, they'd say it conveys something powerful such as a hero embarking on a journey.
My point is, I think Zelda's Lullaby has not only been reversed, but recreated in such a way that it conveys something powerful and meaningful. Koji Kondo (the composer for Zelda) might've reversed the melody himself and saw the power and greatness of this reversed melody that other people couldn't see.
Thus, that's why he made it into the Ballad of the Goddess. If I never listened to the Ballad of the Goddess and I reversed Zelda's Lullaby, I might also see the power that this reversed melody conveys that other people just can't see. This is because I have an artistic mind that's able to see that.
The same thing applies to those reversed songs I've posted up there. I'm able to see the power and scenes these reversed songs convey that other people just can't see. So, I don't think reversing a song or melody is enough to convey something meaningful to the audience; you must recreate the song or melody, too.
Other Person's Response: You're basically applying the same argument you've made for your tunes in your head to those reversed songs. You're saying that you're seeing something great and awesome that other people just can't see and that you'd have to convey that to the audience.
My Reply: Correct. Not only must I find a way to convey the greatness and power of these melodies in my mind, but I'd also have to convey the greatness and power of those reversed songs, too. Otherwise, the audience would continue to remain blind and in denial to said greatness and power.
Other Person's Response: You said earlier you were blind to many truths. I think you're also blind to the fact that those reversed songs don't convey what you described at all and neither do the tunes in your head.
My Reply: I may be blind to many truths. But there are certain truths I'm not blind to. One of these truths would be that my positive emotions really are the perception/experience of beauty in my life. I know this from my own personal experience. Another truth I'm not blind to would be my claim that those reversed songs and the tunes in my head convey what I described. These are truths I know that the world is currently blind to.
Other Person's Response: If a person thinks there's a ghost, he must ask himself if there really is a ghost or if it's his imagination playing tricks on him. Likewise, when you think there's certain power and meaning to those tunes in your head and to those reversed songs, you must ask yourself if that power and meaning is actually there and has yet to be conveyed to the audience, or if it's just your imagination playing tricks on you.
My Reply: That's a good question and I find myself wondering what the real answer is.
Other Person's Response: If a person knows how reality works and learns there's no such thing as ghosts, leprechauns, or fairies, then he'll no longer think those things exist. Likewise, when you learn how music works, you'll no longer think those melodies in your mind have power and meaning to them. Neither will you think those reversed songs have power and meaning to them.
My Reply: You could be right.
Other Person's Response: I understand that your goal in composing is to express the things you describe because you wish to express yourself as an artist.
My Reply: Exactly. If I intend to express any given scene or character, but end up expressing something entirely different, then I'm not expressing myself to the audience. If people are getting whole new meanings/scenes from my music than what I intended to convey or if they're not getting any sort of meaning/scene at all, then I'm not achieving my goal here.
I said that Dark Tune was powerful, catchy, and conveyed deep meaning. It's supposed to convey an awesome scene of a gothic character unleashing a magnitude of energy. I hope this gets conveyed once that tune is fully crafted. At this point though, I don't think any of that will be conveyed.
Other Person's Response: Why do you lie so much?
My Reply: I don't think I'm lying. If I am, then I don't realize it. Right now, I do think these melodies I've created will convey what I describe once they're fully crafted. Whether that's a lie or not I don't know yet. The same thing applies to my philosophical packets. If all my arguments to support positive emotions being the only things that make life beautiful are lies, then I don't realize it.
Other Person's Response: You're no good at writing music because it's all shit! However, you're good at writing packets. I think you should be a writer rather than a composer. Instead of writing music, maybe you should take up writing poetry or writing stories.
My Reply: Writing isn't the hobby I wish to pursue. Composing is my passion. One might ask why I've written all this material if writing isn't my passion. Well, it's because this is all material I need to share. I wish to express my personal issues I'm having and my views/philosophies.
Other Person's Response: It requires empathy to understand what music you create is going to be awesome, great, powerful, moving, and conveying of certain scenes to people. Otherwise, you'd only be creating music you think is great and conveying of certain scenes, but really isn't. So, even if you do share fully crafted music you create, it might not be anything great as you say it is.
My Reply: I do have some empathy because I'd feel bad if I hurt someone's feelings and I'd feel the need to save my mother's life or help her if she were in a dire situation. Besides, since I can understand the power and emotion of songs being presented to me, then why can't I understand what music I'm creating would be powerful, great, etc. to other people?
Other Person's Response: Are there sociopaths and psychopaths who've composed amazing, moving music?
My Reply: I'm not sure. There could be.
Other Person's Response: If you're composing fully crafted music later on, it conveys nothing you describe, and is still awful music, then perhaps it's your autism making it difficult for you to relate to how other people respond to music. You wouldn't understand how to create music that truly moves, inspires, and motivates people.
My Reply: I hope that's not the case. I hope I create music that achieves my goal.
Other Person's Response: I'm a professional musician and I can tell you right now that, even if that Dark Tune was fully crafted, it's nothing good because not too many people are going to like it.
My Reply: Will there be other musicians debating against you on that? If so, then we don't know the real truth yet. I bet there will be other professional musicians and composers out there who might say something along the lines of:
"Give this man a chance! He could have something great here and all of you are being dicks! I would love to see this melody in its fully crafted form to see if this man's claims of greatness were true or not!"
Given this, I see every reason to keep an open mind. I could have something great in my head as I say. But, then again, it could be garbage.
Other Person's Response: Do you have any way to show that we're just being dicks?
My Reply: This is a video of a song from Sonic the Hedgehog. It's called the Scrap Brain Zone theme. I will show you the video:
You can hear the melody along with all the other musical elements that go with that melody. Now, if I just took the melody that goes from 0:04-0:17 and presented that like how I've presented my melodies, then I bet there will be people who'd say this melody is nothing great, it's crap, conveys nothing, etc. (that is, if these people have never heard the Scrap Brain Zone theme. If they've already heard it, then they'd know what it is just from me sharing the melody).
Even though the melody is simple, does repeat, and there's just a bit of variation at the end when it gets to 0:17, these people would be blind to the melody's greatness, personality, and memorable quality to claim it's garbage. But, once I share the fully crafted melody in that video to these people, I bet they'd now say it's something good and catchy. Take note that I'm not talking about the whole song here. Just that short portion that goes from 0:04-0:17.
Since these people would be blind to this melody's greatness, then they could be blind to the greatness of my melodies. Once I fully craft my melodies, then I bet people would realize they're something great, too. So, I think the melodies I've presented are great and it's simply the way I've presented them that renders people bashing them. I have to present them in their fully crafted form for their greatness to be realized.
Other Person's Response: So, you think your melodies are awesome and it's simply the way you've presented them that's awful?
My Reply: Yes. This awful presentation prevents people from realizing their greatness.
Other Person's Response: That Scrap Brain Zone portion, even when fully crafted, is still nothing good or great on its own. It's having the full song that makes music great.
My Reply: I disagree. I think people would be having too high of a standard which prevents them from appreciating the power and greatness of simple tunes. After all, why can't simple tunes be something great?
Other Person's Response: I think it's best if you learn how to fully craft your melodies yourself rather than having other skilled composers do it. This is because only you know how to convey your melodies in a way you intended. If other people do it, then the melody might convey something different than you intended. This is because each person has his/her own vision of a melody and you need to make your personal vision a reality.
My Reply: I agree. When I said earlier only I know what my melodies are supposed to be and only I know their power and meaning, I was referring to my vision of my melodies that I have to bring into fruition.
Other Person's Response: Could you give me an example of a simple tune you think is great, meaningful, and catchy?
My Reply: An example would be the Wheels on the Bus nursery rhyme. Even without those lyrics, the tune itself would still be great, meaningful, and catchy.
Other Person's Response: You're right. There are simple tunes that are great as you say and I agree that Scrap Brain portion and the Frosted Flakes tune are great and catchy. But there's a big difference between a simple tune that's great, meaningful, and catchy as opposed to one that's plain garbage and doesn't convey any sort of meaning. I'm afraid your tunes are meaningless garbage even in their fully crafted form.
My Reply: How do you know that? I haven't gotten the chance to fully craft them yet. So, I don't think people should be jumping to conclusions. Neither should I jump to the conclusion that these melodies in my head are great.
Other Person's Response: I could be crazy, but maybe you do have some great melody that people don't realize yet. But, to make it fully crafted, you need proper chords, a proper beat, and everything else that makes a fully crafted tune.
My Reply: Sure. I'll learn how to do that someday.
Other Person's Response: It seems to me you don't understand things such as beats, chords, etc. If you don't understand that, then what makes you think you know how to create an awesome, powerful melody in your head?
My Reply: Melodies are very basic things since they're just notes and rests. That's what makes it easy for me to come up with an awesome melody in my head. Sure, I could also come up with a proper beat, chords, and harmony instinctively in my head to go along with that melody (I talk later on about how our brains can instinctively come up with amazing artwork in our heads).
But all of that is too complicated for me to try to reproduce at this point. It's much easier for me to reproduce the melodies themselves. Thus, I've just decided to stick with reproducing the melodies in my head and then adding basic chords and a beat. But I don't think these chords and beats work well. However, when I learn more and gain more skill in composing, that's when I'll add the proper chords, beat, harmony, instruments, etc.
Having more knowledge and experience will make matters much easier and I prefer the easy way rather than the painstaking, hard way of trying to replicate the chords, beats, harmony, instruments, etc. I hear in my mind right now. It will be easier because I'll know my chords and I'll have knowledge of other things. Think of a situation where a person has an amazing drawing he's created in his head.
Would it be easier if this person tried to painstakingly replicate the drawing in his head right now when he has very little knowledge and skill in drawing? Or would it be easier when he knows how to draw and has more skill? The latter would be the much better alternative. Even if he took up the former alternative, that would only leave him drawing like crap.
Other Person's Response: You said melodies are very basic things. Not always. Some melodies can be very complex.
My Reply: I agree. But the melodies I'm making are simple. Although, there might be some melodies I make in my head that will be complex. For now, I'm just sharing my simple melodies.
Other Person's Response: When you come up with melodies in your mind that don't have chords, harmony, etc. to go along with them, do you still understand their power and meaning?
My Reply: Yes. It's still possible to understand the power and meaning of a melody even without the chords, harmony, etc. For example, if I hear certain notes of the melody emphasized in my mind, then that conveys the melody to me in a certain way rather than just having notes and rests play in my head. In other words, the melodies I'm hearing in my mind aren't just melodies and nothing more. There's something more there that allows me to understand their power and meaning.
Other Person's Response: I don't think that fully crafted Scrap Brain portion is enough. I really think you need the full song with no technical flaws with it in order for music to be something great.
My Reply: That's like a robot or a machine requiring the exact right input. Otherwise, it spits out an error. My point is, I don't think everything needs to be perfect in order for music to be something great or beautiful. You can still have a simple tune with some technical flaws to it and it be something great. As long as the actual tune is there, then its power and personality should still be intact and I think said power/personality should still be praised.
But, if the melody was completely messed up, then I'd agree it would be awful. We as human beings are not machines or robots. We should be able to see works of art as still being great even though they're not perfected. We shouldn't be like these machines that spit out the following error whenever a great tune has some technical flaws and isn't a fully crafted song. That error would be:
"It's still nothing good or isn't that good. You must improve the craft to make it something good."
Other Person's Response: What do you mean by 'technical flaws?'
My Reply: I mean things such as bad sound quality, crackles, pops, etc.
Other Person's Response: Honestly, I think you're just projecting certain powerful meanings upon your tunes when they never had that meaning. You shouldn't confuse the meanings you project with reality. The reality is, those tunes are garbage and will remain garbage even when fully crafted. Shit will always be shit regardless of how awesome you think it is. Think of those American Idol singers who believe their singing is great when it's garbage.
My Reply: I don't know if that's what's going on here. But you could be right.
Other Person's Response: Many people would say that Dark Tune, along with your other melodies, are nothing creative. They'd say they're basic, crap melodies anybody could come up with.
My Reply: I disagree with this. I think that Dark Tune is quite unique and awesome. Other people just don't realize its power and genius yet.
Other Person's Response: You said that Dark Tune was something simple, yet powerful and that it's something you would hear in the chorus part of a song. Sure, there can be simple, powerful things being played in the chorus of a song and it does repeat. But you need much more to make it a chorus.
My Reply: Understood. That's why I said I'll fully craft this melody someday. Remember, this tune is simply the chorus part taken out of an existing song I'd create. I could create the whole song myself if I want to or just fully craft the chorus, share that, and leave it at that because it should still be something awesome and powerful on its own even without the context of an entire song. Like I said. Short tunes can still be something awesome and powerful.
Other Person's Response: Trust me. Once you become a skilled, educated composer, you'll look back at those tunes you've created in your mind and realize just how awful they were. You will come to realize they were meaningless garbage all along that never conveyed anything.
I mean, if you already think certain crap works of art are great, then this shows you are blind to the truth. After all, you said in your Undecided Packet that you're blind to virtually every truth there is.
You are currently living in a fantasy since you believe your mentally inspired tunes are great. But reality will strike you once you head down the learning path of the composing art. In short, learning more allows you to see the real truth.
My Reply: Although you have a point, I can't be too sure if you're right. Only time will tell if these melodies I have in my head are great or not. For all we know, if I do become a skilled, educated composer, I might still think these tunes in my mind are great and convey the scenes I describe.
Other Person's Response: If you still think they're great and convey what you describe even after all the knowledge and experience you've gained, then there must be something wrong with you.
My Reply: Maybe you're right.
Other Person's Response: I heard you couldn't tell the difference between a crap work of art and a good one. But that you can tell the difference when the absolute worst, crap artwork is compared to a great one. Your melodies fall under the category of being absolute garbage. So, I don't know why you can't see them for the garbage they really are.
My Reply: You're right. If my tunes, for whatever reason, fall under the category of being absolute garbage, then surely it would be obvious to me. The fact I think they're great could mean they're great and that I just have to convey their greatness. Or, maybe, they're not absolute garbage, but still crap that I see as great.
Other Person's Response: Other people would say you're blind and can't see how awful your tunes are while you say other people are blind and can't see how awesome they are. So, which is it? I personally think you're the blind one.
My Reply: That's a good question to ask and I'm eager to eventually discover the real answer to it.
Other Person's Response: I thought I was a skilled basketball player once, only to find out later on I sucked once I gained knowledge and experience in the sport. I think the same thing applies to you. You should eventually come to the realization those melodies in your mind were garbage.
My Reply: We'll see then.
Other Person's Response: If you think your tunes are great and convey awesome scenes, but that people just don't understand your tunes, then you might as well be saying this to your audience:
"My music is great. You're just hearing it wrong."
My Reply: The tunes I'm hearing in my head I think are wonderful. But what I'm reproducing is awful and jarring. I need to somehow make my tunes great like they are in my head. Think about it. Any person who has an awesome artistic vision would be awful at conveying it in the real world. He must become a skilled artist to successfully convey his vision. I mean, if people really understood my tunes, then I'm quite sure they'd tell me they're awesome, pleasant to the ears, and convey the scenes I describe.
Other Person's Response: That Dark melody is way too simple and needs more notes and/or rests to make it something great when you fully craft it.
My Reply: Again, there are simple tunes out there like my Dark melody. Yet, they're still great, memorable tunes. I think these are the exact notes and rests to the melody itself. But I'll have to add much more to go along with that melody in order to convey its power and greatness.
Other Person's Response: No. Your melody really won't be anything good. It's overly simplistic and too predictable. Your melodies are either too predictable or discordantly unpredictable. There's either nothing to surprise or nothing to latch on to.
My Reply: How are my melodies overly simplistic? If I came up with a melody which had the notes C, D, E, F, and G going up, then that would be a very basic, simple melody. That melody wouldn't be anything great. But my melodies are more sophisticated than that. I don't think they're standard, generic melodies like the example I've just given. I think they're great and do convey the emotion I describe. It's not just a more sophisticated choice of notes I made.
I think my choice of notes and rests do convey the power and scenes I describe. My melodies might be too predictable as you say. But aren't there melodies out there that call for such predictability? Also, I do realize my melodies are lacking in many things to make them crafted and I do agree with the advice other people give me to help make them fully crafted. But I just don't agree they're generic melodies that convey nothing. Surely, they must convey the power and emotion I describe once they're fully crafted.
Other Person's Response: Yes, your melodies are more sophisticated than some lame, generic melody. But they're still too simple to be considered anything great or conveying of any given scene.
My Reply: I said earlier there can be simple, powerful, repeated things in the chorus of a song. Are you sure it can't be something as simple as my Dark Tune and still convey an awesome, powerful scene?
Other Person's Response: You can't just have the fully crafted chorus of a song and that be good enough. You need to engage the listener. A good part of what makes a great piece of music is the same as what makes a good bit of comedy. It's about the setup and punchline.
You need to set up the expectation of where the piece is going and then subtly deviate in an enjoyable, but unexpected way. In music, you can do this through tune, tone, texture, etc., or a combination. Then keep doing it. Most people who do that well do it without even realizing that's what they're doing. It just comes naturally. It's called talent.
When writing your packets, you also need to engage the reader as well. Otherwise, people won't even bother reading and won't think it's anything good. For example, when writing an article, it has to be done in such a way that readers would really want to continue reading it.
My Reply: I think that's too high of a standard because, let's pretend I did fully craft that chorus, then I think that, alone, is something awesome and powerful well worth appreciating. I think people just need to learn to appreciate things whether it be my writing, ideas, music, me as a person, or anything else.
Other Person's Response: Although that Dark melody does repeat, I can tell there's a bit of variation to it because some notes are lowered and then raised each time it plays.
My Reply: Some would say that's too predictable of a melody. But some melodies do have such predictability and said predictability works well with these melodies. It all depends on what emotion you want to convey. If you want to convey something different, then you'd have more variety to the melody.
Other Person's Response: I don't think it's a matter of people not understanding your tunes. I think your tunes really are shit. Also, there are many problems and a major one would be the synth you're using because it's awful!
My Reply: How do you know people understand the music I'm trying to convey? We can't prove if the melodies I'm trying to convey are understood by other people. As far as we know, they could be perceived as ordinary, crap tunes a mere child or complete beginner would come up with. If my tunes are being perceived this way by others, then it's because I need to successfully convey my melodies so they truly become understood.
In regards to the synth, it was in FL Studio. I can't see how awful it is. It's just fine to me from my perspective. That's because I lack knowledge and experience to see just how awful it is. Maybe I got the wrong settings on it. That being the case, I would have to learn how to get the right settings to make it sound good. Also, I don't have the proper instruments for my tunes either and expected people to understand my melodies and their intended power.
Other Person's Response: So, you're basically saying that, if people do get some sort of meaning or scene from your Dark Tune in its current stage (such as that it sounds like some awful, mediocre tune you would hear in a child's movie), that it wouldn't be the intended meaning and that you need to fully craft the tune so its true power and meaning can be conveyed?
My Reply: Yes. Imagine if any musical artist tried to convey a piece or a certain melody in his mind that was amazing and tragic. But other people got a whole new meaning from it and said it was all garbage. That musical artist would be an unrecognized genius.
Other Person's Response: Maybe the melody you're hearing in your mind is great. But, if you can't reproduce it for anybody else, then it doesn't really matter, does it? I could insist that I've got the greatest story of all time in my head. But, if all I can write is: "Once upon a time, there was a dog who saw a bird," that's not really a timeless classic, is it? Can I blame the reader for not understanding my brilliant story?
My Reply: You can't blame the reader. I was hoping other people would understand my melodies. But I see they can't and my only option is to fully craft these melodies.
Other Person's Response: All this situation amounts to is your mind playing tricks on you. These tunes you have in your mind are shit and you just believe they're great and convey the scenes you describe. It's all an illusion and self-deception!
My Reply: Only time will tell. Once I fully craft these tunes, then we'll see who was right and who was wrong.
Other Person's Response: There's no reason why your Dark Tune can't make a great piece of music if performed well and inventively (and with more going on than you have currently). But you've not done that. There are some tunes that are great by themselves. But then there are those tunes that are great, but can't be great by themselves. Your tune is the latter because it needs much more development before it can become great.
My Reply: I'll consider fully crafting this tune then someday.
Other Person's Response: You do post the most complete collection of bollocks I've ever come across. Those melodies of yours have NO power and meaning. They're derivative, utterly predictable, crap. Stop defending rubbish, learn a bit about music (no, you haven't), learn to use the instruments and processors you find on the net (there's LOADS of free stuff which is of extremely high quality), compose something consisting of more than a single-voice drone designed for an 8-bit game for kids (even medieval monks eventually discovered polyphony), and then join the VAST crowds of wannabee composers who struggle every day to get their works heard. I give you fair warning - there are some extremely talented people amongst that lot. You don't have a snowflake in hell's chance.
My Reply: But even tunes that might seem simple, repetitive, derivative, predictable, crap, etc. end up becoming great tunes once they're fully crafted. When I say great, I don't mean the best thing in the world. I mean something that's still great and powerful in its own way. Any given tune doesn't have to meet the highest standard to be considered great. A tune can still meet a reasonable standard of greatness. What people consider to be a reasonable standard is subjective though. For example, some people would say that the Super Mario theme song doesn't even meet a reasonable standard of greatness while I think it does.
The Super Mario theme isn't the best thing in the world. But it's still something good. The same rule applies to simple, short, repetitive tunes. Tunes such as these can still be something great and powerful. My point is, my tunes might seem like simplistic, unoriginal garbage at this stage. But I have yet to convey the tune's greatness and power. Only then should it become something great and convey what I describe. Lastly, I'm willing to take the advice of others to help me improve and successfully convey my tunes. So, I'm not dismissing any advice people give me.
Other Person's Response: Personally, I don't see how your melodies are derivative. They seem quite unique and there are some bizarre ones there, too.
My Reply: Exactly. When I'm inspired to create a melody, it's purely my own melody. I don't derive from the works of others at all. I don't know where people are getting this idea that my melodies are derivative. If they seem derivative to others for whatever reason, then it wasn't intentional on my part.
Other Person's Response:
Matt: "Listen to my music, isn't it great?"
Normal Person: "I listened to it and, no, it's not."
Matt: "...but it's a deep and powerful melody..."
Normal Person: "It's not. It's rubbish."
Matt: "...but there are basic, simple melodies out there that are powerful, great, and memorable..."
Normal Person: "Yes. But yours isn't one of those."
(repeat from step 2, occasionally step 1)
My Reply: But you just told me earlier that this melody of mine could be something great if I carried out the necessary tasks you mentioned (i.e. performing it well, having much more to it, etc.). So, how can you conclude that the melody I'm hearing in my mind is nothing great?
I think I got the right notes, rests, and tempo to the melody and I don't think it matters what anyone thinks in regards to this melody because there are many unexpected surprises in life.
You might find yourself surprised once I fully craft this melody to make it like the one I'm hearing in my head. You might find yourself looking back and realizing just how wrong you were to jump to the conclusion that I never had any talent and that my melodies were meaningless garbage.
Other Person's Response: Why do you write so much bullshit?
My Reply: There are two reasons:
1.) If I fully craft my melodies and it turns out people were wrong when they say they're meaningless garbage, then everything I've written would be a matter of people looking back at this packet and realizing just how wrong they were. I also like to share and express my personal views.
I'm merely speaking up for myself and keeping an open mind to the possibility that my melodies could be great and their greatness not being recognized yet.
Many people are closed-minded and I'm not one of those people because I also keep an open mind to the possibility that other people were right. However, if it's the case other people are wrong, then my tunes really were great and I wasn't talking bullshit.
2.) If I really am talking bullshit and my melodies were meaningless garbage all along, then I might as well amount to nothing more than an untalented loser who talks bullshit all the time. I might as well pester people with these lies.
Other Person's Response: You know, there is a #3. Even if #2 is the reality of the situation, you don't have to give up and deem yourself as some worthless loser. You said composing was your passion and you can still go through with it and learn how to make some good music later on. Therefore, it doesn't have to be all black and white like this.
My Reply: I'll consider #3 then if it's the case #2 is the truth. But I think it could very well be #1.
Other Person's Response: Personally, I'm convinced it's #2. Imagine if I told a child to create a melody that conveys something powerful and profound such as a couple falling in love. Sure, that child would come up with a tune, claim it's something great, conveys what he describes, and that he's an unrecognized genius who simply needs to make his melodies understandable for other listeners. But that child knows nothing and he's only deluding himself. From there, he would only remain in denial to continue to stick by his claim despite other skilled musicians telling him his tune is garbage (even when fully crafted).
My Reply: You could be right. But I'm still going with #1. I don't think I'm the equivalent of a mere child. I'm more of a person than that and I think I can be inspired to come up with truly great melodies in my head.
Other Person's Response: It has nothing to do with how great you are as a person. Music is like any other skill. If you have very little to no knowledge and experience, then you can't expect to come up with any great tune in your head. It doesn't matter even if you were the greatest, most compassionate, inspired person on Earth; without the necessary knowledge and skill, the melodies you come up with in your head will be crap.
My Reply: Music is something very personal to me and I think I can come up with truly great melodies in my mind by channeling my inspired greatness as an individual. I don't think coming up with great, powerful tunes in your mind is a matter of knowledge and experience. If I wish to express a form of greatness in my mind whether it be a tune or a landscape, I can channel my greatness and create an amazing work of art in my head.
Music is my inspiration and, thus, I don't bother coming up with amazing visuals in my mind. I do explain later on that our brains have an instinctive form of knowledge that allows us to create amazing works of art in our minds. It's not the type of knowledge one would learn from reading and studying up on things. It takes a great, inspired artist to tap into this knowledge and create an awesome work of art in his mind.
Other Person's Response: Your line of logic seems to be:
"If I channel powerful, profound emotion into creating melodies in my mind that I think convey said emotion, then they really do convey said emotion and are great melodies. From there, other people just don't recognize their greatness and power at this stage since they don't have the proper beat, chords, and harmony to make their power realized."
Sorry. That's now how it works. If you wish to create truly great tunes and themes in your head that express the emotion you want to convey, you need to know how to do that. You can't expect to be a great musician in your head just as how you can't expect to be a genius like Einstein in your head if you don't know how music works and how physics works.
My Reply: I think, when it comes to music, it's a different scenario and I explain why soon enough.
Other Person's Response: Your conclusion that these created tunes in your mind are great and convey the scenes you describe is irrational. It seems you don't have much capacity for rational thought. If you were a rational thinking person, you would've realized your melodies are meaningless garbage like other people have been telling you.
My Reply: We'll see who's the irrational one once I fully craft these melodies.
Other Person's Response: Do you wish to create good lyrics to your music?
My Reply: I don't need to. I'm concerned with just creating very good, emotionally powerful, and catchy music. Let's pretend I do create such music and it had awful lyrics, it would still be great music simply because of its power and catchiness. If anyone wishes to add their own lyrics to any fully crafted music I share in the future, that's fine. So, I'm not really concerned about being someone who comes up with good lyrics.
Other Person's Response: You see, Matt the Fraud, people who compose music that other people may want to listen to don't write whopping great treatises about what they are going to do. They simply get on with it. However, having heard bits and bobs of your previous attempts, I'd strongly advise you to take up gardening.
My Reply: First of all, I'm not trying to fraud anybody. I give all the reasons why I think these tunes I hear in my mind really are great and catchy. Second, I haven't been feeling up to composing yet due to my miserable, unhappy struggles. Therefore, I have instead chosen to write about my composing dream in the meantime until I feel up to learning how to compose. Lastly, my tunes might very well sound awful and that is to be expected at this point.
Even though I've gotten the right notes and rests to these amazing, catchy tunes I hear in my mind, that's not enough in order for music to sound good. So, all you're listening to is the notes and rests to these tunes. But something more is needed to successfully convey the greatness and catchy quality of these tunes and I don't know what that is yet. I have to learn it.
Other Person's Response: It seems to me you really are trying to fraud people. Why else would you write this whole packet?
My Reply: It's because I have problems with the personal views of other people and I feel the need to speak up for myself and to thoroughly address said issues. I have an issue with other people who claim that my emotions aren't the source of value in my life. So, that's why I've written so many of my other packets which talk about how emotions are value judgments.
I also have an issue with people who have unreasonably high standards when it comes to works of art whether said works be comedy, music, or anything else. So, that's why I've written this whole packet. I also just wish to share everything that's on my mind regarding my composing dream. It would be like how someone wishes to write every single thing that's on his mind in his journal and share it.
Other Person's Response: Even if your music turns out to be amazing, that doesn't make you an amazing person.
My Reply: Music is an expression of our personality. Therefore, if you create amazing music, that makes you an amazing person. If there was a horrible person who created amazing music, that person would be horrible in one area, but would be an amazing person in another area.
Actually, according to my definition, positive emotions are what make you an amazing person and negative emotions are what make you a horrible or disgusting person.
But I'm not going by my personal definition here. As a matter of fact, I go outside my personal definition of beauty and greatness when I talk about how other people can't appreciate the greatness and beauty of artwork.
Other Person's Response: I could also restate your line of logic as:
"I completely disagree with others when they say the melodies in my mind I'm trying to convey are meaningless crap. Music is an expression of our personality. Since I know how to express myself as an individual, then that means I instinctively know how to express various forms of power and greatness through music in my own head. In other words, I don't need to study up on how music works in order for me to create great, powerful melodies in my head. But I do need to study if I wish to convey these melodies and their greatness/power in the real world (which I plan on doing)."
My Reply: Yes.
Other Person's Response: Although I admire the type of inspiration you're channeling to create these melodies in your mind since you're inspired to come up with awesome, evil, powerful, dark tunes, what good is that if all you're creating is shit music both in your head and in the real world? Just because you have an awesome inspiration doesn't mean the works of art you create in your head will be awesome, too.
My Reply: I don't think such awesome inspiration/emotion is yielding shit melodies in my mind. I think these melodies in my mind reflect the awesome inspiration used in creating them. I just have to find a way to convey these melodies.
Other Person's Response: I think you're confusing the amazing, powerful emotion used in creating your melodies with the melodies themselves. You see them as being one when they're not.
My Reply: I can still be apathetic (emotionless) and come up with a melody in my head that I think is awesome and powerful.
Other Person's Response: The value system you live by is shit and your music is shit! Some life! Some talent!
My Reply: That's just your opinion. I have my own personal views and I often times find myself disagreeing with a lot of people.
Other Person's Response: You keep using the term "catchy" to describe music. What do you mean by that?
My Reply: Music that is catchy is also called "earworms." That means they're tunes or songs that stick in your mind and repeat over and over again. Like I said, I think I'm creating catchy tunes in my mind.
I even hear professional, beautiful singers singing some of my created tunes in my head because I sometimes use beautiful singers to come up with melodies in my head.
Other Person's Response: How do you come up with your great, catchy melodies? Do you just pick what series of notes sound good to you?
My Reply: No. It's nothing like a student being with a music teacher who says to pick what series of notes sound good to him. An average lay person would use this method in coming up with melodies that sound good to him. How do you think Koji Kondo created the Super Mario theme?
I bet he didn't just sit there and picked what series of notes sounded good to him. What I do to create my melodies is I let the emotion/inspiration create the melodies for me. It's as though I can use pure emotion/inspiration alone to sculpt a musical work of art in my own mind.
This method is something greater and goes deeper than just playing around on the keyboard to come up with tunes or just casually coming up with melodies in your mind that sound good to you.
This greater method is like using your own soul or your very life essence to craft music rather than just being an average person coming up with average melodies. It would be like a person deeply inspired to come up with great music as opposed to an average person going to work and making music as an ordinary job that he likes and enjoys.
Other Person's Response: So, you're basically saying that music is a very profound, spiritual thing and, thus, you can come up with great, powerful tunes in your head through your very soul rather than through actually studying up on things and learning how to do it.
My Reply: Yes.
Other Person's Response: You can't create any amazing, catchy music in your mind if you don't know how to do it. So, you're only deluding yourself into believing these tunes you have in your head convey scenes, are catchy, and are great tunes.
My Reply: I know instinctively how to express sadness, anger, or joy if I felt sad, angry, or joyful. The same idea applies to making music in my mind. I know instinctively how to create great, catchy tunes in my mind that express whatever emotion I'm feeling.
I would call my musical instinct a higher instinct and a more advanced form of expression since I'm creating amazing, emotionally powerful and profound tunes in my head as opposed to simply performing certain gestures or tones of voice. In other words, I can express myself through music far better than what any tones, acts, and gestures can.
Only in my mind though at this point. So, you are wrong. I don't need to know how music works. I just need to channel whatever emotion I'm feeling. The only time I need to know how music works is if I wish to successfully convey the music I hear in my mind (which I want to do).
Also, I only channel the positive emotions because I see nothing beautiful about negative emotions. When I create dark or dramatic sounding tunes, I'm actually channeling positive emotions. They would be powerful, dramatic, good feelings.
Other Person's Response: So, you're basically saying that music is instinctive and that a person doesn't need to study up on things to create great music in his head?
My Reply: Yes. But he does need to if he wishes to successfully convey his artistic vision.
Other Person's Response: Your whole idea that you somehow know instinctively how to create good, powerful, and catchy music in your head is plain nonsense!
My Reply: Music is a part of me since it's something so profound and beautiful to me. I may not know music technically. But I do know it personally (instinctively). So, I consider music to be an extension of myself which means I can instinctively create great music in my head.
I do not need to know the technical information of how to express love, hate, sorrow, or joy because I can do that naturally on my own. Sure, there is technical information on that (which has to do with evolution and psychology).
If I was a robot, then I would read this technical information because I wouldn't have the instincts of a human being. But, since I am a human being, then I can instinctively express things like love and joy without studying up on evolution and psychology.
The same thing applies to music. That's how I instinctively know how to create powerful and catchy tunes in my head that express whatever I want to express. For now, I'm just creating tunes and not anything fully crafted in my head.
Other Person's Response: I think I know what's going on here. You can't tell the difference between a tune that's awful gibberish and a tune that's good and catchy.
Since you don't know what makes a good, catchy tune that conveys scenes or characters due to your lack of musical knowledge, then that leaves you creating gibberish tunes in your mind that you think are good, catchy, and convey scenes.
In other words, fully crafting these tunes is futile since they're all meaningless, awful gibberish anyway. It would really be no different than a child playing around on the keyboard, plucking random notes, and then saying he's got something great to fully craft and share to the world.
My Reply: We can't say for sure if this is the case yet. Besides, if these tunes I've made convey such profound meaning to me, then they have to be good, catchy tunes. If I were to listen to some kids plucking out random notes on keyboards or making random ruckus with their guitars, then I'm quite sure I would see that as awful gibberish. So, the very fact that I see my tunes as great and catchy must mean they are great and catchy.
Other Person's Response: What you're doing here is making an irrational judgment of these tunes you have in your head because it's a judgment that doesn't match up with reality. As a matter of fact, many people make such irrational judgments all the time. For example, I could truly perceive a random stranger on my streets as a horrible, disgusting person simply because this is how I feel about him/her. But that would be my own judgment which doesn't make it true.
My Reply: I don't know about that yet. It could really be the case these tunes really are that great and that I just have to find a way to convey them. Music is something so personal and profound to me that it could be the case I can naturally come up with great tunes in my head through inspiration alone.
It would be like how an anime character is profoundly connected to the fire spirit and, as a result, is naturally gifted in the art of the fire spirit. That character would be gifted mentally since it's a mental/spiritual connection with the fire spirit.
In other words, that character can be inspired with wonderful, amazing ideas through the fire spirit. But some knowledge and training would be needed in order for that character to convey his ideas.
This analogy applies to me because I would be profoundly connected to the spirit of music and can be inspired to come up with great tunes in my head. I'm not saying the spirit of music is an actual spirit. That would just be a metaphor.
Other Person's Response: I think you will eventually come to realize that, even though your notes do adhere to a key, your tunes really convey nothing and are nothing great or catchy. Even if your tunes become fully crafted, they would still be meaningless tunes. Once you learn more about composing, you should come to realize this.
My Reply: If that's the case, then I'm not sure at this point how I'm supposed to come up with any real good, catchy tunes that convey the scenes I want to convey. I've been relying on my instincts/inspiration alone to do the job. But, if all that's doing is resulting in the creation of meaningless, worthless tunes, then I would have to rely on a different method that actually works.
Even if I fully knew everything I needed to know about composing, my whole method of channeling emotion/inspiration into my mind in creating tunes would only yield these meaningless tunes. So, if there's some other method out there that works, then I would love to learn it.
Another thing here. I know I said earlier I got the right notes and rests to these tunes down. But I'm not ear trained. So, it could be the case that I simply think I've reproduced the right notes and rests to these tunes in my mind when I really didn't. From what it sounds like though, I think they are the right notes and rests.
Other Person's Response: What if you do become a fully trained and educated composer, but compose fully crafted music that's still nothing catchy and conveys nothing?
My Reply: Then I would find that quite frustrating and would give up composing if this doesn't change. From my perspective, the music I create would convey profound meaning, certain scenes, or characters I wanted to convey. But, for other people, they would be meaningless themes or tunes.
Or, at least, something that doesn't convey what I described at all. Instead, it could be lame music that conveys something bland and unappealing. My whole point in composing is to create music that conveys something appealing and great. In other words, my goal is to create good music.
Now, one would think that me being a fully trained and educated composer is all that's needed for me to create the music I want to create. But perhaps there's something more that's needed that I just don't have. I will give another anime analogy here to get my point across since I love anime. Goku was able to achieve Super Saiyan.
But Vegeta couldn't no matter how hard he trained. In other words, Goku had something within himself that allowed him to become Super Saiyan that Vegeta didn't have. But Vegeta did go Super Saiyan later on. However, that's beside the point here.
The point I'm trying to make here is that I could go through all the education and training I want to with composing. But I would always be lacking something necessary that would allow me to compose music that's truly good and catchy. It would be something that I can't obtain through education and training.
Other Person's Response: So, you're basically saying you'll never be any good at composing no matter how much education and training you get?
My Reply: Correct. I hope that's not the case though.
Other Person's Response: I know you've talked about your mother in your previous packet. But what about your father?
My Reply: I don't live with my father and I only see him when it's my birthday (which would be September 1st). Although, he has practiced the guitar for years and is a very good guitar player. He even composes his own music. Who knows, I might have inherited some of his talent and, as a result, am creating amazing, catchy tunes in my mind. As far as I recall, I've been creating such tunes in my mind ever since I was a very young child. I even sang them.
But, since I don't know how to sing, then everyone would just hear them as gibberish tunes. As for these tunes I've created in my mind when I was a young child, they were catchy, amazing, children's tunes and not the style of tunes I'm creating in my mind now. So, I'm naturally talented when it comes to creating good tunes in my head. But I'm not naturally talented when it comes to playing an instrument, singing, or getting the notes to these tunes right the first time. I have to keep toying around on the keyboard until I think I've gotten the notes right.
Other Person's Response: Do you remember one of these tunes you've created in your mind as a young child?
My Reply: Yes. I remember it like yesterday. I will convey this tune when I know how to do it so everyone can listen to it. I'm not going to be a singer. I'm just going to compose tunes by figuring out the notes on the keyboard and going from there on musical software. Also, back then, when I was a child, I was limited to creating catchy, childish tunes in my mind since my brain didn't have enough musical information to create these new tunes I'm creating in my mind now. I talk more about this below.
Other Person's Response: Children think they're creating great tunes in their heads all the time. How are you special? Do you think you're gifted? If so, then can other people create great, amazing music in their heads somehow?
My Reply: Our brains are naturally capable of creating amazing works of art in our head, as I said before. But, how do our brains create amazing works of art on their own? Well, I think it's like learning the English language. Your brain picks it up and you learn to speak English yourself naturally. Likewise, when you listen to music your whole life, your brain naturally picks up on that which means your brain is capable of creating amazing music in your mind.
There's a software known as Rosetta Stone where people sit there, listen to new languages, and learn to speak them naturally. I think the same idea applies to other things as well such as music, visual art, etc. However, learning to speak a language is different because you can automatically convey any message you want to convey while it requires actual knowledge and training to convey the music and visual art you create in your mind.
Other Person's Response: If you know how to create amazing, catchy tunes in your mind, do you also know how to create amazing poetry in your mind or how to create an amazing story?
My Reply: No. But that's only because I never read poetry or stories as a daily routine. Had I done so, then my brain would absorb that information and I would know how to do it naturally just like how I'm able to naturally come up with amazing, catchy tunes in my mind.
Other Person's Response: Is there any amazing work of art you can instinctively craft in your mind besides good music?
My Reply: Yes. I can come with awesome fighting moves in my mind. I can imagine 2 characters fighting and performing awesome, complex moves. These are moves better than what the average person would come up with.
Since I've played video games and watched anime my whole life where characters fight, then I instinctively know how to create skilled moves in my mind just like I instinctively know how to speak the English language.
Of course, if I tried to convey these moves to you by any means such as performing them myself or creating them on some type of animation software of 2 stick figures fighting, I bet people would tell me these moves are awful and/or that they just don't understand these moves.
This is because I don't have the necessary animation skill or physical fighting skill to successfully convey them. But I am a skilled fighter mentally. The thing is, I wish to convey the music I hear in my mind and not any fighting moves or any visual art I create in my mind.
In other words, music is my passion and that's what I'm going for. Now, even if I did successfully convey these moves I have in my mind, it doesn't have to be the greatest martial arts display in order for it to be considered talent or something great.
As long as these moves are significantly better than what an average person would come up with, then I consider that to be talent and greatness.
For example, the average person might have one character simply beating another character's face back and forth or having one character simply keep on throwing energy blasts.
In other words, think of the average moves a child or a young teenager would come up with who knows nothing about martial arts. As for me, I would create moves that make a much better work of art. They would be sophisticated moves.
Other Person's Response: So, according to you, any work of art that's significantly better than what an average person would come up with (such as your martial arts example) is talent and greatness?
My Reply: Yes. That's why I consider the comedy scenes I make to be talent and greatness despite the fact they're not the best comedy scenes in the world. I personally think my last comedy scene is the best of them all in this packet. You see certain comedy scenes in cartoons and anime and, even though they're not the best in the world, they're still great since they're better than what the average person could come up with. The same idea applies to my comedy scenes.
Other Person's Response: Do you think any fully crafted tunes will turn out to be much better than your comedy scenes?
My Reply: Yes. Even my best comedy scenes.
Other Person's Response: I know plenty of people who don't know anything about composing, but are unable to create good music in their minds since they don't know how to do it. By your logic, they should know how to do it.
My Reply: Their brains already know how to create good music. They just need that inspiration which would allow their brains to tap into that knowledge they have. By tapping into that knowledge, they will be able to create good music in their mind. There are certain methods that allow our brains to tap into that knowledge to create amazing works of art in our minds. The example I gave was dreams, near death experiences, or psychedelic drugs. But inspiration can also do the trick.
Other Person's Response: I really don't think deeply inspired people who know nothing about how music works can create amazing music in their minds. The same rule applies to other artwork.
My Reply: If that's so, then maybe it's just because they don't have the ability to tap into artistic greatness during their normal, waking life. I have that ability and maybe other people can develop it, too. I would imagine there are people who have that ability. As for those people who don't have that ability, then they'll have to rely on dreams and drug trips to mentally create amazing works of art.
Other Person's Response: What works of art are our brains naturally capable of creating then?
My Reply: It could be anything. Even a new song by Michael Jackson that is just as great, powerful, profound, memorable, and catchy as any one of his songs. If you've ever listened to MJ's music, then your brain already has all the information it needs to create a new song that is just as good as MJ's songs. Your brain would know the very soul or personality of his music and create a whole new song.