Single Status Update
I'm back! And I am in good enough condition mentally and emotionally to return here. And oh boy did I have a struggle of it for a little while. In truth, I had a lot of built up emotional issues from drama and negativity in IRL. And since I am not exactly one to express myself all that much, I tend to bottle it inside. This unfortunately left me wanting to die in a corner and be forgotten. I was left in a fog of uncertainty about anything.
But the turning point for the better happened yesterday when I went to a house party and enjoyed myself. It was even better that it was out in the middle of nowhere. I got to unplug entirely and relax. If anything, I think that is what I needed. I needed to unplug and have a cleanse of all that negativity from recent events.
Also I have decided to stay here. I did have a period of dought where I was feeling like I wanted to leave here and let myself be forgotten. But I guess there is still enough of my own will remaining that I refused to give up on this place. And it honestly feels like a shame to leave without a explanation. Especially since I've started to meet some really friendly people here. It's not often anymore that I'd allow myself to open up, but it really doesn't feel like a mistake in this instance.