Well we don't want that at all. I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. I hope you figure out what is bothering you and most importantly that you feel better soon. And you know I'm here if you want to vent or whatever.
I'm pretty much like this every single day, and in all my experiences with this consistent feeling (so like 12 years almost) you'd think I'd be able to offer some kind of advice, but uh no I can't. So I'll just say hang in there I hope you get better.