Single Status Update
I have a hard time trusting others. Somehow I developed this thought that everyone I attempt to get close to will betray me and leave me if i’m not perfect enough. So I guess relationships require you to be fake and pretend to be someone else. I don’t want to perform for anyone anymore, I don’t want to disappoint anyone no more since i’m good at doing that apparently.
I’m slowly becoming addicted to certain things. I guess it helps to cover the empty feelings I have and the sense of not belonging to any group. I’m used to being rejected, i’m just not in the mood to get people to like me. I don’t really care in all honesty.
Sometimes I wonder if i’ll even make it through my twenties or even until next year. I don’t know.
Join the club, I know exactly how you feel for years (just not with the perfect enough thing, it was the case of people changing their personalities for the worst). To this day, I cannot trust a single person whether in real life or online (where people do make up more false personalities even though you do see them with the former as well). It also doesn't help where I come from either... Would describe the people around me but it might be offensive. Probably why I doubled down with games and food around 5 years ago just to fill a gap. Am getting a bit better than in the past as in that I have got rid of some games and not eating as much but now I'm a bit flustered at the moment.
Sometimes I wonder if I make it past this year and lucky if I do...
@SupahBerry You are one lucky person. I mean it is possible just depends where you live, what personality you have and what websites you go to. Anyone who has a genuine friend with a compatible personality is lucky and anyone who has a girlfriend/boyfriend is beyond lucky.